Back!

Yeah, so I'm ignoring doctors orders (& my own promises) and I'm writing a post. SUE ME!

So, firstly I STRONGLY recommend you guys to be careful with your eyes. Don't stay too much online! Don't watch computer/TV screens in the dark! And eat lots of carrots! XD

And since I have a lot to talk about, screw the dates ^^

So school...

English teacher likes monologes recently and not that she is monologuing but she is asking us to to that. Not my favourites! And one of those times I was like my classbrother's personal dictionary and sometimes I didn't quite say words that was acceptable to him XD

SG: How do you say in one word, a girlfriend and a boyfriend smashed together
KT: I'm not sure
Natsumi: Lovers
SG - Insta blush  XDD that was so funny but eventually he used the word anyway with his tomato red face XDD

English tests are too easy. I mean I can get fives without studying for the test and I'm not saying that I'm a brainiac or something. But the teacher just don't challenge us.

In history class everybody is afraid to write anything on their own in the notebooks. Teacher gives us some excercises of finding something in the textbook or just make summaries and most of the students doesn't write anything in the notebooks until the teacher starts talking and the others just write in pencil so the can erase later.

Then September 16 was YUKI'S BIRTDAY and there was a party on the next day and then again 5 days later.

Firstly, I was super nervous about her birthday present. Usually SK and KJ give her the cutest and best gifts and let's just say the competition is rough.

So finally I made her this

Awful picture - I know - but just bare with it, since the real present has been taken apart and eaten.

So all of the things are made by me - the flowers, the cupcakes and the card (the last one was the biggest fail since I practiced and spend too much time on the flowers. Yuki didn't say anything bad, so I'm good ^.^

The party...

Firstly I was a bit afraid of it. There were 4 girls - HT & AÕ were good friends and came together and the same thing went for KJ ja SK - and me. I was kind of sure I was loner at this thing because I didn't quite communicate with those girls every day - I have seen them and aybe said hi and stuff but not really pals. Out of all 4 girl I have talked to KJ the most but still not BFFs.
It turned out that I was worried about nothing - I had a great time and SK said that I was not that scary as she originally thought. YAY!

(I would add the picture of the outfit buuuuuut the picture itself or the girl on it looks bad)

The second party...

Since Akira (before referred as LS) didn't make it on the first day then me, Yuki and her went to eat pizza and the local pizza joint.The food was great, the company was even better ^.^

And now there is 25 "wonderful" facts about me that I happened to write down ^.^
1.I usually don't drink coffee but I love those little packs which you pour to a mug and add water and you have a steaming cup of coffee.
2. I'm perfectionist, especially when it comes to school, I won't settle for less, so 4 to me is a punishment.
3. My only weakness is keeping my room clean.
4. Folding relaxes me.
5. I'm a light sleeper but it's hard to get me out of bed.
6. I like to plan.
7. I tend to get everything what I want but I don't hurt people,
8. I think too much but only afterward, usually I'm hasty and blur things out whitout thinking.
9. I'm afraid to throw up, I haven't puked for years so it has become scary.
10. I hate peas.
11.I love vanilla chocolate chipped ice-cream.
12.I love how "dreadful" sounds.
13. I'm usually haunted by songs, It's really rare when there isn't anything.
14. I hate when my English teacher doesn't correct all the pronunciation mistakes.
15. I got a scar under my chin and I got it on my 7th birthday. "Happy Birthday Natsu. Here is a scar for you XD"
16. Before K-Pop I hardly watched music videos.
17. I can't sleep with socks on.
18. I find shota disgusting.
19. I'm no fond of times when guys who suppose to be my friends hit on me.
20. I bite my lover lip when I'm thinking.
21. Since I'm left-handed, I don't write from left to right but I turn the paper etc to the right side and write from up to down.
22. I get goosebumps when I yawn/sneeze and I might also tear up.
23. Hate phrases like "make that girl mine" and "sugar" (when it's like a pet name to someone)
24. I sometimes laugh like an anime character (with shoulders shaking)
25. I don't get when people say: "My condolences." In Estonia it's "Tunnen kaasa!" aka "I feel sorry for you!" And why do you feel sorry for me? I'm alive. And another thing. Do you really feel sorry or you are just saying that because you have nothing else to say? I find it meaningless. Like someone once said - you don't HAVE TO say anything. Surely it's sad when someone dies and yes I cried when my grandpa died and I am going to miss him. I don't want to stop to this subject for long but I find that "My condolences!" is a pointless sentence.
26. I hate volleyball - I always injure myself if I play it.

Now K-Pop...
Recently I haven't watched lives much but I have some notes about old ones ^.^

Oh, before I go to actual bands I have to say that Music Core performances make me rather dizzy.
The dancers move + the camera moves at his own accord = DIZZY NATSU!


