Week

Tomorrow English exam, the day after that Art History test + book report, the day after that History test + ride to Tallinn, the day after that "Teeviit" and the next day? Not so sure yet but there will be something :D And who said that I lead a boring life? Just kidding, it's seems like school, school and school. And officially I'm on sedatives. YAY! Something to add to my pills list XD Okay-okay, I'm officially off the neuritis pills because I'm cured. HALLELUJAH!
Yeah, I'm dripping with sarcasm here but not because I'm nad or something but lately I have been rather down. :/

So, I wrote a little something long time ago, so I thought I would post it already XD

Last Friday:
-Today, I’m totally ignoring Estonian class. But in the name of the school, I’m not just ditching the class. I’m just visiting the school’s psychiatrist. No, I’m not emotionally unstable (not yet anyways XD) but just in my school the senior year and the 9th grade takes a personality test + a career test. I’m really looking forward to the answers. For one, I would like to know what’s suits me the best and also I want to know if I have changes over the 3 years.
When I was writing this, I was waiting in the floor where are the some of the first grades, like the first and the second and MAN they are so energetic XD Comparing to the upper classes they look veruy dull although there might be laughter. Oh, I miss the days when recess was a time for just playing and not for finish homework and revising for a test that might change your totally outcome.
But I can see that not all the games have changed. Couple of girls are playing a game where you suppose to jump on the others toe and the other one can only jump away in the right time. And might I add, one of them is checking out what am I writing XDD Good luck to her ^.^-





So, I went to the psychiatrist and got a lot of things about me. Some where totally wrong. For example: the test said that there is no stubborness in me WHAT SO EVER. Like seriously? My mom said: "What kind of test is that? That's totally wrong. I'll correct it right away." XDD and the other thing was inner tension, which was also very low. -.- At the moment it's higher than the Empire State Building but maybe at the time of the test (September 30) I was rather calmer. 
The nice lady also made me doubt in my future plans. Not that she destroyed them or anything but just made me realize that I have more options. Like foreign universities. I have never thought that I could apply in one of those. I have heard that some of my classmates are and I have supported them all the way but not really thought that I could do the same. So, me and the psychiatrist made a plan to watch some of the universities published in "Teeviit"

And that brings me to that event. For all those non-Estonians:
"Teeviit" is an event where there are bunch of schools who advertise themselves and attract new students. You can ask questions about that school or about one major. So yeah, there are a lot of young people who can look around for options ^.^


But the day before I'll go to stay at my cousins house, my little sis. She has begging to see me and I also really want to see her too. So, I thought that would be a really good opportunity and it's all thanks to MAÜ. THANK YOU! ^.^


I think it's a good way to finish this post ^.^

XOXO Natsumiiiii ^^

PS. Übertired, had an emotional day :)

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Bitching

Okay, I have to bitch a little but only two things:
1. At the moment in Estonia - it's so ridiculous. I go to school when it's dark and also go home in the dark. Like, what the hell!? Yeah, I know more to December 25th the darker it gets and after it's get lighter each day. Not that I'm against darkness or something but during school days it is annoying. It makes me feel so much more tired when I go home in the dark and also it feels like school day is forever. Well, it kind of is. I have around 8 lessons every day, so I get home at 4PM or such. But still!

2. Like last week I my toes were icy all the time WHEN I WAS INSIDE THE HOUSE. Like when I have home sick, I wore like a T-shirt, PJ-pants, a night gown and a really big blouse on top of it all and I was still freezing - had to grab a blanket. And you know what they did yesterday?!? They turned up the heat to the bottom. Last night there was like 30 degrees inside. ARE YOU FREAKING KIDDING ME!?!  There is seriously lack of air and we cannot really open the windows much because as you know I'm sick and my dad has a fever too, so basically 2/3 of my family is sick or something. And this morning when I was outside and came in for a bit. When, I opened the door it felt like sauna. There was like puff or heat or something. The landlord is obviously and idiot. I mean, who does that?!?! His or her little stunts costs up + the heating bills aren't very smally (DAMN YOU CENTRAL HEATING!)

