And by that thing I mean my little art history research. I kind of liked doing that thing. Gave me purpose. But then again free time feels nice although my free time started 10 minutes ago and it's like 11:43PM XD
Now, starting Monday, I have to write my defense speech but comparing to the research it's piece of cake ^..^ Oh, and about my research. My teacher told me that I need 20 pages of solid text and now I have...50 pages XDD Hahaha, I sometimes outdo myself ^.^
My wisdom tooth is growing...painfully. Yesterday my whole jaw hurt and today it has been so-so.
Oh, and bad me! I was suppose to go and tutor my nephew. Sounds awful XDD I'm not that old but yeah, I'm someones aunt. Luckily, he doesn't think of me that way - I'm just a smart friend or relative. AWYWAYS, I'm his math tutor for a week. I went there on Thursday with Yuki but we didn't get much work done. It was pretty late...but Friday was more productive and he made me promise that he would solve some problems yesterday and today but neither of us believe that XDD
Tomorrow, I will be babysitting for some time.
On June 7th I will have a book presentation. Luckily I won't be the one presenting XDD But I am considered as one of the the co-writers. The book is about my school and I and couple of my classmates were assigned to write a story about our school experience.
On June 8th I will have my exam where I have to present my defense speech.
On June 14th I will have an official reception with the head of one of the biggest universities in Estonia, Tallinna Tehnikaülikool (TTÜ).
And on June 21st I will have my graduation. Sad - enough said XDD
I will add a picture here from that Pilistvere trip. I love that picture and it's with my mom. Oh, that reminds me. My dad went to Aegviidu this weekend and got back today. It was great to see him today ^.^
Of course the picture was made by Yuki ^.^
I have been watching the Lying Game.
It's thrilling and unexpected, welllll except for the love part. I totally knew that Ethan will fall for Emma XDD But the other parts of it is thrilling, as I said already. Like for 15 episodes I know that the mom was that artist and now it's totally upside down. I'm pretty sure who is it but it's not proven yet.
I don't have a favorite character in this but I have to say that Ethan is pretty cute ^.^
Okay, my cuties, I should go to bed. I'm really tired and I feel like a rock had dropped off my shoulders.
XOXO Natsumiiiii ^^
PS. Wish me luck! I hope that my teacher is as proud of me as I am ^.^
Last night I decided to start acting more decent and organized (and I don't include my room into that promise XD) Anyways, last night I took all my make-up off, which I hardly do. That is a very bad habit :/ I usually just go to sleep and in the morning before I put on make-up I just "erase" the imperfections. But last night I used my make-up remover I just bought and also used a little toner then a little moisturizer and my skin felt amazing. And today I washed my face and moisturized again and my skin looks great and it's super soft. I have been really lazy with taking care of my face and I go sick and tired of those little spots on my forehead, which "nobody sees". So yeah, I started to care again and just not conceal them ^.^
Another thing what has changed is organizing my day. Usually after school I would just lay or sit on my bed, waste time in internet or just read some mangas. So, I didn't do any of my homework, studied for tests in school and did my homework during lessons. Like in biology I solved math problems (bad student award). I think that's one of the reasons of my academic fall but then again it doesn't matter how prepared you are, in Estonian class the teacher always can surprise you ^.^
And how was my first day back to school? Exhausting XD Okay, I might be overreacting. In English class I did my wordtest, got a 5-. I math we studied cone again but in Biology I was the bad student but just because I had trouble with my Estonian because I didn't quite get what I was suppose to do (I still don't XD). In History we wrote a discussion. In Estonian I prayed that the teacher didn't ask me (& she didn't XD Thank god!) and in Art History I watched some really random pictures. Today we discussed surrealism and watched a really weird movie that was it :) But I didn't see TT today. I'm kind of sad :/ She also has some health problems but she promised she will be to school tomorrow. Oh, I forgot something. During when I was at home I wrote to couple of my teachers to ask about tests and other homework and only my math teacher replied to me. Why? Beacause the computers in school were busted and I got 3 apologizes today for not responding XD Oh, and my History teacher saw right through me. I don't know how but she knew that I'm an overachiever. So she asked me how did I get neuritis due to stress. The first answer she got from me is that I got a little cold but then she looked at me like she was waiting for something more. So, I eventually said that I'm under a lot of stress, so my health is weak. And she smiled and asked me to take it easy ^.^ Caring teacher, one of my favorites.
So, that's for now. I just wanted to share a litte and get off my busy schedule but for now I'll continue ^.^
-few hours late-
You know what my problem is? I worry. I'm worried about Akira at the momement (LOL I can't even spell moment XD). I'm thinking how will TT manage then I'm thinking if Yuki is depressed again and if could help her in any way. Then I'm worried about my dad because he's health is bad. I'm worried about mom because she works too much. I'm worried about MS because I'm afraid that she might screw up and that might change her life completely. And you know what, I'm worried about this T person and I don't know him at all. And of course I'm worried about Eddy and if he can manage in the army. And how many times I said "worry"? 6 times and I'm afraid for/worrying about 8 different people and I'm the one stuck with an hurtful disease. Life is beautiful ^.^
XOXO Natsumiiiii ^^
PS. The meds I have to take make me sick XD I almost puked in Math XDD
Did you miss me? Did you miss me? Of course you did! XD
Anyways, heya, It's Natsumi and now she is an official 12th grader aka SENIOR!
I would say that this was my first WEEK at school but unfortunately it wasn't like that.
September 5th
Week begun with Natsumi making a public performance thanks to somebody. Sometimes I really hate KR, like on Monday, but sometimes she is pretty useful too (I'll tell you about that later). On Monday, I hated her.
When I woke up, I didn't remember anything on that little performance but LUCKILY I looked at my diary, and there stood that I had to do a report on foreign news. Yeah, in my history class there is a custom that according to the list two people do a little overview on news outside and inside Estonia. Since KR made a "friendly" suggestion that we should start this year in the bottom, then I had to a report.
I'm not exactly the last on the list but yeah...
I made a choice on changing my last name. When my mom married with dad, I got to made a choice - whether I wanted to stick with my name or change it. I voted for a change because I think it would be a little awkward when all of my family is V and I'm the only R. My grandpa (from my mother's side) still doesn't know that I changed my name. He wasn't really totally on board with my mom marrying in the first place, so we didn't want to add oil to the fire. But I like my new name (well not that new, I have been wearing for the past 8 years) and it has this German feeling to it ^^
I think there wasn't anything else remarkable on my Monday.
