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I found a questionaire in Tumblr. I love filling those XDD
It has over 80 questions. IT'S A CHALLENGE XDD

• 1. Are looks important in a relationship? If we are already in a relationship, then probably not but when you first see that special someone, I would be lying if I said no...
• 2. Are relationships ever worth it? Of course they are!
• 3. Are you a virgin? ...Yes
• 4. Are you in a relationship? No, not at the moment
• 5. Are you in love? Not in that way :)
• 6. Are you single this year? Probably
• 7. Can you commit to one person? I think I can
• 8. Describe your crush: I don't have a crush...
• 9. Describe your perfect mate: Perfection is overrated. I don't like to set standards for people but there is one thing I would like - he has to be little jealous or maybe a little possessive, so that I would know that he just doesn't take me for granted
• 10. Do you believe in love at first sight? Yes
• 11. Do you ever want to get married? At the moment, I would say no but maybe when I find that special someone, I would reconsider.
• 12. Do you forgive betrayal? No! Not fully anyways because when he/she betrays me once there is no guarantee that he/she would do it again.
• 13. Do you get jealous easily? I don't know XD
• 14. Do you have a crush on anyone? Not at the moment
• 15. Do you have any piercings? Only pierced ears...
• 16. Do you have any tattoos? No, but I would like two XDD
• 17. Do you like kissing in public? Depends on the place. As a goodbye kiss, yeah why not, but just slobbering on a random street corner...no!
• 20. Do you shower every day? No
• 21. Do you think someone has feelings for you? Probably not XD
• 22. Do you think someone is thinking about you right now? Maybe! (my mom probably is wondering why I keep smiling to myself XDD)
• 23. Do you think you can last in a relationship for 6 months and not cheat? YES!
• 24. Do you think you’ll be married in 5 years? Probably not...
• 25. Do you want to be in a relationship this year? I'm not looking for someone but if there will come a special someone, I wouldn't turn him down.
• 26. Has anyone told you they don’t want to ever lose you? Yes
• 27. Has someone ever written a song or poem for you? I hope not XD
• 28. Have you ever been cheated on? No
• 29. Have you ever cheated on someone? No
• 30. Have you ever considered plastic surgery? If so, what would you change about your body? No, not really. I am conscious about somethings about myself but I would never do so drastic.
• 31. Have you ever cried over a guy/girl? No
• 32. Have you ever experienced unrequited love? No
• 33. Have you ever had sex with a man? No
• 34. Have you ever had sex with a woman? No
• 35. Have you ever kissed someone older than you? No
• 36. Have you ever liked one of your best friends? As if like-like? No
• 37. Have you ever liked someone who your friends hated? No
• 38. Have you ever liked someone you didn’t expect to? No
• 39. Have you ever wanted someone you couldn’t have? Yes XD
• 40. Have you ever written a song or poem for someone? No
• 41. Have you had sex so far this year? No
• 42. How long can you just kiss until your hands start to wander? I have no idea
• 43. How long was your longest relationship? 2  weeks
• 44. How many boyfriends/girlfriends have you had? 1
• 45. How many people did you kiss in 2011? 0
• 46. How many times did you have sex last year? 0
• 47. How old are you? 19
• 48. If the person you like says they like someone else, what would you say? "I'm happy for you"?
• 49. If you have a boyfriend/girlfriend, what is your favorite thing about him/her? ...
• 50. If your first true love knocked on your door with apology and presents, would you accept? I have no idea
• 51. Is there a boy/girl who you would do absolutely everything for? Yeah, my best friend XD
• 52. Is there anyone you’ve given up on? Why? Yes...If she doesn't want to be friends with me, so why would I have to try
• 53. Is there someone mad because you’re dating/talking to the person you are? Yeah, I don't really get that question XDD
• 54. Is there someone you will never forget? Yes
• 55. Share a relationship story. I once dated a boy when I was rather young. I didn't really know what a relationship was but I was with him because he wanted to be with me. We never kissed and we broke up because he moved to Norway with his parents...
• 56. State 8 facts about your body:
  1) I have a squared face.
  2) My body shape is a goblet.3) I have really long legs.
  4) I have a short upper part.
  5) I have a very small butt XD6) My tummy is too big for my liking.
  7) I like the shape of my thumbs.
  8) I have a C cup XDD
• 57. Things you want to say to an ex Just because we broke up, it doesn't mean that I don't care about you anymore.
• 58. What are five ways to win your heart?
  1) You have to be persistent but in a nice way XD
  2) Don't come up to me with cheesy pick up lines, just talk to me.
  3) (WOW THIS IS HARD) Give me white roses XD
  4) Cook for me ^.^
  5) Don't make expensive gifts for me..make something yourself (like point 4)) or give me something you already own etc
• 59. What do you look like? (Post a picture!)
  
