eSchool

I have always thought that I'm not a person who holds grudges. Man, I have been wrong! One grudge I have been holding since the 2nd grade, I think. And now I'm going to the 12th grade. Wow! 10 years, that must be a record but this is the only one I have been actually showing out and everybody knows about it. But the others, I keep inside me and only Yuki knows about them. So, yeah, nobody is perfect.

I wanted to elaborate this more but I saw a shocking news on Twitter. Actually the news itself was rather sweet - MBLAQ's (previous?) manager, Rain, took time off his tight schedule and went to their concert. Kawaii, ne? So yeah, I clicked on the news and now the shock. MBLAQ looked shocking.
1. Mir have grey hair or at least the ends are grey.
2. Thunder is blond! And in my opinion it doesn't suit him. AT ALL!
3. And I saved the best for last - Joon have dreadlocks. DREADLOCKS!!! Oh my god, I didn't like his hair before the dreadlocks and I'm not loving them either. DREADLOCKS! I mean actual dreadlocks! (As you can see I can't wrap my head around it XD) So, I'm praying that my eyes cheat on me. Anyways, here is the picture of it.

Well, the good news is that Mir's hair isn't that grey in a bad light. I think that G.O has the best hair in it. Don't you think? Oh, and in this picture Seungho reminds me Yoseob and let me say this, I'm not a big fan of Yoseob, so in my eyes, it's a insult XD. Dreadful!

I should really finish my trip entry, don't you think?
So, where was I? Oh yeah, the night in a comfy bed in Leppneeme. Anyways, the next morning we had our breakfast and I went to the seaside. I requested it ^^

So, the water was FREAKING COLD but I like it ^^ And I thought I share a picture with you guys. There were some other, with me actually smiling XD but I don't want to post it here. For once, the wind totally messed my hair up XD

After several minutes on the seaside, we headed to Tallinn, the capital of Estonia. My aunt lives there and my mom (whose sister she is) missed her. Since my dad had drinks with his old friend, then my mom was driving that day. Accidentally we got to the right place too  XD Both, my mom and dad, hate driving in the big towns (I would say city but my ex-English teacher taught us that there are no cities in Estonia, since they all are rather small). Why? Because of the heavy traffic and the multi-road driving (I don't know the right term to it but I mean those roads where two or three roads go the same way) Anyway, it was nice to see my aunt. She has some problems with her balance lately but other that that she has been quite fine. Unfortunately I didn't see any of my cousins, which is rather sad, I'm very close to one of them and I rare that I see her T.T (the cousin I mean).

Well, after several hours we were on our way back to Aegviidu. We had to get grandma since she lives in Viljandi too. Ride back started with a fight. Oh, before the fight I got a milkshake XD I love milkshakes (How many times have I said that XD). Anyway, about the fight. My mom was still driving, right, and my dad kept giving her his directions - he kept his eye on a tower which should lead us out of Tallinn - but we kept driving in a dead-end but I remembered the way we came, so after our 2nd dead-end I instructed my mom out of the town (since she was so fed up with dad's incorrect directions). And guess what we got out of Tallinn. Didn't see that one coming right? For once a girl knew where to drive.

Anyways, I was rather happy to get back to my own room. I'm not so sure why but it was nice to sit on the couch I was sleeping on and I got my computer back (I left it behind).

I can't quite recall whether it was that night or the next morning when I showed my mom a yaoi anime XD The same one which me and Yuki suppose to watch together, which I finished now and I can't wait for the second season. Well, it was bad that it was in Japanese and had English lyrics because when it comes to reading English, she isn't very good at it. She is better at listening though, actually she is quite good at it. Although, she hasn't learned it and just picked it up watching "The Bold And The Beautiful". I have to learn how to stay on a subject XD. Anyways, she missed a lot by just me translating. The good news is that she didn't find it gusting or abnormal or anything like that. To me, it was a bad news - I wanted some reaction to it. Not every daughter watches boys love, right? So, I wanted SOMETHING from her. She said "That's it?" And I was like "Rrrr!" And then I looked up the worst scene in this anime that was available in those 5 episodes I had in my computer - boys making out. And...she didn't react to it either. So, I just have to accept a mother that I can watch anime with as long as I translate.

Well, my Sunday morning was...different. Firstly, a bird woke me up and it wasn't chirping outside. It was in my room, flying around. Well, I tried to ignore it but failed. So, I went to downstairs where I pumped into my dad whose said I could just crash on his bed and finish my sleep.
So, when I finally woke up, I had almost a panic attack. I was sure that I had to go to school on Monday. I went to my mom and complain that I have to got to school tomorrow and I have no timetable and I don't know what I should bring with me. And what she did? She laughed at me!? I was on the verge of panic attack and she laughed. Anyways, she finally told me that tomorrow was Monday but hardly a school day. You can't even imagine how embarrassed I was XD

Moving on...XD I packed that day and picked some berries and we were off to home ^^ Well, except Natsumi. I went to Yuki's place and stayed over. We started watching "Marry Me Mary" or "Mary Stayed Out All Night". And no offense to Yuki, I was dying to go home. I missed my own bed and TV and Internet. Can you imagine being without Internet for a whole week?! TORTURE!