Well, if I would say according to my timetable
History - performance
Math - some theory + exercises
Math - more exercises
Estonian - I think it was the best Estonian lesson ever. We didn't have to do anything XD and teacher just talked for a change which is great in her lessons. The more she talks the less we have to make anything ^^
English - That's a lesson I want to do something because that lady can talk and talk and talk and talk and you get the picture. Don't get me wrong! She is a great teacher but her talk seems to wonder and she moves form one topic to another and we sometimes quite can't catch up. And in her lessons. 5 comes easily...at least for me. In that lesson, I might be teacher's pet.
There was this one time, when I was answering for home reading, when I didn't know anything. I talked a little about the contents but she cut me off because she knew the book ("Pride and Prejudiced") and then she asked for the words, which I didn't know exactly and I got a 5+ XD You know what she said:
"You just need to digest the words and I'm sure you would know them but you have just learned them, so, It's okay."
And I only got 5 lessons that day but I had to hang out in the school's library to wait for my mom, so I did the homework and a little required reading.
After that shopping. I got a new bad which I already love...simply adore XD
Do you like? ^^
And I got some other nesserary stuff for school and I can cross out some items from my huge list too in "Neverland".
Since I got off so early, I went to the library and did a little more research for my research XD (Weird sentence XD). ANYWAYS, a small picture of my workplace. A little messy but...yeah XD
I stayed there for 3 hours when my brain totally shut down. I clearly overdid it but okay, I got a little addition to my research.
September 6th
Another day at the big school house ^^
The best thing about it? IT'S ESTONIAN TEACHER FREEEEEE!!!
And I don't remember what else happened XD
The timetable:
Math - I think some more exercises XD
Physics practice (basically a lesson where we only do excercises but the class is split into half) - of course some excercises.
I forgot to tell you. In the first Physics lessons (which was in Friday) the teacher said something to the boys in my class: "You are grown men (obviously to the BOYS)." Can I laugh?! XD Okay maybe some of them can measure up but most of them....I mean please...
The good news is, or maybe bad for me, HR booked me for the entire yeas AGAIN. I have to sit beside him in Physics class. Last time, last year, he was really angry at me when I sat next to TT in one lesson XD. Anyways, moving on.
Physics practice - some more exercises
Physics - for the whole class. We couldn't get enough for two lessons XD
English - teacher talked to us again
History - wasn't my fave that day. Our team got beat by KR team and that wasn't sweet. She beat us by 4 points, by freaking 4 points. But what you can expect. We have been working together for two and now we work agaist, so yeah, the competition is tougher but we survive.
(That reminds me that, at the moment, Yuki is in military camp. I wounder how she is doing in there. I hope she is having the time of her life ^^)
Class teacher's lesson - basically it's not really a lesson but a meeting. We talk about class stuff there (coming events, decisions we have to make etc) and that lessons usually doesn't happen either.
At home I made a poster for that Geisha book I read during the summer. It was a home assignment in Literature class. It looked like this.
Well, I'm proud of it and Yuki seemed impresses when I showed it to her through webcam. But I have to add, the night I drew it, I was drinking with my mom XD.
Oh, and that night I wanted to find a great background for my iPOd and I found a really GREAT ONE!
HE IS SO HOT! So be jealous because he's mine XD
Oh, and that night I was reading mangas...all night I was reading mangas XD and the most memorable quote was:
A: Are you gay?
B: If necessary!
Classic!
September 7th
That mornig started the hard way - I just couldn't open my eyes. Oh, and that wasn't the worst part of it, TT got sick and I was without a deskmate.
When I got to school, I noticed that TT was missing because usually she is there before me, so I got worried and sent her a text message. She said that wasn't feeling well and stayed home - no wonder, she was kind of sick on Tuesday too but it got worse.
Timetable:
Physics - studied a little something new and then exercises of course but the teacher talked about one for 20 minutes (that half of the lesson in Estonia) XD so we didn't get much done
Before English, I read a little required reading and just chilled.
English - we talked about reported speech and a little something I noticed in the last lesson
English -
I have to excuse my horrible outlook, I look somehow scary too XD
Literature - Luckily I didn't have to present my poster but we talked about KR's all lesson. She choose a Jeremy Clarkson's "For Crying Out Loud!" but still we got a homework about our posters. Had to write a little story on the back.
Somewhere between the English classes, I started to write a letter to the Japanes guy and after each lessons, I tried to continue and wrote a little in the math class to
Math - Japanese letter + exercises
After that lesson, MP asked me to accompany her to the little buffet in our school. When I was standing in the line, something weird happen. Like totally weird.
MP was standing in the line while I was standing few inches away to not be on the others way (I didn't want to buy anything) when I felt that my butt got slapped. In school. By a 2nd grader. THERE ARE A LITTLE HENTAIS IN MY SCHOOL. When I looked back, one of them was pointing at the other, kind of like "he did it!". They could hardly reach for my butt so why they slapped it. I have no words to that incident XD
Well, MP bought lunch and I felt like an anorexic next to her. There she was a full plate in front of her and I had nothing. My side was empty - well there was an iPod but nothing edible wasn't around.
I usually don't eat lunch at school. I just bring along an apple or a sandwich form home and nothing more. My mom gives me lunch money but I just don't want to eat at school.
History - the worst lesson of the day and it was made hell by my "mature" classmate. Everybody got quiet and worked on a paper that history teacher gave us. It was rather difficult to and guess what JJ did.
1. He copied off the girl in front
2. He sprayed some weird aerosole.
3. AND THE WORST PART, he giggled like a little school girl ALL THE TIME
Yeah, the boys in my class are really grown man! Oh, how I tried to ignore it but when he is basically right next to me, how could I. I really felt like punching him, so he would get rid of that freaking grin. And he was like that THE WHOLE LESSON.
And now comes the part where I like KR. She saw that JJ was writing off of him and purposely wrote the wrong answers and then the teacher asked him. OH I GOT TO LAUGH!!!
His answers were so random that teacher frowned and asked somebody else. She is one of those teachers who would never undermine a student.
JJ was like: "Why did you write the wrong answers?"
KR: "To teach you a lesson! So next time, you would do your own work."
That's one of the things that really bothers me about JJ. He hasn't done anything (during those 3 years I have been in the same class as him) and copies of others job. He never studies for anything and cheats and does the minimum.