  
• 60. What is the biggest age difference between you and any of your partners? 44 years o.O
• 61. What is the first thing you notice in someone? His/her hands
• 62. What is the sexiest thing someone could ever do for/to you? - Sexiest thing? o.O I have no idea. 
• 63. What is your definition of “having sex”? Umm, when you....you know...why would you ask something like that XD
• 64. What is your definition of cheating? I don't know why but I feel that ,if my partner kisses/has sex with someone and doesn't admit it, I would call it cheating but if he admits wrong and actually feels sorry for it, then no. That's how I see things now but I believe that when I'm in actual relationship, my view will change...
• 65. What is your favourite foreplay routine? - What the heck? Making out?
• 66. What is your favourite roleplay? I HAVE NO IDEA!
• 67. What is your idea of the perfect date? Hmmm...something simple because I think the main thing is that we are together and get a chance to get to know each other...
• 68. What is your sexual orientation? Straight!
• 69. What turns you off? When a guy calls me sugar...
• 70. What turns you on?  I have no idea...
• 71. What was your kinkiest wet dream? I haven't had those yet...
• 72. What words do you like to hear during sex? Dunno
• 73. What’s something sweet you’d like someone to do for you? Hugs me for no reason ^.^
• 74. What’s the most superficial characteristic you look for? He has to be taller than me...
• 75. What’s the sweetest thing anyone’s ever done for you? Drawn me a picture...
• 76. What’s the sweetest thing you’ve ever done for someone? Wrote what I love about them ^.^
• 77. What’s your opinion on age differences in relationships? I think that a man may to older than the woman but then again does age really matter? As long as two people love each other, that's all it counts.
• 78. What’s your dirtiest secret? - Dirtiest? I don't think I have one, I would probably tell if I had...
• 79. When was the last time you felt jealous? Why?  Today on Tumblr. I was jealous of a girl who had a perfect tummy...
• 80. When was the last time you told someone you loved them? about four hours ago, I told my dad that I loved him (and he said that he loves me more that I can imagine)
• 81. Who are five people you find attractive?
  1) Lee Jungshin
  2) Johnny Depp
  3) Kaname-sempai (Kuran Kaname)
  4) The guy who plays Nolen Ross in Revenge ^.^
  5) Uruha (the Gazette)
• 82. Who is the last person you hugged? My dad
• 83. Who was your first kiss with? ...
• 84. Why did your last relationship fail? He moved
• 85. Would you ever date someone off of the Internet? No, I don't believe in that

And that was it. IF you finished reading it, I hope it gave you a little insight of me and you don't think I'm too weird  =^.^=

XOXO Natsumiiiii ^^
PS. This is my last night in Viljandi....

Skiing

Hello, my lovelies!

So, without long and pointless intro, I'll cut to the chase XD

Last post I did on...Wendsday, so the first thing and the most important thing is that for THE first time in MY life I went to an opera or went to see it or....what ever XD Anyways, had a long day at school. Okay, maybe not that long but 6h before I got home to change and wash-up. But before, me and dad went to the store. I got too pick up some food for school and other snacks. I think, you all know that I don't eat in school but lately I have more and more. That's not the point XD

Anyways, I found out that sometimes I'm a regular woman XD When I needed to get ready, I needed more that 2 hours XDD Okay-okay, it's not that bad because I also ate, put my bag together and did other stuff. Basically two hours before the show I had to be in the bus stop so my private bus could pick me up XDD There I met up with MP - she lives also in the city center, so it was easier to meet there. She looks really-really great but not really for the winter weather. (I'll add pictures)

Of course we had to stop at the McDonald's before we went to the theater XD But I have to say that Hesburger's chickenburger is better than at McDonald's. Anyways, the opera itself...