Like Yuki said couple of posts back, I have a lot to say about Beast ^.^
So yeah, few weeks ago now, I watched some Beast lives  and only some weeks ago I saw the first live of "Shock" or I saw for the first time a "Shock" live XD Don't get me wrong. I have seen the music video before and have listened to the song to. ANYWAYS the live

 There is still something charming about Junhyung, Yuki's man Dongwoon has an attitude when he's dancing/singing and I didn't recognize Hyunseung. Speaking of Hyunseung, I found him a look-a-like and it's a girl XDD

 














 

 They look similar right right RIGHT!?!?

ANYWAYS in this live and another live that they did on the same day, Dongwoon really stands out a lot. Maybe because it's he's wearing a light long shirt (NOT THAT I'M IN LOVE OR ANYTHING). 
And you all know that Beast song "Beautiful" No? Then there is a live for you with very, very sweaty Beast members XDD

The reason, why I started to talk about "Beautiful", is that the beginning is very....well let me explain. 
You heard the beginning right, before Doojoon starts singing (if you happen not to know who that is than he's the guy who actually starts singing after the rapper).
The last sentence before the singing starts, Junhyung
says "Drop depth!"
the lyrics below the screen says "Drop beat!"
and the misheard is "Drop dead!"
NICE, HUH? Very confusing I might say.

And then there is B1A4 or like Simon&Martina says BILASA. Anyways, they had their first comeback recently and the main song was "Beautiful Target". Now, when I would have talked about it when it actually came out I would have said something like "Not much of a song, too colorful outfits and what's with the movement" but now it has grown on me ^.^ I still don't watch the live much but it's fun and the song is fun and it brings me a good mood. With B1A4 I realized that I have some thing about rappers. Like in one of the "Beautiful Target"s live like this one

I thought that the guy with the glasses is kind of cute and then he started rapping ...and yeah, I have notice that some other bands my fave just happens to be a rapper. The first and the most brilliant example is Minho (Shinee) and then there is G-Dragon (Big Bang) and Jungshin (CN Blue) happens to be a rapper and then there is the charming Junhyung (who isn't officially my fave) and to top all of that I always gush that I love Mir's rapping...


And you all the know the screaming part which bands and awesome singers tend to do, if not, then I mean the part which starts at 2:56 and ends around 3:01 and starts again in that last video I added. Yeah, yeah, that part XD ANYWAYS I have noticed that when Shinee's Jonghyun does that it gives me the shakes but when U-Kiss' Soohyun does that it seems totally fake (sorry for all the Soohyun fans). It seems like that guy is counting the seconds when to start.
Like "3;2;1 GO - AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA!"
Actually, all around I admire Shinee's Jonghyun's vocal skills. I think they are amazing ^.^

And now it's Super Junior time. Did you know that those hot guys came out with another hot song where they look extremely hot and the video was so hot that Yesung's hand busted into flames in the MV? And yes I said hot like 4 times. 
To be honest I was a little surprised when I saw Heechul there but it was good to see him. 

Oh and talking about surprises (this doesn't really categorize in K-Pop) Eddy surprised me and I thought I saw hallucinations XD In the morning I grabbed my iPod (like I always do) and I saw a note that say that Eddy had written something on my Facebook wall but when I slided to unlock the note disappeared and I was sure that it was only in my head but when I finally got to Facebook there was a message (Thank god I don't have to visit a shrink XD) But it was really good to hear from him again ^.^


As a huge K-Pop fan, I'll grab on to everyone who shows an interest to it and a week ago or so MAÜ asked for some of the songs and what Natsu did?

Yeah, some songs XD To be more accurate 85 from different artists. Later she asked me to write which ones are my fave but I found that it would be more easier to write those that I don't, so note to everyone, I don't listen to most of the girl bands but out of this list top 3 most listen to girl bands are:

1. 2NE1

2. Hyuna (4minute)

3. (It was a hard one but ATM I listen to Shy Boy the most) Secret

And since we are on top playlists I would add my iTunes(& iPod I think) 

Top 25 Most Played

And I have to say "PONPONPON" is climbing because it's on repeat ATM ^.^


So, talking about that paper I wrote (where you can see my horrible handwriting). Making that I got some bands that I really haven't listened to that much but I added them to MAÜ's list because they are quite famous (like most of the girl groups XD). So, some of the bands I started listening to after I wrote that are:

1. Block B - I think I have heard them before but I wasn't really impressed so, now when I heard them again after a long while, they were really great. I love "Wanna B" and "Freeze!" is really great too.

2. Secret - Yuki have mentioned/sung "Shy Boy" before but when I listened to it then it sounded really cheerful and great.

3. Miss A - I listened to them before ("Breathe") but now additional "Bad Girl Good Girl"

4. After School -  "BANG!" & as now I watched the video again I really want to learn the dance too...we'll see about that. I won't make any promises.

But now I have a loads of time because, starting this Monday, I'll have autumn break  ^.^ DREAM COME TRUE. I'm already sick and tired of Estonian class...