Actually his deskmate was giggling too but he didn't bother me that much because I know that RP pulls himself together when it's nessesary and I have seen him working hard and trying to study. He has asked for my help many times and I see he tries.
And that was it for that day. After I waited like a loner for my mom again - listening to the music with a blank stare.
That night I read a manga, talked to Yuki and had a walk with my mom. The last one is taking an interest in the yaoi world that's great. She wants to continue with that anime, I showed her in Aegviidu. But there is a catch - I have to write Estonian subtitles or translate everything while watching. And she really wanted to know what that manga was all about which I'm reading at the moment.
September 8th
Sick day.
When I woke up, I had a massive migraine. It was so terrible that I couldn't even open my eyes and I felt so terrible that I could puked. It was simply awful. Somehow, I got to my parents bedroom and told them that I got a huge migraine.
I ended up sleeping there and when I woke up (for the second time that day) I found a wet cloth on my forehead. The feeling was a lot better then but still mom decided to torture me. She wanted to take my temperature. I have hated it ever since I was a kid. I hated siting in a one place and holding a sick under my armpit. I could take in any drug just that I could be stuck with a thermometer. And guess what?! I didn't have temperature. Take that mom! I told you so!
Since mom told me not to use the computer that day, I read mangas for my iPod XD and watched TV.
At 6PM, I drove to my sponsor though. I know it's bad that I didn't go to school but still went there but I made a promise.
Well, there were couple of my classmates, total babes, like seriously.
A: "Oh my god, he looks so hot."
B: "He is even better. A total eye candy."
A: "He is more of your type. I would gladly take him."
B: "Oh my god I would totally go to a ball with him."
A: "Yeah, totally. And I would be like this and he would be like that."
AND SO ON! And what they were watching at?
September 9th
One of the scariest days of my life.
So, a small recap of my day and my legs are REALLY tired.
But unfortunately, the blog don't want to upload that video, so I'll try to put it on toworrow.
When I finally got home, I ate a little and finally answered my Interpal letters. I have waited too long with this. And I was on Twitter and I found a Super Junior live. As you know (or found out just now) Heechul went to the army and let's just say - Super Junior with out Heechul isn't the same. And guess who was the one who took over Heechul's act? See for youself!
I have noticed that Super Junior dances aren't that complicated but the fact that there is about 10 people dancing at the same time, gives it that power. I'm not saying that the dances are lame or anything but they aren't just...well like Shinee "Lucifer" ^^
And that reminds me that I found a super cute picture about Kyuhyun.
Simply adorable. I can't even see Ryeowook next to him ^^
I found another Super Junior video and when I watch it, I can't really help myself for smiling. It's just so silly...next to Mr. Simple of course. And I just have to mention this - while Kyuhyun is dancing there comes a cap in his bangs and that really bothers me XD
And now it's U-Kiss time. They have made their comeback and that's really great but I just can't help myself from criticizing.
1. They all are way to oily.
2. Kiseop has too much bangs and he still reminds me of Edward. Maybe because I kind if miss him...anyways.
3. Why do I feel like a traitor, when I think that AJ looks hot in this video?
But other that those 2.5 bad things, they're comeback is really awesome and I am proud of them. And did I forget to mention I really like "Neverland"? XD
And I really like watching "I Don't Know" lives? They are also so silly and those lives make me feel better, more cheerful ^^
Since, I go to school now and since I have so much to do, I won't wear something exciting every day, so I will choose an outfit of the week.
So, what do you think? I really liked it because it was ÜBER comfortable and that beige this I'm wearing is really soft ^^ I think I wore it on Tuesday.
So yeah, I'm really going to bed now...it's not very late but I'm tired from all that standing around.
...this I have different thought and I wanted to share ^^
1. Thunder looks cute in this video ^^
2. Why are there so many back up dancers? Usually there is just MBLAQ but now there are like MBLAQ plus 4 backup dancers. Kind of like second MBLAQ but they don't sing.
3. Then what's with those screams before Joon starts singing XDD Like they are losing their minds XDD
4. Seungo looks very juvenile and he is like a better version of Yoseob (Beast/B2st)
5. Joon looks very cute when he smiles.
6. Mir is very jumpy and changed a lot. I think he wants to get rid of that "you look like Lee Hongki"-image. But I still love his rapping.
7. Then there's G.O with grandpa glasses and a really high voice but I think it's suits good in this video.
8. One of the backup dancers have cute pigtails XD
9. Mir is ÜBERCUTE in this video ^^
10. The ending is funny XD
So, small recap of my thoughts about "Mona Lisa" 's follow up single. What do you think?
Oh, and I have watched every newcomer or just performances that come up in allkpop and I give them all 1 minute chance. & If they don't impress me I move on. There is only one song which I don't like much but I wait until 1.50 or such. Why? Because Mir has a rap part there and it usually ends around that time. The song itself is here.
So, as you can see my writing is as it comes and usually when Yuki is here, I never blog. 죄송합니다!
Anyways, what I have been up to? Hm, well, Yuki was here (obviously XD) and we just had a little one-on-one time ^^ We just hang out and this time didn't include anyone else. We have met up so much over these three months, so I don't know what's going to happen when school starts. We have talked to each other EVERY SINGLE DAY and I have had SOOO much fun too. And I get to meet other people and I think I have changed over this summer. I have more attitude now and I don't mind so much being noticed ^^ I haven't always been that kind of person who dress-ups differently and I would never thought that I would share my life online XD I have always been so-to-say different and usually people don't welcome different. I think, here in Estonia (and maybe somewhere else), people who drink and go to parties and listen to Guetta are considered to be cool and everyone else is...a loser maybe and usually those kind of people don't take the time to get to know those "losers" and they start to label and I hate labeling! In real life I'm the mystery girl (and someone called me actually a vampire XD) and so a lot of people don't know who Natusmi actually is. Well, people in my class know I'm incredibly smart (one of them called me kind-of-genius) and they know that I listen to those rice eaters (I think most of them don't make a diffrence between Korean, Japanese, Chinese etc). They know the last part because I made a recearch about the possibilities of Estonian to learn Korean and I had to defend it in front of the class. And that's it! Is it really what's Natsumi all about?! Well of course there are some wonderful people who I talk more than "What was the homework in math today?" and they know more about me but I'm talking about majority :).