...well, it was definitely different XD The biggest surprise was that the two male leads were Asians. Well, to my dear classmates they were Japanese -.- Actually, it was Chinese and Korean. They were brothers in that play and they were separated at a very young age. The younger one (Chinese) was kidnapped by a  gypsy who sought revenge for her mother who was burned alive. She wanted to do the same and throw the infant into the fire but, I didn't quite understand whether he felt sorry for the little boy or threw her own child there by accident, anyways, she ended up raising him as her own. The two brothers met because they fell in love with the same girl (go figure!) and almost killed each other but the younger one froze but when the elder one stabbed him, the "mother" savored him. The two brothers met again when their loved one almost became a nun but the younger one saved her and they were about to marry when the older one captured the "mother" and the younger went to save her. They ended up in prison. The girl send her love out to him XD and eventually traded herself for the younger one's freedom and drank poison. Then there was a REALLY long scene when she died and then the older one found out that and sliced his brothers throat and of course AFTER that the gypsy told him that, okay sang to him, that it's your bro. AND if you are wondering which opera I'm talking about it's the Troubadour (Trubaduur in Estonian).

"Il trovatore (The Troubadour) is an opera in four acts by Giuseppe Verdi to an Italian libretto by Salvadore Cammarano, based on the play El Trovador (1836) by Antonio García Gutiérrez." - source Wikipedia.

The first part (until recess) went really fast. It's was like: "Hour already? XD" (Oh, I wish that Estonian lessons would go by that feast XD) Oh, I forgot to mention. The theater we went to was Vanemuine and it's located in Tartu (about 78 km east where I live ^.^)

From the left MP, HP and me ^.^ I really love my outfit and I have to say that MP is the tallest girl in my class so HP isn't the shortest one. And I'm wearing heels, which is very UNCOMMON with me ^.^ But I didn't fall or trip, so they are my best high heels XDD I graduated with them too ^.^

Towards the end of the opera, I sta rted to fall asleep -blush- but not that it was boring XD Just that not enough sleep + sixs hours in school + a dark room = sleepy Natsu ^.^

On Friday, I had a lecture at school. It was about the beauty of Math and then some stuff about informatics. In my opinion the first presentation was nicer but the second man talked better XD I think that one or two pictures throughout the presentation is goo and not every slide has to have at least one.  And after, I met up with Yuki. We went ic-skating without the skates XD Just dragged our feet along the ice and chatted. It is always nice to see her ^.^ And on Sunday I went to her place and the new week begun.

Lately I have had a lot of firsts - first time I went to the opera and the first time (in 10 years) I went skiiing XD Yeah, let's just say first opera was better because I fell 2 times on my butt with skis XDD Yeah,  I like moved 5 inches *thump* then another 5 and a hill came. Slinding-sliding *thump* HAHAHA! So yeah, the teacher spend the next hour teaching me different techniques in skiing. Thank god, I only have to ski 4 times to get a 5 and then I don't ever have to get on them again XD In a way, I and TT are different. She loves skiing and dislikes ice-skating, I'm vice versa XD I don't remember how many times I cursed skiing but let's just say that we are kind of frenemies XDD And of course after school I had to prepare for up and coming Valentines day. In Estonia it's kind of considered friendship day, so I folded flowers and made my bestest friend a "painting"

 
 In my opinion, it's not the best one but my mom said: "Don't give that to Yuki, rather give it to me!" and dad said that it was beautiful AND the Yuki herself agreed with dad ^.^ I'm glad :)

And what she gave me! Some REALLY cute stickers, then some delicious cookies and this...

 I think it's the most original idea ever and it looks so awesome and next to my "painting" the best thing ever.

On Tuesday, I had another test in Music class, even harder one, and today it was Physics test and tomorrow Social studies and Friday Math...OH BOY! And to top that all off I felt so terrible today. I only went to school to do the Physics test and then I came home.

I have to say, I love the new camera with all the new gadgets and the sharpness and kind of like everything about it XDD But just wait couple of week, I will find a flaw XDD

I don't have a Tumblr account but I found someone else's and that chick is nuts!
http://thinspiration-for-those-who-seek.tumblr.com/ - the link is here if anyone is interested. Basically she admires bulimics and anorexics for their determination to be shinny. Like WHAT THE HELL! It's a disease and not a weight-loss-plan. And to top it all of she gives advice. Everyone asks her about their UGW (Ultimate Goal Wight) if their height is this and that and in her opinion, I, if I'm 175, should weight 48 kg. That is obviously too little. And the worse news is that little 13 year olds follow her (or what ever you do on Tumblr) but fortunately, she has decency to tell them that they are still growing children.
Surely, I want to be skinnier than I am but I wouldn't take ridiculous goal weights and starve myself. And especially when I'm in school. My brain just wouldn't function when I don't eat and if I will reach that UGW that she recommended none of my clothes would fit XDD