Yesterday I had....a crappy morning which turned into very fun evening and übertired Natsu at 9PM.
To start off, it promised to be a very boring school day.
*Math
*A movie
*PE
AND THAT WAS IT! In reality, not so much.
Math was okay - we did some exercises, no biggy - and we did went for a movie. The movie was called "Idioot" (Idiot in English XD) and it was a rather confusing movie  but I really liked it. It was different and not so cheesy ^.^
But after that, drama. KR said "Oh, since we got off sooner then let's start with PE earlier." and went to talk to the teacher. But guess what KR, some of us have English too, like I did (the teacher saw us wondering in school, so decided to have a lesson) and because of KR brilliancy I was late for PE because I showed up for a lesson and didn't asked to be excused and I HATE BEING LATE. So, I got even with her on the volleyball court were we played at first some volleyball similar game were we just threw the ball around but all the other rules still applied. AND I DESTROYED HER TEAM. After couple of throws KR relized my dangerousy and everytime I had to serve or was in the front she asked everyone to be extremely careful. That felt good! XD And of course my team won >.< And then was the real volleyball. To be honest I'm not a fan of volleyball but I'm good at serving the ball ^.^ AND MY TEAM WON AGAIN!



After all that I went to Yuki's school to wait for her and we had to go to Akira's to dye her hair. And let's just say during these couple of hours we talked and fooled around so much that I was in tears when we waited in front of Akira's house XDD
My biggest fail that day:

Yuki: Hey that (a stain on Akira's house) looks like a turtle. Here it has..
Natsu: No, it's like a swimming dino.
Yuki: Do you mean Loch Ness Monster?


Dying Akiras hair was fun, at least when we all three are together. I tried out different hairstyles, Yuki took some pictures and we all laughed about it XD And I have to say Akira's room is so awesome and she is so talented artist. We got to see some Japanese magazines too when she got ready. 
It's so fun to hang out with those two ^.^

I can't believe I have wrote this blog all day long XD But I did read manga some of the time and then made an apple pie again ^.^

XOXO Natsumiiiii ^^

PS. "PONPONPON" is now 15. on the list XD

Blue

Heya!

So, as you can see my writing is as it comes and usually when Yuki is here, I never blog.
죄송합니다!

Anyways, what I have been up to?
Hm, well, Yuki was here (obviously XD) and we just had a little one-on-one time ^^ We just hang out and this time didn't include anyone else. We have met up so much over these three months, so I don't know what's going to happen when school starts. We have talked to each other EVERY SINGLE DAY and I have had SOOO much fun too. And I get to meet other people and I think I have changed over this summer. I have more attitude now and I don't mind so much being noticed ^^ I haven't always been that kind of person who dress-ups differently and I would never thought that I would share my life online XD 
I have always been so-to-say different and usually people don't welcome different. I think, here in Estonia (and maybe somewhere else), people who drink and go to parties and listen to Guetta are considered to be cool and everyone else is...a loser maybe and usually those kind of people don't take the time to get to know those "losers" and they start to label and I hate labeling! In real life I'm the mystery girl (and someone called me actually a vampire XD) and so a lot of people don't know who Natusmi actually is. Well, people in my class know I'm incredibly smart (one of them called me kind-of-genius) and they know that I listen to those rice eaters (I think most of them don't make a diffrence between Korean, Japanese, Chinese etc). They know the last part because I made a recearch about the possibilities of Estonian to learn Korean and I had to defend it in front of the class. And that's it! Is it really what's Natsumi all about?! Well of course there are some wonderful people who I talk more than "What was the homework in math today?" and they know more about me but I'm talking about majority :).

So, what did we do in those three days together when Yuki was here? Well, the first night it was all about Mary Stayed Out all night and shopping. We bought some stuff for Yuki but we started with a breakfast for me and lunch for Yuki. We had two roll and juice and for dessert ICE CREAM!! XD And after that at least 3 hours of shopping. I had fun shopping with Yuki and I enjoy it more than with mom. The last one is SO hung up on money that the first thing that she sees is the price tag and not the product itself. And I hate it. I know that money is important but why do we have to stress about it constantly, like buying clothes. I know that I could get to plain T-shirts for one beautiful one but I like that beautiful one and when I and mom are shopping then our usual conversation is like this.
Me: Oh, this looks great!
Mom: How much does it cost?
Oh, come on! Not everything is about money although it is a necessity. But we got Yuki an amazing pair of converse and a beautiful T-shirt (with butterflies, Soubi's butterflies ^^). Oh, and before that we dyed my hair XD How could I forget about it? XD My hair now is kind of black but since I had highlights before it's little blue and purple too XD. And my outfit of the day. Although It was sunny on that day but my hands are so tanned that I wore a sweater to prevent them turning darker.