Good to get those things out of my chest. Sorry for the bad words ^.^

XOXO Natsumiiiii ^^

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Teachers

November just isn't my month. Like seriously! But today I'm not about to whine (not yet anyway XDD)

Anways, teacher. Yeah, I want to tell the world that not all my teachers are bad (like Estonian one). For example:
History teacher - she is the most concerned teacher ever. Tomorrow there is a history test and today she came up to me and asked: "Natsumi, are you sure you can take the test tomorrow? I saw that you have been absent a lot and maybe you don't have all the material. So, how about December 1." At first I was blown away and really didn't say anything. But I decided that I'll take the test the day she offered and in the mean time arrange some of the other things that I have to do. But still, It was so sweet of her. She is my absolute fave ^.^

An other teacher who just don't treat my like an annoying student is my Art History teacher. As you all know, I'm doing an Art History research (well suppose to do but there is so much to do, so yeah, fallen a little behind with it but anyways, today when I went to take the oral test for those 134 pictures, got a 5 BTW, she handed me a bunch of papers, actually 4 XD, and they were all written and she told me that they are full of painting that she could think of for my research and I was like woah (that was the longest sentance ever XDD) At first I couldn't say a thing and she explained a little more and I was like:

o.O "Thank you!"

And she, humble as ever, no problem. I mean like woah! In my research there are like 12 gods and for all of them there were like 10 painting AT LEAST. She is so helpful and every time we meet I book to help me or new list that could help me, like woah. I feel so special ^.^

Of course there is also my class teacher who really is like a second mom to me. She always helps me with Teaduskool. She solves all the problems, then I solve them , then we compare them. After I rewrite them and even on the day she gets award for being the favorite teacher in high school she still asks me if we solved all the problems in my test for Teaduskool. It's really like woah. And it's like 3 years straight and it's not even something that she has to worry about. It's kind of like extra job for her (BTW I'm about to cry at the moment XD)

I was planned to talk about the bad teachers too but I think I'll keep it that way.

So, what I have been up to? Playing computer games -blushes-. Yeah, I know, bad-bad girl.

I have been playing this:

Do you guys remember this game. Oh, I used to play it for hours when I was smaller. Like I seriously loved it and it's a part of my childhood ^.^ And, as the matter of a fact, this game was developed the year I was born (1993) XD Recently I'm pretty bad about it and I have forgot the basic places where you get goods but it has been a while. I remember that I used to call it Tarzan but it's actually Prehistorik 2.

+ I recently downloaded Need For Speed Carbon.

MAN, I'm a dork!!! XD Plus I have GTA in my computer, Sims 3 of course and If I had a table computer I would download Counter Strike + that was game me and BZ used to play and maybe something more XD I love computer games and I'm too stubborn to erase them just because I fail. My ultimate faves are racing games, I have to say XD

Oh, what else? At the moment I'm not going to complain what's wrong with my life. Like the first sentence says there is a lot, so I won't trash my blog with all of that.

But now, I'll add those pictures I promised last time ^.^

My "painting"! XD Well, that's just one part of it. Kind of left upper corner. It's like the best part of that whole thing XD

 

 I really-really like this one :) I look kind of cute in it ^.^ Maybe because it doesn't show my huge family nose XD

And on this one I look even better. The make-up looks great, my skin looks perfect and that hair...I like it but It's like one in  a million chance that I can get my hair like that ^.^ That is considered a good hair day. The more I look at this picture, I'm bothered by that blue bottle under the desk. It totally stands out on that brownish carpet...Oh, and near my head, you can see a tiger, right? That was actually made by Yuki. I think it was for my birthday this year. Actually, I have a lot of her work on my wall but they are blocked by my big head XD

Okay, for tonight, that's it. Oh, before I finish this post....

