Thinking

Heya!
I'm having a record week, as you can see ;)

So, I was just reading Yuki's (the Estonian one she writes) and I just got thinking and I thought I share with you some on my random thoughts.

Recently, I have stopped thinking completely when it comes to myself. Like, I don't think about the future so much and I keep myself busy. It used to be another way around - I thought to much and got nothing done. I just don't feel like thinking who am I, that am I going to do next, what happened in the past (I mostly don't remember XD). Just like do something but I guess I have routed my thoughts to my paintings lately, directed my emotions there. Like, when I got my a bad grade in Estonian class, I painted a picture where there are like an explosion. To me, it was an explosion but to others they saw something else, and another one I did that day, I called it "Bursting with rage" and what my mom saw in it? "Oh, what a pretty flowers." -.- It's not normal XD But the art is in the eye of the beholder.

Maybe it's a good thing that I don't think. Then I can't get depressed by doubting myself that I can't make it in the world  but then again if I don't think and just do, I don't realize what kind of effect it might bring to my future. Man, it's a difficult world here. It's like everything I do or don't do effect me in one point or another. The best example is my mom on deciding to go work for a school in Viljandi. If she had chose the other place, she wouldn't have me, she would have that great husband she has now and maybe she would never have never become a religious person. OH DEAR!

That reminds me - Yuki dragged me to a dance house on Friday. It was kind of a homework assignment for her but she brought me along as well. And I'm glad that she did. It was one of the most fun I had lately.

On Satruday I met up with MS. She fell asleep on me + I got my phone back and it was emptied out. Nice huh? But that's okay, that just gives me a chance to load it up with more shit XD I also went to LO place and we "studied" Physics. I remember laughing most of the time XD

And now I'm continuing my Art History studies. I have to learn 134 pictures for the next test. Easy A, don't you think? XD Today it's form Baroque to Classicism. Good luck to me! ^.^


Oh, I was home alone most of the weekend but hardly got to enjoy it, though. Today I left the house somewhere after 11AM and arrived home 8.30PM XD And I have to say, except for the fear of losing my keys, I like being home alone. It's much calmer here but then again it sometimes feels it's like too quiet. When mom is home I can hear Spanish in the living room or just TV in general and when dads home the ventilation is on because he smokes, A LOT! Like two pack A DAY!


Okay, so back to business!

XOXO Natsumi ^^

PS. Me and LO  developed a special feeling towards raintrops XD