After the long time walking for store to store we sat on a park with the statue of the flute player and made couple of pictures. And after that "Mary Stayed Out All Night" until we went to sleep. Oh, wait we did watch "Mary" but before that we went to the beach of Viljandi's lake and just sat there for a while. It was nice! We got to talk about the stuff we have been thinking but really didn't spoke out loud. We could have stayed there longer but it was getting REALLY cold, well the summer is almost over so, NO KIDDING!? XD

The next morning there was some manga reading and a film and we just hanged out but in the evening we made a video which Natsumi wanted to put on her blog BUT we talked so much, over two hours, so that I won't be posting all of it. So there is some editing for me and I promise it will be up somewhere in the future. There is also some elaboration about stuff I have mentioned here and for the first part I think I will post the part where I talked about my penpals ^^
PS. My hair looks awful and the more awful it gets in minutes XD And also this is an example of my terrible English. Enjoy!! XD

Yeah, there is obviously more but I'll save them for other entryies ^^ There was a into in the beginning to (which we did like 3 or 5 times) but I forgot to add it, so for the next time then :).

Today, we didn't do much either. Just went to the city for a while and I send Yuki off around 2PM XD And now I have just hang out on Twitter, waiting for a letter, listened to the music and edited that video. ^^

And, right now, I found an amazing pianist. He calls himself as the Asianpianist and this one right here blew my mind (like in the actual song,  "Blow your mind" XD)

Amazing right!?!  So, defenitely give him thumbs up! ^^

That "Natsumi's penpals" video is taking forever to upload and that makes YouTube really slow too. And I'm basically just sitting and watching what I have written XD And that letter, I have been
waiting for 2 hours now, still hasn't come. It's the internet. Things should come in the lightning speed.

Anyway, I thought I would add a little playlist here with the songs I'm listening nowadays:

*CN Blue - Arigatou
*Alice Nine - Blue Flame
*Rin & Len - Butterfly On The Right Shoulder
*Beast/B2st - Fiction
*2NE1 - Follow Me
*2NE1 - I Don't Care
*Miyavi - Jibun Kakumei
*MBLAQ - Mona Lisa
*Super Junior - Mr. Simple
*CN Blue - Now or Never
*Super Junior - Superman
*2PM - 10 Out Of 10
*Ayabie - Toys Factory

So, these are my 13 most listened to songs on my iPod now ^^ And that reminds me that I should delete some songs form it - I have like 168 songs in it XD

Okay, I'm off now. Enjoy the playlist I put on and maybe I will write again soon and maybe not. Anyways...

Natsumiiiii ^^

PS. I have nothing more to say XD

Nuts

I have completely lost my mind. Why? Because I woke up at 6AM and, although it's Monday, I'm still on vacation. So, why I did that? Because I'm trying to get used to waking up early, like I said last night, but I was pretty sure I would go back to sleep and sleep until noon, like I always do, but guess who is writing a blog at 8.55AM? Natsumi!

So, yeah, I woke up and 6AM. I got myself ready, like I was actually going to school (like make-up and everything) although, I have no plan actually going somewhere but I need to get into a rut. It turns out that I could sleep until 6.30AM since I got everything done before 7AM but it's better to have spare time than run around headless like I have done in my entire life XD I'm not the morning type of person. I can stay up very late but hardly can wake up easily. I usually just lay in bed until the moment I HAVE to move.

Well, I stopped when we went to buy school stuff with Yuki this Friday. Once we got everything, we headed back to my place. Yuki stayed online a little, I'm not quite sure what I did at that time, but after that we planned our little project. I don't want to tell you guys what is it yet because I don't want to jinx it ^^ And I got to do make-up for a Yuki, a dark make-up, I have to say. I would post a picture of it but I have to ask Yuki first. Before we went to the bus station, we watched "Mary Stayed Out All Night" but we didn't finish it. We stopped on the 5th episode on minute 43, I think.

On Saturday, I didn't do anything much. The highlight was when I found a CN Blue TV show. It was Making The Artist and I think it was the first TV show I saw of them and to be honest I was a bit afraid to watch it. Why? Because I have a tendency to pick out the worst ones in the group, or at least the weirdest ones. But I turned out that Jungshin isn't that bad XD Although he kept saying that he was crazy in high school but other than that he was okay. (Thank god! XD) I found that that before the band he was interested in photography, he has an older brother (who happens to be shorter than him), then band members (manily) Jonghwa makes fun of his height and at the same time he is envious of Jungshin's long legs. And I discovered that Jonghyun is really cool ^^. And the drummer Minhyuk has the best skin in the band. Then Jonghyun stayed in Japan for four years and when returned to Korea, he was held? back a year, so he ended the same year as Jungshin and Minhyuk. And I found some great songs form the show. Like this

 Then calmer song and I have to say I love Jonghyun's voice in it, especially in the show. Just divine...and he said that he needs to work on his voice. Like what the hell are you talking about!? His voice is amazing (although I have said that I like Kyuhyun's more and Clear's too but that doesn't means that his is bad)! I love it ^^.

I'm melting XD This was the episode when Jonghwa was away and the rest of the boys talked about high school graduation presents. Let's just say that my absolute fave wanted the most random stuff XD.

And on Sunday I went to Yuki's place for several hours and other than that my Sunday was pretty dull :) Well, except that shocking new about MBLAQ. I still got the shiver of those dreadlocks.