Thanks to Google Map, I can point out my route.
A - Viljandi, my hometown
B - Mägede or Aegviidu as we call it ^^
C - Leppneeme
D - Tallinn, my aunt lives in the border line of Tallinn.

Well, that was my "amazing" trip. Nothing much right but it was nice to get out of the town and I loved the seaside. I really want to go back there.

After that noting big didn't happen. I just read mangas, watched that anime and just chilled in the net. Up until Friday, when Yuki came to visit. Firstly she woke me up and then we went to the town to shop for school stuff. Yeah, school. I can't believe it starts in week and a half. My senior year...I'm not very looking forward to it. I don't want it all to end and I SERIOUSLY don't want to do those 5 exams in the end and I don't want to see my Estonian slash Literature teacher again. I think the last one is THE WORST. Not that I hate Literature. I like Literature - discussing different books, different POVs and stuff like that - and I'm not so crazy about Estonian but I think the teacher is the worst. Her lessons are chaos and, like we discussed it with my class teacher, I'm a girl who likes order, at least in the lessons (let's not start with my room XD). The three major reasons why I'm so "in love" with my Estonian/Literature teacher:
1. When she walkes into a class room, she doesn't know which class is it. Once she didn't even know what lesson she was suppose to give. "Do we have Research or Literature?"
2. Her homework is...a mystery. She has a habit to sometimes start the lesson with giving us our homework. Then in the middle of the lesson the homework changes and right before we walk out the class, she gives us a totally different homework and when a student doesn't get the homework and goes talking to her, she gives ANOTHER homework and in eSchool she writes a (5th??) homework. And what should I do then`?! Which homework should I choose?!?!
3. Her grading. I think she has a habit of grading by the face. When we get out tests back, a person can have like 50 red marking and he/she has a 5 there and another gets a plain sheet and there is 3 or 2. HOW CAN THAT BE?!  Well, the answer is easy! Because it's my "dear" Estonian teacher.

Yeah, I can give you like 50 other reasons why I hate her but I try to contain myself and I should talk little about Estonian schools.

First the grading...In Estonian you can possibly get 5 numbers on your test.
5 - Great job!
4 - Nicely done!
3 - Avarage!
2 - Badly done!
1 - Total fail!

3 is the last grade which means that you passed the test. If you have 2, it kind of means you have to retake it and 1. We get 1s rarely because that just mean that you know nothing and some teacher put 1 in eSchool when the student has left something undone.

Now, what is eSchool (in Estonia it's eKool)? It's a Internet based report card. Teacher, in my school at least, but all the grades up there and the students can see all of them, well at least their own grades. The worst thing about it is that the parents can also keep and eye on your grades. And in my case it the worst! Why? Because my mom is a (math) teacher and eSchool is a regular place for her and she always sees my grades. Not that they are bad or anything. I'm one of the honor students. Geeky, I know! XD But I'm not that smart - I don't get along with my mother tongue. I and Estonian never go together. I have the worst grades there! Luckily my mom get that - she was and is bad at it too - but when I get a 3 in any other lessons I  get a stern "Didn't you study for it!?". And when it comes to math even 4 is a bad grade. So yeah, I'm rather pressured to be a great student. Not that I hate learning but I can't be good at everything. My weak points are nature subjects, like Biology and Geography. Surprisingly, I have 5s in Biology. Why? Because I'm a good talker. I have talked the 4 tests out of 6 into 5's XD I always miss 1,5 points from 5. So, I always pick up my test and discuss it with the teacher and I always get my 5 XD I'm good, aren't I? When there is such a little gap between getting my 5 I do what ever to fill it. Maybe I am an overachiever and that will bite me in the but someday but at the moment it's good if I had high grades. Sure, in the future, it doesn't matter what grades I got in high school but at the moment it does. But I haven't always a diligent student. I got my first 3 as a half term when I was in the 2nd grade XD And it was Estonian class. So, yeah, so to say I got smart in high school. Yuki says that I started fussing about grades before that but I don't really remember  but looking at my bast report cards, I stopped having 3s and half terms in the 8th grade (in Estonia high schools starts with the 10th grade).

I wasn't planning on writing about school here but I was venting AND I wasn't really planning on staying up so late. It's 2AM now and I promised myself (& others) I start waking up at 6AM. So, good luck on that right!

It's off to bed for me. I almost got to the present day XD

XOXO Natsumiiiii ^^

PS. I should make my blog more colorful. Don't you think?