Shout out for MAÜ who said today "OH MY GOD! I READ YOUR BLOG!" LOL XD and she added that my English is good, so thank you, dear ^.^

XOXO Natsumiiiii ^^

PS. I also want to say THANK YOU, LO! for remembering my fave candy ^.^

First - REVIEW

HAHAHAH! Watch 0:36 XD "OH MY GOD, BIG SCARY BUBBLES ARE COMING!!! I'LL PROTECT YOU!" said the pink jacket girl to the blue one and covered her. LOL XD
Anyways, as for the song...nothing much. Just trying to act cute and not even memorable. Yeah, I might be mean but still the video was awkward so yeah, had to share XD

Including my "oh so funny" joke before, Natsu strikes again. There was a new CF including Big Bang (YAY! Big Bang!)

Natsu's comment after: "TOP, you look good in blond." Like, WHAT THE HELL?! XDD but fore I was wondering why Daesung wasn't there. Still because of that car accident or for something else now??

And now for the main event XD. A new girl group emerged to the Kpop world and they are so cool ^.^
The group's name is New.F.O and the debut single is Bounce and it's totally catchy (not like that first song I mentioned)!

I sincerely hope that they stick with that image and don't go all girly girls on me. One of the things that allures me is that edginess they have. They are like energizer 2NE1. Two girls totally pop for me (I'm not announcing my fave...yet) - the girl with the bangs and the yellow doted dress and the long haired girl who wears sparkling blue shirt and pink pants. But I think I like the bangs girl a little more, she has more of that...WOW-factor XDD
I'm really looking forward to their live performance too. I might have already missed it though XDD

The last, and certanly not least, song is the new U-Kiss' single Tick Tack

The beginning reminds me the Madonna song 4 Minutes or something like that but all around the song is great and I'm happy that U-Kiss have came up with something new ^.^  But out of the two last songs I like Bounce a little more. Sorry, U-Kiss :(

But that's it for now ^.^

XOXO Natsumiiiii ^^

PS. It's hard to find a mp3 version of Bounce

Pills

So yeah, I got some tablets added to my list. Now there are vitamins, a medicine for that neuritis and now for sore throat. 


-dad just got me some Coca-Cola, he's so sweet ^.^-


And a fever struck this morning but after some sleep it got down a little. So, I think I would be fully back in school soon. But tomorrow I have to go to school for two hours because I have to do a Physics test and I don't want to miss that. It's too trouble some to make it up later, so I'll drag myself to school but I should wear a scarf in front of my face not to infect anyone :)


So, what I have been up to? Nothing much. Just studied, watched TV and today I started listen to old English songs. I like singing to them and perhaps remember the time when everything was easier. Now, too much is going on - hard decisions, difficult relationships and constant self doubt. Recently, my life is a bitch and I might be overreacting too and maybe some people might be offended since they are a part of my life but it's me who sucks right now. I'm just too insecure at times, so I have start to overthink again.


Oh, I got my wiped out phone back. Wiped out because there are no SMS, no application, no phone numbers - absolutely nothing. And I didn't get to buy the other one -cries into a pillow-


I don't know If I have mentioned it before but I follow on Twitter user PiscesAreUs and today they tweeted something that really relates to me.


Some #Pisces are hardheaded, they never learn.


When I was a lot smaller, like when I still slept in a crib, I kept climbing over the edge, fell over it, got hurt and next time wasn't any smarter. My mom said I fell over at least three times and then learned that you get hurt when you try to climb over the edge XDD Seems like I wasn't the brightest child at that time but my mom did say that I was pretty fearless and hardly cried when I was hurt. Like I fell into that canal (those wholes in the ground where you drive over, then go to there to fix up the bottom of your car) and then I climbed out of there, all bloody and didn't cry a tear and just went on playing. Okay, I sound like a psycho child XDDD and maybe I still am one. Like in school, in elementary school most students get really good grades because everything is still generally easy but I got bad ones. Then we entered the 10th grade and the teacher warned that it's the most difficult out of the three years and the last one is for closures and the time to focus on the up and coming exams. And my 10th year was my star year, I started with straight A's (like they say) and I was an honor student for 2 years straight but now...yeah, let's just leave it to that. Everything for me is vice versa XD


Recently, I have blogged a lot, haven't I? But I haven't added very much pictures of me because my sickness+warmth outfits aren't so much to look at. I usually just wear my favourite hoodie and something long under it, so my upper body stays warm. 