Oh, and I haven't told you about the all-nighter I pulled last week XD Yeah, well long story short Sims is a very bad game XD I played it all night up until 6AM the next morning. And around 6.30AM I decided, I should really get some sleep and guess what!? I slept until 6PM, so I missed an entire day XD Yeah, and it was around that time when I started thing about getting my sleeping in order XD.

And I have reached into the present. FINALLY!! XD But as for today, since I don't have a timetable yet, then I made myself one. Just like in school, with the times but lessons will be like reading a book, writing my blog and cleaning my room. So, I'll write later how did it all turned out ^^ But soon my second lesson will be over so, talk to you later ^^

XOXO Natsumiiiii ^^

PS. I was thinking about making my blog more colorful. What do you think?

Lie

I have listened to that song all night...

And I didn't choose this video because Jungshin is on the pic XD That was just a coincidence. I choose this one because...you know how hard it is to find a live version in Japanese. There are like 10 of them in Korean but I love the Japanese version. Sue me!

Firstly, the outfits. They aren't much though. I'm on the edge of depression, so, I don't feel very creative. I haven't drawn or write for days and also I haven't been here either.

Yeah, I wore the same converse. I love them. They are super comfortable and they look great, don't they? On the first outfit you can also see my beautiful bruise. It's healing...awkwardly. It's slightly healing from the middle and it's forming a letter. I won't say which one ^^
And I also love those brown pants. They are super comfortable, although they are a little big for me. They haven't fallen off, so I'll keep on wearing them.

Well, with Yuki,we didn't do much. Why? The same reason I don't have any exciting outfits. Recently I have felt bad about myself, so I'm constantly moodless (or as Yuki describes it, angry). I smile and laugh occasionally but pretty soon turn back to moodless...I promise I'll come out of it ^^

The worse thing about me is my fish brain. I hardly remember what I the day before yesterday. I had to do something. I arrived back home after 5.30PM and I'm sure I didn't went to sleep after that. I probably watched Sabrina again and stayed online...

Anyways, Thursday, I remember more of that. Well firstly, mom and dad "woke" me up. Why? They wanted to know if I wanted to go along to the stores, so they argued behind my door weather it's a good idea to wake me or not. But I was already awake since my dad vacuumed an hour ago and I'm a really light sleeper. Sleep has been a issue to me as long as I can remember. There was this time when I had real insomnia. I was up all night and didn't go to school because of that. What good is it when I can hardly concentrate...and when I stayed home there was a chance I could get some sleep. But I would never miss school over a day. Call me a geek! But I think it's better to study with a teacher than later get on track by your own and go to school clueless. So, anyways, finally we went to the doctor and she gave me Valerian to get to sleep. She didn't give me real sleeping pills because I'm TERRIFIED to become an addict. That's why I hardly take pills at all. I would rather endure the pain. I'm must be on the edge of dying when I take a pain killer. Seriously! I'm kind of masochistic, aren't I? I have never been an addict, don't get me wrong, but I'm still afraid of it. It's one of my fears. All around I'm pretty fearless but there is always something that brings us down, right?


Later on mom wanted to make cabbage stew for dinner with boiled potatoes. So, I was on potato duty, I had to peel them. I'm not very good at it. I would rather chop onions ^^ Basically after every potato I would ask, is that enough and she said always no. It was getting really frustrating but eventually I peeled enough. THANK GOD! And then I made myself another smoothie (I'm getting good at this ^^) This time nectarine & banana. I have to say, maybe I like this one more ^^ Mom kept telling me to leave it for dessert but I still drank some of it before. Whoops! This time, I ate dinner in my room. My mom and dad kept watching TV (Yes we have a TV in the kitchen) so, I left them alone. But after that, when I returned the dishes back to the kitchen, I stood in the middle of it and started thinking who to thank for the meal. Mom saw me standing there and told me: "Good potatoes! Nicely peeled!" XD Yeah, yeah, I know. I should have just thanked my mom but Hey! I helped too. Well of course I thanked my mom and ran back to my room to finish my delicious dessert ^^
That night I finished watching "Sabrina, The Teenage Witch" (I started to hiccup XDD) and some time Yuki called me and we talked for almost 2 hours. Yuki's internet has been a little....rocky lately, so it  kind of vanished but she really wanted to say something to T. Have I told you about T before? Probably not. Anyways, T is a Finnish boy, around me and Yuki's age, and he's 1.80 m and 56kg. Underweight right? And he announced on twitter (& I quote): "i wanna be thin and beautiful..." like WHAT THE FFFF!! If you are already underweight that what do you have to lose, I mean, your already skin and bones. And what he has to say about that: "You haven't seen me in real life" SO? I don't have to be a rocket scientist to say that he's not fat. And I have seen pictures of him...SKIN AND BONES still. It's really frustrating to hear or read that a skinny person calls oneself fat. And the same goes to Yuki. I have heard a million times that she isn't satisfied with her weight but the only difference between them is that Yuki doesn't bring herself down online. (& the hiccups stop)
Since Yuki wasn't online, I wrote to T and told his answers to Yuki - short to say, I was an owl ^^ And because of that I wrote a letter to KL for an hour or so XDD Well, he writes long letters too. And I'm not complaining. I love it ^^ When people usually write small sentences as a reply, it's:
1. he/she doesn't have much to say
2. he/she is very taciturn (E taught me that word XDD I kind of miss E T.T)
3. he/she really doesn't like to talk to you
So, this means that neither of those three doesn't characterize KL. I'm so happy ^^ and BTW he's the AB guy. We write to each other like I used to write with E. No, I didn't have a huge fight with E, he just went to the army for 21 months (like KL said - he just got out of it) And no KL isn't a replacement to E. There are so different...only thing they have in common is their nationality...so yeah, their eyes are the same color, same goes to their hair...I'm falling off the subject....What was the subject? I don't remember anymore.