So, what did we do in those three days together when Yuki was here? Well, the first night it was all about Mary Stayed Out all night and shopping. We bought some stuff for Yuki but we started with a breakfast for me and lunch for Yuki. We had two roll and juice and for dessert ICE CREAM!! XD And after that at least 3 hours of shopping. I had fun shopping with Yuki and I enjoy it more than with mom. The last one is SO hung up on money that the first thing that she sees is the price tag and not the product itself. And I hate it. I know that money is important but why do we have to stress about it constantly, like buying clothes. I know that I could get to plain T-shirts for one beautiful one but I like that beautiful one and when I and mom are shopping then our usual conversation is like this.
Me: Oh, this looks great!
Mom: How much does it cost?
Oh, come on! Not everything is about money although it is a necessity. But we got Yuki an amazing pair of converse and a beautiful T-shirt (with butterflies, Soubi's butterflies ^^). Oh, and before that we dyed my hair XD How could I forget about it? XD My hair now is kind of black but since I had highlights before it's little blue and purple too XD. And my outfit of the day. Although It was sunny on that day but my hands are so tanned that I wore a sweater to prevent them turning darker.
After the long time walking for store to store we sat on a park with the statue of the flute player and made couple of pictures. And after that "Mary Stayed Out All Night" until we went to sleep. Oh, wait we did watch "Mary" but before that we went to the beach of Viljandi's lake and just sat there for a while. It was nice! We got to talk about the stuff we have been thinking but really didn't spoke out loud. We could have stayed there longer but it was getting REALLY cold, well the summer is almost over so, NO KIDDING!? XD
The next morning there was some manga reading and a film and we just hanged out but in the evening we made a video which Natsumi wanted to put on her blog BUT we talked so much, over two hours, so that I won't be posting all of it. So there is some editing for me and I promise it will be up somewhere in the future. There is also some elaboration about stuff I have mentioned here and for the first part I think I will post the part where I talked about my penpals ^^
PS. My hair looks awful and the more awful it gets in minutes XD And also this is an example of my terrible English. Enjoy!! XD
Yeah, there is obviously more but I'll save them for other entryies ^^ There was a into in the beginning to (which we did like 3 or 5 times) but I forgot to add it, so for the next time then :).
Today, we didn't do much either. Just went to the city for a while and I send Yuki off around 2PM XD And now I have just hang out on Twitter, waiting for a letter, listened to the music and edited that video. ^^
And, right now, I found an amazing pianist. He calls himself as the Asianpianist and this one right here blew my mind (like in the actual song, "Blow your mind" XD)
Amazing right!?! So, defenitely give him thumbs up! ^^
That "Natsumi's penpals" video is taking forever to upload and that makes YouTube really slow too. And I'm basically just sitting and watching what I have written XD And that letter, I have been
waiting for 2 hours now, still hasn't come. It's the internet. Things should come in the lightning speed.
Anyway, I thought I would add a little playlist here with the songs I'm listening nowadays:
*CN Blue - Arigatou
*Alice Nine - Blue Flame
*Rin & Len - Butterfly On The Right Shoulder
*Beast/B2st - Fiction
*2NE1 - Follow Me
*2NE1 - I Don't Care
*Miyavi - Jibun Kakumei
*MBLAQ - Mona Lisa
*Super Junior - Mr. Simple
*CN Blue - Now or Never
*Super Junior - Superman
*2PM - 10 Out Of 10
*Ayabie - Toys Factory
So, these are my 13 most listened to songs on my iPod now ^^ And that reminds me that I should delete some songs form it - I have like 168 songs in it XD
Okay, I'm off now. Enjoy the playlist I put on and maybe I will write again soon and maybe not. Anyways...
I have always thought that I'm not a person who holds grudges. Man, I have been wrong! One grudge I have been holding since the 2nd grade, I think. And now I'm going to the 12th grade. Wow! 10 years, that must be a record but this is the only one I have been actually showing out and everybody knows about it. But the others, I keep inside me and only Yuki knows about them. So, yeah, nobody is perfect.
I wanted to elaborate this more but I saw a shocking news on Twitter. Actually the news itself was rather sweet - MBLAQ's (previous?) manager, Rain, took time off his tight schedule and went to their concert. Kawaii, ne? So yeah, I clicked on the news and now the shock. MBLAQ looked shocking.
1. Mir have grey hair or at least the ends are grey.
2. Thunder is blond! And in my opinion it doesn't suit him. AT ALL!
3. And I saved the best for last - Joon have dreadlocks. DREADLOCKS!!! Oh my god, I didn't like his hair before the dreadlocks and I'm not loving them either. DREADLOCKS! I mean actual dreadlocks! (As you can see I can't wrap my head around it XD) So, I'm praying that my eyes cheat on me. Anyways, here is the picture of it.
Well, the good news is that Mir's hair isn't that grey in a bad light. I think that G.O has the best hair in it. Don't you think? Oh, and in this picture Seungho reminds me Yoseob and let me say this, I'm not a big fan of Yoseob, so in my eyes, it's a insult XD. Dreadful!
I should really finish my trip entry, don't you think?
So, where was I? Oh yeah, the night in a comfy bed in Leppneeme. Anyways, the next morning we had our breakfast and I went to the seaside. I requested it ^^
So, the water was FREAKING COLD but I like it ^^ And I thought I share a picture with you guys. There were some other, with me actually smiling XD but I don't want to post it here. For once, the wind totally messed my hair up XD
After several minutes on the seaside, we headed to Tallinn, the capital of Estonia. My aunt lives there and my mom (whose sister she is) missed her. Since my dad had drinks with his old friend, then my mom was driving that day. Accidentally we got to the right place too XD Both, my mom and dad, hate driving in the big towns (I would say city but my ex-English teacher taught us that there are no cities in Estonia, since they all are rather small). Why? Because of the heavy traffic and the multi-road driving (I don't know the right term to it but I mean those roads where two or three roads go the same way) Anyway, it was nice to see my aunt. She has some problems with her balance lately but other that that she has been quite fine. Unfortunately I didn't see any of my cousins, which is rather sad, I'm very close to one of them and I rare that I see her T.T (the cousin I mean).