So, today I'll share with you some pics. Firstly, I would share with you a little piece of my "masterpiece".


Well, I want to share but blogger just won't work with me, so it and some other pictures I wanted to add will be seen in the next posts or so.


But as for now, I'll say TTYL XD

XOXO Natsumiiiii ^^

PS. I wanted to make my official fist review today but oh well :)

Thinking

Heya!
I'm having a record week, as you can see ;)

So, I was just reading Yuki's (the Estonian one she writes) and I just got thinking and I thought I share with you some on my random thoughts.

Recently, I have stopped thinking completely when it comes to myself. Like, I don't think about the future so much and I keep myself busy. It used to be another way around - I thought to much and got nothing done. I just don't feel like thinking who am I, that am I going to do next, what happened in the past (I mostly don't remember XD). Just like do something but I guess I have routed my thoughts to my paintings lately, directed my emotions there. Like, when I got my a bad grade in Estonian class, I painted a picture where there are like an explosion. To me, it was an explosion but to others they saw something else, and another one I did that day, I called it "Bursting with rage" and what my mom saw in it? "Oh, what a pretty flowers." -.- It's not normal XD But the art is in the eye of the beholder.

Maybe it's a good thing that I don't think. Then I can't get depressed by doubting myself that I can't make it in the world  but then again if I don't think and just do, I don't realize what kind of effect it might bring to my future. Man, it's a difficult world here. It's like everything I do or don't do effect me in one point or another. The best example is my mom on deciding to go work for a school in Viljandi. If she had chose the other place, she wouldn't have me, she would have that great husband she has now and maybe she would never have never become a religious person. OH DEAR!

That reminds me - Yuki dragged me to a dance house on Friday. It was kind of a homework assignment for her but she brought me along as well. And I'm glad that she did. It was one of the most fun I had lately.

On Satruday I met up with MS. She fell asleep on me + I got my phone back and it was emptied out. Nice huh? But that's okay, that just gives me a chance to load it up with more shit XD I also went to LO place and we "studied" Physics. I remember laughing most of the time XD

And now I'm continuing my Art History studies. I have to learn 134 pictures for the next test. Easy A, don't you think? XD Today it's form Baroque to Classicism. Good luck to me! ^.^


Oh, I was home alone most of the weekend but hardly got to enjoy it, though. Today I left the house somewhere after 11AM and arrived home 8.30PM XD And I have to say, except for the fear of losing my keys, I like being home alone. It's much calmer here but then again it sometimes feels it's like too quiet. When mom is home I can hear Spanish in the living room or just TV in general and when dads home the ventilation is on because he smokes, A LOT! Like two pack A DAY!


Okay, so back to business!

XOXO Natsumi ^^

PS. Me and LO  developed a special feeling towards raintrops XD

Organized

I wanted to share my small happiness with you.

Last night I decided to start acting more decent and organized (and I don't include my room into that promise XD) Anyways, last night I took all my make-up off, which I hardly do. That is a very bad habit :/ I usually just go to sleep and in the morning before I put on make-up I just "erase" the imperfections. But last night I used my make-up remover I just bought and also used a little toner then a little moisturizer and my skin felt amazing. And today I washed my face and moisturized again and my skin looks great and it's super soft. I have been really lazy with taking care of my face and I go sick and tired of those little spots on my forehead, which "nobody sees". So yeah, I started to care again and just not conceal them ^.^