I like Mr. Simple ^^ and I also like the music video. It wasn't as bad as I imagined it. It's pretty cool I would say.

Firstly, what's with the beginning? Maybe it's Super Junior's trademark? Sorry sorry had a similar thing in the beginning, so okey, I'll leave the beginning alone. But I have some things to say about their appearances.
The hottie of the video award goes to...Eunhyuk! Congratulations ^^ He looks smoking XD And his dancing is off the hook!
My favourites form this band are acctually Donghae, Kyuhyun (his AMAZING voice) and Eunhyuk. ^^
I think that Donghae's and Siwon's new hairstyles make them look like they are in their fifties. And Sungmin, the cutie pie (& Yuki's fave), is SCARY AS HELL! I mean, what happened to him. He was so sweet and now he's like Kangin, who I'm scared of too. And Ryeowook, who isn't my fave, looks better. I mean really better. Kyuhyun looks great as always. I like that he doesn't do big makeovers, sure he has changed his hairstyle a little, but nothing grand. The others look great. Sometimes not being mentioned is a good thing. Why? Because then there is nothing bad about you. That will occur to Heechul, Leeteuk and Shindong but not to Yesung. There is something I don't like about him. I think he reminds me of that boy in my class to whom I'm not very fond of. Well, I can't like all of them, right? So, don't kill me now ^^
But other than the outer look, the dancing is great and the songs is very catchy and I love it!
And now, I will devote some lines to Heecul. I'm worried about him. No offense but he looks terrible. He has dark circles under he's eyes. He looks exhausted. I think he hardly eats...yeah, I'm worried.

I mean look at him! Is this a healthy, well-rested man? I think not. And I have to say, Siwon in the background looks scary as hell. Don't you think?! He looks like a guy from my nightmares. Maybe he is the guy from my nightmares. OMG!?

I went trough my older posts and I noticed that I promised to talk about the name Natsumi.
The name was given to me by Yuki. It means "summer beauty". I'm not so sure about that beauty part but Yuki said it suits me because I'm hot blooded ^^ It also comes with a family name - Hanako, which means flower child/girl. And why such a name in the first place? Yuki wanted it ^^ Yuki gave herself a Japanese name and all to the other girls, so she said I should have one too. At first I didn't welcomed it much. I had nothing against it but it was a little bit foreign for me but Yuki started to use it more and now it's rather just Natsu not so much Natsumi. And I like it very much ^^

Anyways, I'm off to bed now. My shoulders are starting to ache, so it's time for me to hit the sack...

XOXO Natsumiiiii ^^

PS. I have to start cleaning my room tomorrow, or today I have to say now.

Estonia

I don't get it, why people want to move to Estonia?! I mean the prices are high, there is hardly no salary and most of the people are racist. If me an Yuki saw an Asian, and we did in the near future, we would probably scream on top of our lungs from the excitement. Well at least she would xD
I know I'm really demolishing my country. Of course there are a lot of good things too. Estonia has over flowing culture, BEAUTIFUL nature and cheap alcohol xD
Anyways, why I'm even touching this subject? Well, today wrote to me another guy who loves Kerli and wants to move here. He stared talking to me to make a friend in Estonia and he's visiting next summer. Yeah, according to my plans I won't be in Estonia whole next summer. I sincerely hope I can fulfill my plans ^^

What I have been up to lately? well, living my free life xD The biggest thing what has changes is that I worry constantly what to eat. I sound like a pig (only thinks about eating) but since I have to do all the cooking now, it normal right? Well, what else? Oh, now I'm afraid of drafts. They are so creepy. I'm just washing dishes when the door creaks. I'm like yay! someone is home but then again no one can come. Yeah, it was a really messy sentence and I don't know how to so-to-say clean it up but please bare with it. (It's after 2AM, so no wonder that Natsumi cannot put together a proper sentence).