Okay, my darlings, I should go and rest now and hopefully I can go to school tomorrow

> ^ . ^ <

XOXO Natsumiiiii ^^

PS. I'm not much of a photo editor XDD

Snow

ONFRIDAY IT WAS SNOWING!! ^.^

And except for the wind and the freezing hands hands, It was so awesome and beautiful. There were like really big snowflakes and I love that crunching sound when you step on the snow. It kind of felt like a fairy-tale ^.^  And somewhere around Saturday afternoon, it was drizzling. It looked awesome o.O But the bad news is that the snow melts like really fast ://

So, what have I been up to? The days go by so quickly. I'm always doing something and lately come home around 6 or 7PM. Have LOADS of things to do and sometimes just playing computer games just to relieve some tension to study again. Yes, school :/ It takes all the time. Like RP said:

School: All Day

Homework: All Night

Exams: WTF!?

I would say, well said, RP. Maybe I'm not the most diligent student because of the computer games but then again if I don't play them I will lose my mind.

That reminds me, I had a test in Estonian on friday. At first I felt like it went great. Then I talked to KT about it and I got a shaky ground because our answers were totally different. When I talked to LO about it, I started to feel desperate. She had COMPLETELY different answers. And, oh, the teacher said before I left that there are no right answers. Hahahaha -sarcastic laugh- Yeah right, my dear teacher! XD

So, my mom decided to get her hair done on friday. Basically she cut it pretty short. When I first saw, mom happened to be in the store, I was like: "What the hell did you do?" And the cashier answered to my question immediately:"But it looks nice!" XDD Yeah, didn't see that one coming XDD But she was right - it does look good - but it's just that I have always liked the long hair and so I prefer them too :) 

I had a nice time in the afternoon with Yuki that day too. We just chatted and drank coffee. Later we sat in my room where I gave her a more detailed review of my now favourite book "Blood ties". I'm still in love with Nathan or Nolan or what ever his name is ^.^ And I have almost finished reading it (just few chapters for toninght). I have reached to both of the sex scenes by now XD And by both I mean with Nathan and Cyrus. One was dirtier than the other and there was nothing sweet about it. To be completely honest, with Cyrus I was kind of expecting something like that  just because he was kind of a dirty man but with Nathan...at least 3 times I thought: „Too much information!“ It turns out that Nathan had a really dark past. He basically killed his own wife. I think that it might have been because of the blood ties. Did I mention what was so special about it? Basically master and his/her slave share thoughts and feelings and flashes from the past. So, it’s a really exciting book and if you aren’t against vampires, I recommend to read it ^.^ Tomorrow I get the second book

And, I have mastered three origami flowers. Hell yeah! I love live love folding. 

I wanted to add pictures but too tired to find some but I can do a lily (simpler one) and a dasy and an easier lotus. When it comes to origami, I’m rahther a fast learner and it is really calming (even if I don’t get it right the first time XD)

I have warmed up some old acquaintances. They are both really great girls but just the distance does it’s job. One of them I met in a camp couple of years ago. I got along with her really well and she is a real sweetheart but she lives like 30 km away from Viljandi. Looks like her life has changed a lot and I have kind of missed her. She has been the one person with who I started crying when I had to left. I’m going to call ger TT 2.0 XD The other one used to be my deskmate in English class but she lef the school. That was pretty sad but she wanted to change schools. To be honest, I think that her doing was a bit reckless – she left before the final year. Then again who am I to judge. I was happy to hear that female HR is doing good in the new school.

So, tomorrow a new week will start – OH DEAR – but just 11 days until Christmas break. I can make it!! Hopefully XD 

XOXO Natsumiiiii ^^

PS.  Wish me luck! I'm going to need it XD

Teachers

November just isn't my month. Like seriously! But today I'm not about to whine (not yet anyway XDD)

Anways, teacher. Yeah, I want to tell the world that not all my teachers are bad (like Estonian one). For example:
History teacher - she is the most concerned teacher ever. Tomorrow there is a history test and today she came up to me and asked: "Natsumi, are you sure you can take the test tomorrow? I saw that you have been absent a lot and maybe you don't have all the material. So, how about December 1." At first I was blown away and really didn't say anything. But I decided that I'll take the test the day she offered and in the mean time arrange some of the other things that I have to do. But still, It was so sweet of her. She is my absolute fave ^.^

An other teacher who just don't treat my like an annoying student is my Art History teacher. As you all know, I'm doing an Art History research (well suppose to do but there is so much to do, so yeah, fallen a little behind with it but anyways, today when I went to take the oral test for those 134 pictures, got a 5 BTW, she handed me a bunch of papers, actually 4 XD, and they were all written and she told me that they are full of painting that she could think of for my research and I was like woah (that was the longest sentance ever XDD) At first I couldn't say a thing and she explained a little more and I was like:

o.O "Thank you!"