Another thing what has changed is organizing my day. Usually after school I would just lay or sit on my bed, waste time in internet or just read some mangas. So, I didn't do any of my homework, studied for tests in school and did my homework during lessons. Like in biology I solved math problems (bad student award). I think that's one of the reasons of my academic fall but then again it doesn't matter how prepared you are, in Estonian class the teacher always can surprise you ^.^

And how was my first day back to school? Exhausting XD Okay, I might be overreacting. In English class I did my wordtest, got a 5-. I math we studied cone again but in Biology I was the bad student but just because I had trouble with my Estonian because I didn't quite get what I was suppose to do (I still don't XD). In History we wrote a discussion. In Estonian I prayed that the teacher didn't ask me (& she didn't XD Thank god!) and in Art History I watched some really random pictures. Today we discussed surrealism and watched a really weird movie that was it :) But I didn't see TT today. I'm kind of sad :/ She also has some health problems but she promised she will be to school tomorrow. Oh, I forgot something. During when I was at home I wrote to couple of my teachers to ask about tests and other homework and only my math teacher replied to me. Why? Beacause the computers in school were busted and I got 3 apologizes today for not responding XD Oh, and my History teacher saw right through me. I don't know how but she knew that I'm an overachiever. So she asked me how did I get neuritis due to stress. The first answer she got from me is that I got a little cold but then she looked at me like she was waiting for something more. So, I eventually said that I'm under a lot of stress, so my health is weak. And she smiled and asked me to take it easy ^.^ Caring teacher, one of my favorites.

So, that's for now. I just wanted to share a litte and get off my busy schedule but for now I'll continue ^.^

-few hours late- 

You know what my problem is? I worry. I'm worried about Akira at the momement (LOL I can't even spell moment XD). I'm thinking how will TT manage then I'm thinking if Yuki is depressed again and if could help her in any way. Then I'm worried about my dad because he's health is bad. I'm worried about mom because she works too much. I'm worried about MS because I'm afraid that she might screw up and that might change her life completely. And you know what, I'm worried about this T person and I don't know him at all. And of course I'm worried about Eddy and if he can manage in the army. And how many times I said "worry"? 6 times and I'm afraid for/worrying about 8 different people and I'm the one stuck with an hurtful disease. Life is beautiful ^.^

XOXO Natsumiiiii ^^

PS. The meds I have to take make me sick XD I almost puked in Math XDD

News

I just got terrible news. My Math teacher just wrote to me that I was 1. on that math comptetion I took part in the beginning of November. NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO!

-few minutes later-

I might be "slightly" overreacting but still it's pretty bad.

 

Oh, and I got the pictures I ordered. Some of them to add to my wall but for Yuki and me and I made couple of smaller ones - "The best of Yuki&Natsu" For every picture, to me, there is a meaning behind it. Like there is a picture for our first Christmas together, also where we are dolled up, then there is a funny picture where I look kind of funny-scary and Yuki is funny-sad + a picture where there is a deeper meaning which I'm not going to tell you but Yuki looks über cute on it ^.^ I would post there pictures here also but then there wouldn't be a next post (DANDANDAAAAAAAAA!! XD) Only 2 pictures which I'll add will be my at lake Viljandi, which I'm going to send to 2 of my penpals, and Jang Geun Suk, which I ordered just for Yuki

XOXO Natsumiiiii ^^

PS. If you are wondering why winning is bad, then you should check out "Competition"

Memory

Yeah, forgot to mention some things XD
I wanted to tell you that I found new love in my life..and his name is...Daim mini.

Love, love, love!

Not that I'm a bad blogger, I'm also I terrible reader. I have like 11+1 blog posts to read. +1 because Yuki read hers out loud for me when I strayed over ^.^

XOXO Natsumiiiii ^^

PS. The movie just ended XD

Neuritis

I'm incapable of staying healthy but I think it's because I'm under a lot of stress, so my body is that much weaker + my bad eating habits. So, yes, I'm sick again. This time I have...neuritis between my ribs. Not as fun as it sounds XD It really hurts to breathe + coughing is even more painful. Not that I have a cough, but yesterday I managed to choke on air, so I had to cough and almost died. Nice huh?