I have been hanging out with Yuki too. Yesterday I was at her place and we watched Vampire Dairies, like I promised, and it was fun. Only bad news, in watching them, is that soon it will be over. I mean, I have the whole season 2 but season 3 isn't out yet. When did it came out? That's right, September 15. Hey, on that day my eye-candy, Lee Jungshin, becomes a year older. That reminds me, I have been meaning to tell you about him. I wrote a huge piece for him in my last blog but I just have to talk about him more ^^


Well, he's super cute, right? At first I noticed him because of his height. He's like 186 or something like that. And he was the tallest member in CN Blue. Jungshin is the bassist of the band and he also raps a little. Well at least that's written in his profile and there is also little rapping involved in "Love Girl". That was the video that drew me into CN Blue. What else about him? Hm..well the weirdest thing, or rather sweetest I would say, but that thing earned him a name byuntae. Anyways that thing is that he likes when a girl writes on her back. Sweet right? Well, after that statement they started to discuss how tall he was that the girl couldn't even reach to his back etc. 

We went shopping today with Yuki. She needed new pair of jeans and I was her personal shopper today. I think I rather succeeded. I found her the best jeans ever. They make her legs seem longer and hides what she is self-conscious about. Sounds perfect right?!

Well, my awful bruises haven't healed much. I think they have gotten worse. Yuki compared them with plague. Really reassuring right?! They are like grey or something and speaking of my legs. I have worked out lately. We don't walk much with Yuki lately so I have to put my energy somewhere. So, I have been on the bike that my stepsister gave me. It's like a home work-out machine. It's rather good but after 30 minutes my butt gets sore. Too much information? I think so too xD Oh, but I figured out where I got my blue, almost black, marks. Swinging. That night when we went out with KJ and TJ, we went swinging by the beach. I think when I was swinging must have pumped my legs hard enough to make the bruises. I have a very sensitive skin. I can't lean on my leg with elbows for five minutes without getting red marks on my legs. I hate it! When I wear a skirt or shorts I can't but my leg over the other because the red marks.

I'm having a conversation now with a Korean guy who is convinced that the fact that he hasn't had a girlfriend, makes him a less of a man. WHY? I mean come on! By not having someone is, in my pov, better. You can be who you want, talk to who you want and you can just hang out with your friends without anyone clinging to you. Seems like paradise to me :) I think I'm too stubborn to function with anybody and too spontaneous. I like to do what I want when I like to. Yuki knows it the best. She has spend the most time with me. When I say "I want some ice cream" I just stand up and go to buy my ice cream. I won't think of the money (which is very important) and the trouble. I just go and do it. And I'm capable of trowing a cart-wheel when I like it....I really feel sorry for the guy who eventually gets me xD 

Anyway, my darling, I really should hit the sack now. It's almost 3.30AM 

XOXO Natsumiiiii ^^

PS. I once had a boyfriend but it was a short relationship and he eventually moved to Norway. I know what you're thinking, no he didn't run away from me :D 

Finally

Finally my mommy dear started to make my dress ^^ Well, I'm not the girly girl but I want a full-length  dress to wear with my converse shoes xD

Anyway, we looked for a dress in the shops but the one I found, which I liked, was pretty expensive, so we decided to make one ourselves. Well, mom makes the dress and I help if it's needed. And at the moment the dress costs less than half ^^

Just now, my mom came in and we have a problem and we can't decide - how many rubber bands my dress needs? To be honest, I HAVE NO IDEA. That's the first dress I so-to-say made. 

BTW, when my mom was pregnant of me she wanted a girl. You know why? To make her dresses. And how many has she made? That would be the first for the last 16 years. Maybe, when I was smaller, she made me dresses (there was less material needed xD). But I have never really wanted a dress, so who can blame her ^^

I haven't done much today. Ate and watched a little TV. I saw "Las Vegas" first time in so many year today. I loved that show when I was smaller. Sam or Samantha was my favourite character. I wanted to be like her. When we played with some of my friends house than I always wanted to be a hostess ^^

But yesterday evening was off the hook. And a bit crazy. Well, yesterday I finally watched one of the variety shows that Yuki has recommended me and since "Fiction" by Beast haunted me, I decided to watch Beast Idol Maid. MAN, those guys are dirty. My untidied room seems better than theirs. And they hadn't changed their bed sheets for a year. A YEAR?! Now that was shocking! But, from the three episodes I watched yesterday, Dongwoon seems so cute ^^ But he's Yuki's man. I don't have a fave in Beast and I think I don't  want one. They seem pretty scary and Dongwoon is the least scariest of them. But Junhyung seems pretty likable  ^^

Anyway, It was around 1AM when I finished the last part of it and decided to go to bed. But after I brushed teeth, removed the make-up and stuff, I put my earphones on and started dancing. IN THE MIDDLE OF THE NIGHT and not for 5 minutes or so BUT OVER AN HOUR. Crazy right?! And after that I had to put on CN Blue's "Lie" or I would continued another hour. And when I FINALLY got to bed, my body was beat but brain full functioning so a little manga before bed and Jonghyun sang in my ears, occasionally Jonghwa too but let's not mention him. I don't hate him but I just like Jonghyun's voice more. Sue me!! 