And she, humble as ever, no problem. I mean like woah! In my research there are like 12 gods and for all of them there were like 10 painting AT LEAST. She is so helpful and every time we meet I book to help me or new list that could help me, like woah. I feel so special ^.^

Of course there is also my class teacher who really is like a second mom to me. She always helps me with Teaduskool. She solves all the problems, then I solve them , then we compare them. After I rewrite them and even on the day she gets award for being the favorite teacher in high school she still asks me if we solved all the problems in my test for Teaduskool. It's really like woah. And it's like 3 years straight and it's not even something that she has to worry about. It's kind of like extra job for her (BTW I'm about to cry at the moment XD)

I was planned to talk about the bad teachers too but I think I'll keep it that way.

So, what I have been up to? Playing computer games -blushes-. Yeah, I know, bad-bad girl.

I have been playing this:

Do you guys remember this game. Oh, I used to play it for hours when I was smaller. Like I seriously loved it and it's a part of my childhood ^.^ And, as the matter of a fact, this game was developed the year I was born (1993) XD Recently I'm pretty bad about it and I have forgot the basic places where you get goods but it has been a while. I remember that I used to call it Tarzan but it's actually Prehistorik 2.

+ I recently downloaded Need For Speed Carbon.

MAN, I'm a dork!!! XD Plus I have GTA in my computer, Sims 3 of course and If I had a table computer I would download Counter Strike + that was game me and BZ used to play and maybe something more XD I love computer games and I'm too stubborn to erase them just because I fail. My ultimate faves are racing games, I have to say XD

Oh, what else? At the moment I'm not going to complain what's wrong with my life. Like the first sentence says there is a lot, so I won't trash my blog with all of that.

But now, I'll add those pictures I promised last time ^.^

My "painting"! XD Well, that's just one part of it. Kind of left upper corner. It's like the best part of that whole thing XD

 

 I really-really like this one :) I look kind of cute in it ^.^ Maybe because it doesn't show my huge family nose XD

And on this one I look even better. The make-up looks great, my skin looks perfect and that hair...I like it but It's like one in  a million chance that I can get my hair like that ^.^ That is considered a good hair day. The more I look at this picture, I'm bothered by that blue bottle under the desk. It totally stands out on that brownish carpet...Oh, and near my head, you can see a tiger, right? That was actually made by Yuki. I think it was for my birthday this year. Actually, I have a lot of her work on my wall but they are blocked by my big head XD

Okay, for tonight, that's it. Oh, before I finish this post....

Shout out for MAÜ who said today "OH MY GOD! I READ YOUR BLOG!" LOL XD and she added that my English is good, so thank you, dear ^.^

XOXO Natsumiiiii ^^

PS. I also want to say THANK YOU, LO! for remembering my fave candy ^.^

Thinking

Heya!
I'm having a record week, as you can see ;)

So, I was just reading Yuki's (the Estonian one she writes) and I just got thinking and I thought I share with you some on my random thoughts.

Recently, I have stopped thinking completely when it comes to myself. Like, I don't think about the future so much and I keep myself busy. It used to be another way around - I thought to much and got nothing done. I just don't feel like thinking who am I, that am I going to do next, what happened in the past (I mostly don't remember XD). Just like do something but I guess I have routed my thoughts to my paintings lately, directed my emotions there. Like, when I got my a bad grade in Estonian class, I painted a picture where there are like an explosion. To me, it was an explosion but to others they saw something else, and another one I did that day, I called it "Bursting with rage" and what my mom saw in it? "Oh, what a pretty flowers." -.- It's not normal XD But the art is in the eye of the beholder.