*So people please, look out and really button up, so you won't get the same thing that I'm suppering from at the moment. Dress according to the weather. It really will disturb you and since humans need to breath is like constant pain.*

I can only dream about doing something physical but it doesn't excactly get me out of school. I would say thank go because the last time I went to school was...November 7th. So, now when I go to school I have to do a word test in English and a bigger test in Biology. To top it all, I have to talk to my Estonian teacher becaue I got some really nasty grades there. But then again in English I got my questions test 5+ ^.^ And the teacher said that I had the best test in the whole class.

So, except for the "minor" pain and academic fall, I'm doing good. Recently, I have gotten along with my dad very good and I don't argue that much with my mom XD

This Thurday, I get together with MS! I'm so glad, I haven't seen that girl like forever. Not since we got drunk and I went to school with a hangover XD Gooood times, good times XD

There is also a possibility that I can see my beautiful cousin and maybe my other cousins. My uncle's wife has a birthday this Saturday and I might be attending it. It all depends whether she saved me a seat and if my health allows me.

I have watched some movies lately.



Yes, I finally watched the last movies of the world famous Harry Potter. I have to say, I wasn't disappointed. They were pretty awesome but I got a little teary when Dobby died and almost got a heart attack when that snake attacked in the first movie. Jesus, that was scary! And what really weird and kind of pissed me of was when in the middle of a battle somebody starts kissing. OH COME ON! You're in real danger and there is no time for something like that. People in love are simply mad. Simply mad, I tell ya! Oh, and I have to say. The young Snape looks like T without make-up XDD


And another movie I watched recently is "Fast and Furious" - the 4th movie. Actually, I'm watching it as I write this blog entry. From these three movies, I have watched, I like Fast and Furious the most. Vin Disel is awsome ^.^ and also the street racing is extremely thrilling.

Now, I have to get serious and start to think about school again. Oh, dear! The good news is that only tomorrow there will be an Estonian class and that it for me this week ^.^

Oh, I have to say. My Sims died in a fire last night. Rest In Piece, Alaric Jones!

XOXO Natsumiiiii ^^
PS. Were you expecting more morning song? XD

Friend

I figured out why me and Yuki get along so well. We umderstand each other completely and we don’t need to chat constantly. Like this Saturday morning (I stayed over last night), we basically both sat on the computer (I behind my laptop and she behind her home computer) and we hardly spoke a word to each other. But I wouldn’t say the atmosphere was awkward or something like that. It was rather relaxed. Except fot the fact that my ribs hurt XD I suspect that Yuki came kicking last night...just kidding. Maybe just the bed, which I was sleeping on, didn’t really suppost sleeping on my stomach like I’m used to at home. Actually I don’t really remember the last time I slept over. And neither does Yuki.

And speaking of Yuki, Friday night, when we were watching „Aristocats“ she kind of freak out when she saw my sleevless hands. Long story short she was absolutely sure that I have lost a lot of weight because my elbows are really bony. And I guess they might be and also my ribs might be sticking out (that would explain the rib ache also) but my tummy doesn’t seem to get the fact that I’m eating less. It’s just as fat as it always has been, at least to me. And if I think about I have started to eat less. Not intentionally of couse but it has just happened. I eat breakfast because I have to take vitamins and then I eat during 5 or 6 PM because I’m just starving and that kind of concludes my eating these days. I think the main reason is that my kitchen is a mess and I don’t really don’t want to go there. My dad is sick so he doesn’t do housework and my moms is busy and I just detest waching the dishes. Seriously! I would rather scrub a toilet. So yeah, if I don’t go to the kitchen then I can’t eat XD How simple is that. Surely, my mom says that I have to force myself but my tummy isn’t crying so what’s the point? And if I look at my hand while typing, I can see my vessels are sticking out and especially the one I can move. Yeah, there is an actual vessel I can move at will. It’s pretty grouse and after a  while it makes an uncomfotable.