Well, after several hours we were on our way back to Aegviidu. We had to get grandma since she lives in Viljandi too. Ride back started with a fight. Oh, before the fight I got a milkshake XD I love milkshakes (How many times have I said that XD). Anyway, about the fight. My mom was still driving, right, and my dad kept giving her his directions - he kept his eye on a tower which should lead us out of Tallinn - but we kept driving in a dead-end but I remembered the way we came, so after our 2nd dead-end I instructed my mom out of the town (since she was so fed up with dad's incorrect directions). And guess what we got out of Tallinn. Didn't see that one coming right? For once a girl knew where to drive.
Anyways, I was rather happy to get back to my own room. I'm not so sure why but it was nice to sit on the couch I was sleeping on and I got my computer back (I left it behind).
I can't quite recall whether it was that night or the next morning when I showed my mom a yaoi anime XD The same one which me and Yuki suppose to watch together, which I finished now and I can't wait for the second season. Well, it was bad that it was in Japanese and had English lyrics because when it comes to reading English, she isn't very good at it. She is better at listening though, actually she is quite good at it. Although, she hasn't learned it and just picked it up watching "The Bold And The Beautiful". I have to learn how to stay on a subject XD. Anyways, she missed a lot by just me translating. The good news is that she didn't find it gusting or abnormal or anything like that. To me, it was a bad news - I wanted some reaction to it. Not every daughter watches boys love, right? So, I wanted SOMETHING from her. She said "That's it?" And I was like "Rrrr!" And then I looked up the worst scene in this anime that was available in those 5 episodes I had in my computer - boys making out. And...she didn't react to it either. So, I just have to accept a mother that I can watch anime with as long as I translate.
Well, my Sunday morning was...different. Firstly, a bird woke me up and it wasn't chirping outside. It was in my room, flying around. Well, I tried to ignore it but failed. So, I went to downstairs where I pumped into my dad whose said I could just crash on his bed and finish my sleep.
So, when I finally woke up, I had almost a panic attack. I was sure that I had to go to school on Monday. I went to my mom and complain that I have to got to school tomorrow and I have no timetable and I don't know what I should bring with me. And what she did? She laughed at me!? I was on the verge of panic attack and she laughed. Anyways, she finally told me that tomorrow was Monday but hardly a school day. You can't even imagine how embarrassed I was XD
Moving on...XD I packed that day and picked some berries and we were off to home ^^ Well, except Natsumi. I went to Yuki's place and stayed over. We started watching "Marry Me Mary" or "Mary Stayed Out All Night". And no offense to Yuki, I was dying to go home. I missed my own bed and TV and Internet. Can you imagine being without Internet for a whole week?! TORTURE!
Thanks to Google Map, I can point out my route.
A - Viljandi, my hometown
B - Mägede or Aegviidu as we call it ^^
C - Leppneeme
D - Tallinn, my aunt lives in the border line of Tallinn.
Well, that was my "amazing" trip. Nothing much right but it was nice to get out of the town and I loved the seaside. I really want to go back there.
After that noting big didn't happen. I just read mangas, watched that anime and just chilled in the net. Up until Friday, when Yuki came to visit. Firstly she woke me up and then we went to the town to shop for school stuff. Yeah, school. I can't believe it starts in week and a half. My senior year...I'm not very looking forward to it. I don't want it all to end and I SERIOUSLY don't want to do those 5 exams in the end and I don't want to see my Estonian slash Literature teacher again. I think the last one is THE WORST. Not that I hate Literature. I like Literature - discussing different books, different POVs and stuff like that - and I'm not so crazy about Estonian but I think the teacher is the worst. Her lessons are chaos and, like we discussed it with my class teacher, I'm a girl who likes order, at least in the lessons (let's not start with my room XD). The three major reasons why I'm so "in love" with my Estonian/Literature teacher:
1. When she walkes into a class room, she doesn't know which class is it. Once she didn't even know what lesson she was suppose to give. "Do we have Research or Literature?"
2. Her homework is...a mystery. She has a habit to sometimes start the lesson with giving us our homework. Then in the middle of the lesson the homework changes and right before we walk out the class, she gives us a totally different homework and when a student doesn't get the homework and goes talking to her, she gives ANOTHER homework and in eSchool she writes a (5th??) homework. And what should I do then`?! Which homework should I choose?!?!
3. Her grading. I think she has a habit of grading by the face. When we get out tests back, a person can have like 50 red marking and he/she has a 5 there and another gets a plain sheet and there is 3 or 2. HOW CAN THAT BE?! Well, the answer is easy! Because it's my "dear" Estonian teacher.
Yeah, I can give you like 50 other reasons why I hate her but I try to contain myself and I should talk little about Estonian schools.
First the grading...In Estonian you can possibly get 5 numbers on your test.
5 - Great job!
4 - Nicely done!
3 - Avarage!
2 - Badly done!
1 - Total fail!
3 is the last grade which means that you passed the test. If you have 2, it kind of means you have to retake it and 1. We get 1s rarely because that just mean that you know nothing and some teacher put 1 in eSchool when the student has left something undone.
Now, what is eSchool (in Estonia it's eKool)? It's a Internet based report card. Teacher, in my school at least, but all the grades up there and the students can see all of them, well at least their own grades. The worst thing about it is that the parents can also keep and eye on your grades. And in my case it the worst! Why? Because my mom is a (math) teacher and eSchool is a regular place for her and she always sees my grades. Not that they are bad or anything. I'm one of the honor students. Geeky, I know! XD But I'm not that smart - I don't get along with my mother tongue. I and Estonian never go together. I have the worst grades there! Luckily my mom get that - she was and is bad at it too - but when I get a 3 in any other lessons I get a stern "Didn't you study for it!?". And when it comes to math even 4 is a bad grade. So yeah, I'm rather pressured to be a great student. Not that I hate learning but I can't be good at everything. My weak points are nature subjects, like Biology and Geography. Surprisingly, I have 5s in Biology. Why? Because I'm a good talker. I have talked the 4 tests out of 6 into 5's XD I always miss 1,5 points from 5. So, I always pick up my test and discuss it with the teacher and I always get my 5 XD I'm good, aren't I? When there is such a little gap between getting my 5 I do what ever to fill it. Maybe I am an overachiever and that will bite me in the but someday but at the moment it's good if I had high grades. Sure, in the future, it doesn't matter what grades I got in high school but at the moment it does. But I haven't always a diligent student. I got my first 3 as a half term when I was in the 2nd grade XD And it was Estonian class. So, yeah, so to say I got smart in high school. Yuki says that I started fussing about grades before that but I don't really remember but looking at my bast report cards, I stopped having 3s and half terms in the 8th grade (in Estonia high schools starts with the 10th grade).