Being a long time behind the computer is hard. When I sit behind the table, my butt feels sore, but when I sit on the bed, my leg dies. And speaking about computers, I always want to touch the screen to check  the if the battery is full xD I have and iPod Touch and my mobile is also touch, so I'm used to touching the icons I need. This is ridiculous xD

But, I decided I should study a bit Korean today. I have really been avoiding it and from my mailbox I see that the last time I wrote something in Korea, was in November. Or marraskuu in Finnish ^^

So, I should go...

XOXO Natsumiiiii ^^

PS. Natsumi isn't a Korean name. It's Japanese. I'll talk you about the background in the next entry.

Sex sales

Pretty provocative headline isn't it?

But is it wrong?

I think not. I found a great song (Hyuna's "Bubble Pop!") and that video is pretty popular. Why? Because there is some really provocative dancing and really short pants.

Check it out! I think, if I would be a man, I would be drooling xD

But I love the song anyway. Video watching isn't required :)

I would really have to talk about Finland now. Me and Yuki decided long time ago that we should attend to a Finnish school after high school. Everything there is free but we have to pay for the living permit. But, around 45 Euro, isn't much if there is like 3 years.

But the first 3 or so months are in English but after that Finnish. It suppose to be similar to Estonian, some words are, but like months are totally different.

And also numbers,

and definitely weekdays. They rather remind me German.

I'm really looking forward to it ^^ but I have to finish high school first. I don't really look forward to it. I like my class. They are great. Even the one I don't like is important. No, he hasn't officially done anything to me but I hate who he is. He's all over the place. Wants to be noticed. He's a real ass kisser too. He doesn't do anything for school and he always asks other people for the homework. He has never contacted me. I think he knows that he's not my favourite person or he's just afraid of me. BUT he is a part of my class and who else to I have to live my anger on :D

Anyway, my class is awesome and I will miss them terribly.

About today. I had a terrible day which had a some ups but quite down.

One I met up with Yuki, that was a up, then we went to a store to buy me a notebook for Finnish and guess what!? I had lost my bank card! Like really lost it. Not in my purse, not in my room and not in my pockets. GONE!! So, I called my mom and she closed it, nothing was taken and now I have to order a new one. Then we went to the library. Yuki was really into Finnish but I just wrote the numbers, weekdays, months and then moved on to my letters. I'm an active letter writer now, well that wasn't the point. I finished first and wanted to but in an envelope but guess what?! I left the those home so, I ran from the library to home to get them. After I sat down in the library, guess what?! I forgot the stamps! Really great day isn't it? Well, after I finally got the letters posted, we had ice-cream and sat on the stairs. We looked at my art. Well, she certainly wasn't impressed. She liked my Nowaki drawings but Soubi wasn't right and I took off some pounds on Jonghwa (CN Blue)

And then another downer in my day. I had to wait mom on work so we could go home and eat. I have had 2 sandwiches, 2 plums and an ice-cream :) So yeah, I was STARVING!!

Now, I have had my pizza and I feel overly full xD

From one end to another right ^^

Anyways, got to vent a little ^^

I think I'll watch a movie or something. I don't sit up straight behind the computer, so, my back is starting to ache. I'm getting old....oh man, I'm only 18

Okay sweeties

XOXO Natsumiiiii ^^

PS. 5 is the magic number in this blog :)

Fiction

Sooo, woke up before the clock...proud of myself ^^

I got to sleep really late, so I'm a bit surprised I got up so early.

I have developed a very bad habit. I'm used to listen to some music in bed before I actually get to sleep. I got this while me and Yuki were in Aegviidu, where my summer cottage is. There we had a whole floor all to ourselves but there was a drawback to it. In the house there was no door between where we slept and the downstairs hallway. And if the front door was open (when there was like hot outside) all the little mosquitoes flew inside and unfortunately, we got attacked during the night. So, to get some sleep, we slept with some earphones on. And after, in Yuki's place there was an annoying fly, so earphones again :) And now, Natsumi's used to it. To be honest it's not that bad of an habit IF you listen to music that is soothing and puts you to sleep BUT last night I listened to

*2ne1 - I Am The Best

*MBLAQ - Mona Lisa

*Astroboy - Astro Solider (which is, btw, haunting me right now)

*Hyuna - Bubble Pop!

Very calming isn't it xD

Well the last song I heard was CN Blue's "Lie" Japanese version, I think the Korean version isn't that bad either (the music is exactly the same) but I'm used to the other one.

I just love CN Blue's Junghyun's voice!! Shinee's Junghyun isn't that bad either, he has major lungs but I like the other more ^^ Guilty

Also I love Super Junior's Kyuhyun's voice and Vocaloid Clear's the last one sounds like an angel and Natsumi might be in love BUUUT she likes Jungshin better.

Jungshin is also from CN Blue and, no he's not the lead vocals or the guitar player but he is the bass player with extremely beautiful hands and a smile to die for and he's tall a d he's daring and sweet and...(Natsumi is slowly melting into a puddle)

Anyways, I wanted to write about something more but Yuki already called, so, I have to go.

I think I'll write again in the evening! But no promises ^^

XOXO Natsumiiiii ^^

PS. I know I forgot to write about the Finnish language xD