Maybe it's a good thing that I don't think. Then I can't get depressed by doubting myself that I can't make it in the world  but then again if I don't think and just do, I don't realize what kind of effect it might bring to my future. Man, it's a difficult world here. It's like everything I do or don't do effect me in one point or another. The best example is my mom on deciding to go work for a school in Viljandi. If she had chose the other place, she wouldn't have me, she would have that great husband she has now and maybe she would never have never become a religious person. OH DEAR!

That reminds me - Yuki dragged me to a dance house on Friday. It was kind of a homework assignment for her but she brought me along as well. And I'm glad that she did. It was one of the most fun I had lately.

On Satruday I met up with MS. She fell asleep on me + I got my phone back and it was emptied out. Nice huh? But that's okay, that just gives me a chance to load it up with more shit XD I also went to LO place and we "studied" Physics. I remember laughing most of the time XD

And now I'm continuing my Art History studies. I have to learn 134 pictures for the next test. Easy A, don't you think? XD Today it's form Baroque to Classicism. Good luck to me! ^.^


Oh, I was home alone most of the weekend but hardly got to enjoy it, though. Today I left the house somewhere after 11AM and arrived home 8.30PM XD And I have to say, except for the fear of losing my keys, I like being home alone. It's much calmer here but then again it sometimes feels it's like too quiet. When mom is home I can hear Spanish in the living room or just TV in general and when dads home the ventilation is on because he smokes, A LOT! Like two pack A DAY!


Okay, so back to business!

XOXO Natsumi ^^

PS. Me and LO  developed a special feeling towards raintrops XD

Organized

I wanted to share my small happiness with you.

Last night I decided to start acting more decent and organized (and I don't include my room into that promise XD) Anyways, last night I took all my make-up off, which I hardly do. That is a very bad habit :/ I usually just go to sleep and in the morning before I put on make-up I just "erase" the imperfections. But last night I used my make-up remover I just bought and also used a little toner then a little moisturizer and my skin felt amazing. And today I washed my face and moisturized again and my skin looks great and it's super soft. I have been really lazy with taking care of my face and I go sick and tired of those little spots on my forehead, which "nobody sees". So yeah, I started to care again and just not conceal them ^.^

Another thing what has changed is organizing my day. Usually after school I would just lay or sit on my bed, waste time in internet or just read some mangas. So, I didn't do any of my homework, studied for tests in school and did my homework during lessons. Like in biology I solved math problems (bad student award). I think that's one of the reasons of my academic fall but then again it doesn't matter how prepared you are, in Estonian class the teacher always can surprise you ^.^

And how was my first day back to school? Exhausting XD Okay, I might be overreacting. In English class I did my wordtest, got a 5-. I math we studied cone again but in Biology I was the bad student but just because I had trouble with my Estonian because I didn't quite get what I was suppose to do (I still don't XD). In History we wrote a discussion. In Estonian I prayed that the teacher didn't ask me (& she didn't XD Thank god!) and in Art History I watched some really random pictures. Today we discussed surrealism and watched a really weird movie that was it :) But I didn't see TT today. I'm kind of sad :/ She also has some health problems but she promised she will be to school tomorrow. Oh, I forgot something. During when I was at home I wrote to couple of my teachers to ask about tests and other homework and only my math teacher replied to me. Why? Beacause the computers in school were busted and I got 3 apologizes today for not responding XD Oh, and my History teacher saw right through me. I don't know how but she knew that I'm an overachiever. So she asked me how did I get neuritis due to stress. The first answer she got from me is that I got a little cold but then she looked at me like she was waiting for something more. So, I eventually said that I'm under a lot of stress, so my health is weak. And she smiled and asked me to take it easy ^.^ Caring teacher, one of my favorites.

So, that's for now. I just wanted to share a litte and get off my busy schedule but for now I'll continue ^.^

-few hours late- 

You know what my problem is? I worry. I'm worried about Akira at the momement (LOL I can't even spell moment XD). I'm thinking how will TT manage then I'm thinking if Yuki is depressed again and if could help her in any way. Then I'm worried about my dad because he's health is bad. I'm worried about mom because she works too much. I'm worried about MS because I'm afraid that she might screw up and that might change her life completely. And you know what, I'm worried about this T person and I don't know him at all. And of course I'm worried about Eddy and if he can manage in the army. And how many times I said "worry"? 6 times and I'm afraid for/worrying about 8 different people and I'm the one stuck with an hurtful disease. Life is beautiful ^.^

XOXO Natsumiiiii ^^

PS. The meds I have to take make me sick XD I almost puked in Math XDD