I wasn't planning on writing about school here but I was venting AND I wasn't really planning on staying up so late. It's 2AM now and I promised myself (& others) I start waking up at 6AM. So, good luck on that right!
It's off to bed for me. I almost got to the present day XD
XOXO Natsumiiiii ^^
PS. I should make my blog more colorful. Don't you think?
Heya, long time no see! Well, I had an...I would say exciting week but I can hardly call it exciting. It was nice ^^
Well, shall we start then?
On Monday I went to Yuki's place like promised and we watched an anime which we agreed to watch together to the end but guess what?! She finished it without me...oh well, I just have to add it to the list of unseen shows XD And that list is long, wanna see?
Natsumi's list:
*Oh! My Lady - I don't even know what is it about XD
*MBLAQ - Art of Seduction - I have seen some clip about it...I think XD
*2NE1 TV
*MBLAQ - Idol Army
*B2st Idol Maid - It's still in the middle but at least I have started to watch it ^^
*Yamato Nadeshiko Shichi Henge - again I have seen couple clips and I know what is it about ^^
*Super Junior - Full House
*SUJU Human Body or EHB - I might have finished it but I think I'm stuck in that place when DBSK hoined :D
*And then there is this:
Well, Shinee is in it so it's a must to see it ^^ Moving on...
*Mirakle - I think it was something to do with Super Junior
*Raising Idols
*2PM Wild Bunny
*Shinee Hello Baby - I have started to watch it twice already and never got to the end ^^
*We Are Dating
*Super Adonis (Camp) - AGAIN I think I have watched the beginning but not all the way to the end.
*And then there's this (I would use my Super Korean Translating powers but, I would rather not XD)
*Chef's Kiss - Is still in the middle, I'm at episode 5
*Jedward Let Loose
*MBLAQ - Happy Day With Family
*And now that anime we started watching
*And "Marry Me Mary" or "Mary Stayed Out All Night" is still in the middle
Most of these thing, I have started to watch with Yuki (or at least she was the one to suggest them) but as soon as I get home, I start to deal with other things and...don't get me wrong. I want to watch all of them but I just don't have...I can't push myself to watch them, to take the time and sit in front of the computer to watch.
So, about my trip now.
Tuesday was the longest car drive EVER. The one thing, I hate about traveling the car is that my kegs get sore. I happen to have really long legs so sitting very really doesn't suit me and besides, my bones are a little off. They tend to crack. Like when I stand about 5 minutes in one place and then change the position, there is this cracking sound. And when I move my shoulders back and forth they make that "lovely" voice again. BTW, I hate when people crack their fingers. It's the most DISTURBING sound ever. Well, next to breaking cars (and by that I mean the sound what car's make when their owner's push the break petal.) BTW, I don't know how to drive XD I have never taken driver's ed. I don't have the time and...we could get the money but now it's a very bad time to go. Especially in the summer because my family lives on the teacher's salary. Since they don't work in the summer, they get a sum of money which they have to manage from June to basically September. In October there is the first normal pay. I'm totally falling off the subject, aren't I? ^^
Long story short, when we got to the first destination, which was my summer cottage in Aegviidu (actually it's near Aegviidu but we call it Aegviidu because it the most know destination near there, I think the right name should be Mägede). The great news was that I got my own room ^^. So, I got away from the watchful eye of my grandma. Don't get me wrong! I love her but she is master on pushing my buttons. She needs to run around and over do EVERYTHING we do and after a little while she feel really bad. Well, she is really old but she doesn't get that SHE NEEDS TO TAKE IT EASY!!! Yeah, I'm getting myself worked up again.
Anyways, I took with me two bags. One consisted of my clothes and only my clothes. I have this weird...habit to thing my every day wardrobe. I hate to wear one thing two times in the row. My mom don't like that about me. I don't get the things dirty, so why should I change. I think it's a girl thing maybe. I don't know...moving on. The other one was full on stuff that Natsumi just didn't want to leave behind. I'm a 0, so I got some stuff that I didn't really use. Like straightening iron, I used it once, and not once I opened my workbook or used the hairspray...and I was so stupid that I took with me 2 hairbrushes (one is like a comb and the other one is used when the hair is being blow-dried, I think).
So, me and my two bags went upstairs and stayed there for the most of the day. I got a new idea for a story, so I spend most of my time that day writing it. But after dinner, we decided to go for a walk (I & my mom). To her, it wasn't just walking on a road through the forest but to go mushrooming. I don't know about the rest of the world but in Estonia it's..I think it might be accustom to pick mushrooms. My (and my family's) favourite is the chanterelle or kukeseen (in Estonian). It's delicious when it's fried. Anyways, I'm not so much of a picker as my mom is, so, I met a new friend. He name was Branchy and he lives in the forest. He is an excellent at picking chanterelles. We found 9 mushrooms in one place. Amazing! And who is Branchy? He's a stick I picked up and carried along with me XD What?! XD I was bored. Mushrooming isn't for me. So, anyways, I had to leave Branchy behind. He didn't belong to the human world...and he had a VERY crooked back and he kept hitting my mom. So, yeah, we had to break up...
To more happy thoughts - we got a lot of mushrooms and we made a sauce from them ^^ But before we could do that we had to clean them. OH THE TERROR! I hate it but I have to admit, it was fun sitting with mom on the stairs in front of the house. I got a little information about my dad's past love life and I found out that my grandmother, mom's in-law, isn't very fond of her son's wife...But after the HORRIBLE cleaning we went to browse through mom's closet there and I have to say, I found some cool vintage stuff there. Who would have known?! XD When it comes to clothes, me an my mom NEVER agree with each other but lately she has started to listen to me more when she buys something new or combining ^^ And in the night we watched a Van Damme movie which was on the TV and drank tea and ate biscuits ^^ The movie was called "Maximum Risk".
The night in my new pad wasn't fun. It was freezing in there, so, I curled into a ball and couldn't move a single inch. It was before the morning I found that I had a spare blanket there but to be honest, it really didn't help much. But somehow, I survived the night and didn't got sick either. (At the moment I feel like I'm sick or going to be sick). I probably thought about that new story all night long XD.
After breakfast, I went right back to writing. Sometime, before lunch, Yuki's mom called me. I thought that it was just Yuki herself trying to reach me. It wasn't but, anyways, I got to talk to Yuki. She blabbed about people she started to chat with, read me her blog and we talked about other details. I think that was the highlight of my Wendsday. I just wrote the rest of the day and I started watching soap operas. Oh why? Why god is punishing me? I don't like watching them. They seem to be full of pointless drama which is REALLY over exaggerated. But I got hooked on one of those that my mom watches (she is the reason I saw them in the first place). The only reason I started watching that one was because of the male lead. He's so hot! XD It's one of those German soaps.
The chick kissing him is the other lead and the bad news is that they are happy at the moment but the good news is that soon the chick will find those "beautiful" pictures that David's (the hot guy's) father's fiancée took of them when she put something inside David's drink, then stripped him and then made it look like that they were sleeping together. And if Lena (the blond chick on the picture) believes them, then she's a total IDIOT. They were obviously posed. PLUS when then there's photo evidence then it must be staged. OH COME ON! Who sleeps whit a man and takes pictures during it? She would be too busy screwing him.
Anyways, moving on! That night I wrote the last scene in my new story because I didn't know how to write one particular scene. Yeah, I'm not talking about it XD And after that another cold night.
Thursday morning wasn't so dull as the rest of them. I badly wanted to play badminton XD I haven't played for a while, so yeah, I was very excited about it. I think it was in school, during spring, when I last played it. And I'm not bad at it either. When there is no bugs attacking me, I get a hit to that flying thing (it's not ball isn't it? It can't be! It BARELY resembles to one). Anyway, we played until it started raining. Then we just went back to my room and played rummikub until it was lunch time. Actually we played it every night but I didn't think it was worth mentioning. KL called me (or us) Rummikub-holic(s). Well, I can't quite disagree with him *pouts*. We have played it more and more during this summer. Mainly, it was because my mom had a vacation from both of her jobs.
Okay, this totally falls off the topic but I felt charing it with the world. I like Miyavi! ^^ And at the moment, one of my favourites songs from him started playing.
My mom hates it XD She call is "pointless screaming".But I freaking love it! ^^
Anyways, I was in the middle of my Thursday, weren't I? Well, this is the only lunch I remember because it was delicious. We made cabbage stew. YUMMM!
2 hours before the dinner, I went jogging. It was really nice and I have missed it. Running along the path, breathing that fresh air and enjoying the beautiful scenery. I could have ran for hours but I thought I have to be back soon to help with the dinner, so I ran only for an hour. But later it turned out that mom decided to heat up the leftovers, so the cooking was done minutes before the dinner time. Well, that blows! But I was too lazy to get dressed again, so I went back to the computer and started to play Sims 2 again. I really have gotten far.
On Friday we finally got out of the woods. My summer cottage is in a place where the CLOSEST neighbor is 5KM AWAY. Nice! So, I think I was starting to miss people around me, since I am born and raised in a town.
In the morning during breakfast the men (namely my dad and his brother) were discussing which way was best to go to Leppneeme. And how men talk is a mystery - they both talk about some bridge and they both know exactly what bridge they are talking about BUT THEY DON'T NAME ANY NAMES! It's not like there is one bridge in Estonia. No! There are tons of them, in different shapes and sizes, and if my memory serves me right, there were at least 10 of them on our way too and my dad did get lost but Navigator Natsumi pointed the right way and we were back on the right road. I am good aren't I? XD And my services were paid off too - I got my ice cream which I was dreaming about ever since Monday. Oh, I love ice cream, especially vanilla ^^ And if you make milkshake out of it, then I will love you forever. I just love milkshakes ^^. ANYWAYS, when we finally got were we were heading, I was feeling rather nauseous. On the way they were building this new crossroad and...long story short dad made bunch of U-turn. They just couldn't get the right exit from that madness. Well, after the hellos in front of the house, I finally got inside and guess what?! I got a glass of wine shoved into my hand and since I was new there, I drank it all. And that wasn't enough. After we got to know a little about the woman in the house, we went outside because Natsumi was dying to get to the seaside. Oh, I almost forgot. It was the only morning I took a picture of my outfit.
Not the best picture of me but beggar can't be a chooser. My legs loog great though and my hair is okay but my mom hated the hair because I straightened them that morning and my mom loves my natural curls which I got form my grandma, my mom's mom. I didn't want to document my house wear that much because I probably looked awful.
Anyways, when we finally got out of the big house, my mom went to tell dad about out plans. He was with his old classmate, with who he made a band together and the man of the house. He shoved me another glass of wine. I think this time it was raspberry one. This time, I didn't finish it (at least not on my own). I gave the half to my mom. When the man of house, RM, noticed that I stood there empty handed, he gave me something different, a lot stronger drink (if I'm not mistaken, the alcohol percentage was 45%). Man! That was a bitter drink and it was one shot too (I feel sick just thinking about that drink).
Finally and drunk, I got to the seaside and it was beautiful. I loved it! I liked to walk in the water barefoot, smell the cool ocean air. I just could have stay there forever but mom was getting could. I had my lovely sweatshirt one but she got just a knitted jumper (with big wholes in it). So, soon we got back to the house. It wasn't that cold near the house though and sun occasionally shined. There was a ping-pong-table in the middle of the yard. My dad taught me how to play and helped on keeping the score but soon he got tired being a referee and trusted the point system to me. Mom won most of the games...but I still beat her in Rummikub. Not that I'm bad at ping-pong or something, it's just that mom is SLIGHTLY better :) I wasn't really looking forward to sitting outside again after the game, so I took my Geisha book and sat outside. I have to say - I zone out when I read a book - I don't hear a word that other tell me or even what's happening around me. My hair could be on fire but I would still kept reading and something similar happened but not to my hair and there was nothing to do with heat. Vice versa! When, my mom finally got me to stop reading, my fingers were frozen. At least the two smaller ones in my left hand. They were actually blue from the cold and inside I felt the pain of frozen fingers. So, the women in the house offered me some tea which in the end got spiked, there was some kind of liqueur poured into it. So, yeah, I drank a lot that day.
Oh, probably the biggest fail of the day, was when I met their son. The man is around 30 and he has a son. When he came inside and I was introduced to her as my mom's daughter, he said: "I think we have met before" XD. I saw him for the first time that night, I swear, and everybody got to laugh when my mom said that it was my first time here XD.
We laughed and talked for hours but I have to say the best part was going to bed. That night, I felt so warm and the sleep came fast and the bed was so soft. Felt like paradise! Oh, I want to visit that place again just to sleep in that bed, a little piece of heaven but at the moment, it seems that my own bed is calling me. So, I will go to bed now and continue with my recap tomorrow (or today would be more accurate).
XOXO Natsumiiiii ^^
PS. I'm sorry that I kept this huge cap between my posts. I was too...I think the right word is lazy to write a recap. I'm sorry ^^
Sooo, woke up before the clock...proud of myself ^^
I got to sleep really late, so I'm a bit surprised I got up so early.
I have developed a very bad habit. I'm used to listen to some music in bed before I actually get to sleep. I got this while me and Yuki were in Aegviidu, where my summer cottage is. There we had a whole floor all to ourselves but there was a drawback to it. In the house there was no door between where we slept and the downstairs hallway. And if the front door was open (when there was like hot outside) all the little mosquitoes flew inside and unfortunately, we got attacked during the night. So, to get some sleep, we slept with some earphones on. And after, in Yuki's place there was an annoying fly, so earphones again :) And now, Natsumi's used to it. To be honest it's not that bad of an habit IF you listen to music that is soothing and puts you to sleep BUT last night I listened to
*2ne1 - I Am The Best
*MBLAQ - Mona Lisa
*Astroboy - Astro Solider (which is, btw, haunting me right now)
*Hyuna - Bubble Pop!
Very calming isn't it xD
Well the last song I heard was CN Blue's "Lie" Japanese version, I think the Korean version isn't that bad either (the music is exactly the same) but I'm used to the other one.
I just love CN Blue's Junghyun's voice!! Shinee's Junghyun isn't that bad either, he has major lungs but I like the other more ^^ Guilty
Also I love Super Junior's Kyuhyun's voice and Vocaloid Clear's the last one sounds like an angel and Natsumi might be in love BUUUT she likes Jungshin better.
Jungshin is also from CN Blue and, no he's not the lead vocals or the guitar player but he is the bass player with extremely beautiful hands and a smile to die for and he's tall a d he's daring and sweet and...(Natsumi is slowly melting into a puddle)
Anyways, I wanted to write about something more but Yuki already called, so, I have to go.
I think I'll write again in the evening! But no promises ^^
XOXO Natsumiiiii ^^
PS. I know I forgot to write about the Finnish language xD
Anyway, I felt like writing. But not my stories...too tired to think of the plots. I'm writing 3 stories currently...one of them has a plot figured out, the other two are random. Maybe, someday, I will post some parts of it but originally 2 of them are in Estonian (because I'm an Estonian gal) but I will translate them ^^
This is the first time in a while I have stayed in the Internet for so long. Usually, 2 hours or so and then I get bored and do something else (watch TV or something).
My biggest fail today was that I couldn't spell bottle, hahaha.
I was like "was it like boddle or maybe poddle..." and then I took Google Translator. I don't trust that site much (for the reason my name in English is suppose to be Nancy :D) but for the little words it's quite good. One of my friends for Facebook trusts this site whole-heartedly and he has spelled me quite funny stuff. I think he has a kind of crush on me. He begged to show him some pictures which we took on our little photo shoot with Yuki. I was like hell no! I'm not very showy about my pictures. I like them to keep in my computer and laugh at them when I'm bored or something.
First entry should be introducing me a little bit, right?
Well, my nickname is Natsumi (like the title of my blog) but my real name is Kristiina.
Like I said I'm from Estonia, my hometown is Viljandi. I love that place! It's so nice and green in here. Quite quiet too! (interesting phrase...quite quiet..change the place for one letter and the word becomes something else) I'm off the topic again aren't I xD
What else?
I'm born on the March 19, 1993. So, I'm Pisces ^^ and my blood type is 0+.
I'm very caring person. I say random stuff and sometimes it's hard for me to focus but when I do, I'm so...focused that there could be a burning house next to me and I would just do my thing xD
I'm good at math xD I had to add it, haha, it's not very important but in school it's like the first thing that people notice about me. I can be also bad-ass in Psychics but I wouldn't say I'm great at it. I have won competitions but...I know the formulas and nothing about the theory.
I LOVE ICE-CREAM!!!!!!
My favorite is vanilla ice-cream with chocolate chips. Just thinking about it makes me drool (in ice-cream land.....)
Anyway, my favourite (I'm used to write in British English, so this time I won't backspace the "u") animal is tiger and favourite color is green.
Recently (like the last two-three days) I have been into drawing. When I first drew an picture (It was about Usagi-san from Junjou Romantica) a lot of people asked me that why did I draw. That was a bit turn of from drawing but I read more and more of that manga and then I drew Hiroki (really bad, I might add) and Yuki, my bestest best friend, told me that why him I should have drawn Nowaki. So, I did ^^ I drew a lot of Nowaki...I drew his hands, then 3 different expressions of his eyes and then 5 facial expression. Then I went on to some other people...Tomorrow I will show my drawing to Yuki and hold my breath to hear what she has to say about them. She is the artist one from two of us. So, her opinion matters.
I think it's easier to draw manga characters than real people. I tried that. Today, and my mom didn't like it. I drew her and she looked a little swollen. In my defence they totally where so, the thing wasn't about how I drew. And I also tried to draw her hands. I'm a hand fetish, so I look at them and want to learn how to draw them ^^ Guilty!
Oh, I haven't told the biggest thing about me!!! I'm a Kpop fan!!
I have like two songs in my head haunting me...One of them is MBLAQ's "Mona Lisa" and the other is Beast/B2st's "Fiction".
It's like "whoo-whooo-ooo Fiction Finction...Mona Lisa yo ta-da-da-da-daa" or something similar xD
And then I want to learn the 2ne1's "I Am The Best"'s dance.
And then I have a huge Kpop wall, which soon will have some additions ^^
The quality is REALLY bad but you get the picture ^^
The saranghaeyo in the middle of it because I love everything on that wall. From the boys to the girls in the middle which are my best friend and I ^^
It's was made in the 8th grade I think. The faces look bad but I love that we are together and not very posy and....I just love it ^^
Anyway, I should REALLY go to sleep now. I will see Yuki tomorrow and we will probably go to the library to study Finnish.
WHY? you ask.
I'll tell you about it tomorrow because I'm a real sleepy head and if I don't get up in time tomorrow (I think it's now better to say today) I will be in big trouble.
XOXO Natsumiiiii ^^
PS. The layouts and the whole design will be thought about in the future :)