Speaking of my week. I went to school on Monday and rest of the week I sat home (well except Saturday, that day I sat at Yuki’s). Oh and on Wendsday and Friday I was a babysitter and made some money. I only babysit on kid and she really is a sweet girl but not really big on sharing. Yeah, I would say a little bit spoilt but so am I, so I can’t really judge. I’m also used to get what I want XD Most of the time I have played Sims 3. Love, love, love it ^.^ It is a little more complicated that Sims 2 was but that makes it a little more special. The grafics have change, it has become more challenging especially with the relationships but who cares. The sad thing is that the people get older sooner, or at least it seems to me.
I think I won’t be sharing pics and videos of my Simses but I would add a picture where the Sims has a creepy resemblance to an actual person, Akira’s aqquataince, and a little WTF!?-moment video.

Oh, the reason I could stay long at home like that without getiing into trouble is this. On Tuesday and Wendsday I was offically sick at home. Long story short, my migraines are back. Actually few years ago I got a medical certificate of migraine swings and long time I haven’t had problems with them but seniour year is stressful so yeah, they are back! XD And on Thursday and Friday the most of my class was in Russia, so I didn’t have any lessons what so ever. But next week is a full week so good luck to me! ^.^

XOXO Natsumiiiii ^^

PS. Tomorrow is biology test. Wish me luck  :)

OMG!

Big Bang...Big Bang...Big Bang...THEY WON THE EMA.
HELL YEAH. AN ASIAN GROUP WON AN AWARD IN THE EUROPEAN MUSIC AWARDS. THEY ARE TAKING OVER THE WORLD!!!!

Omg, I'm over the moon. My heart is leaping and I'm shaking in excitement. This is the most awesome news ever. This is so freaking amazing! And to top all of that up Big Bang stayed on top of the Twitter Chart all night. I'm so proud of them. They are so amazing. I will never forger this day. It's officially yesterday  when they already won.

06.10.2011

Big Bang won at the EMA's in Belfast and I got to see it <3

AND NOT GOING ANYWHERE!

-Few minutes later-

I just realized that Big Bang crushed Britney Spears in that category. THAT'S HUGE! I mean everybody know "It's Britney Bitch!" that only means that Big Bangs has some REALLY awesome and dedicated fans. OMG, this is still so amazing. Love them =^.^=

Had to add it XD

XOXO Natsumiiiii ^^

PS. This is the most awesome night ever! No correction awesome day ever!

Money

Spent a lot of money on food and drink BUT it was all worth it.

Yuki came to town today and right after she step out of the bus we headed to Statoil to buy hot chocolate but we also took a hot dog because I knew Yuki would hardly eat anything that morning. She has a very bad beginning, let's just say. The hot chocolate that Yuki recommended was D.E.L.I.C.I.O.U.S! I want to buy that again and again and again and you know what comes next - bankruptcy XD So, for one in a while it's okay ^.^
Then we bought some childhood treats like bubble gum, a lollipop, chips and "Mõnus maius" (This is a really nourishing and sweet bite with plenty of toffee and crunchy corn balls - took it from the production company XD). Let's just say our jaws hurt from chewing all that bubble gum but it was worth it ^.^

So, although the day got kind of expensive, I had a lot of fun ^.^ We laughed, talked and watched a movie. This time it was "Underworld:Evolution" - love Underworld movies, they both are so awesome and I can't wait for the third one and I'm really looking forward to the fourth one which comes out in January T.T

Am I too boring or talk too much but Yuki slept when she got a chance XD It was during the movie. And we also scared each other a bit, neither of them were actually intentional but maybe Yuki really wanted to scare me -suspicious- Anywayz XD When somebody rang the doorbell, Yuki slipped out of my room to bathroom and I wasn't aware of that, and when I finally got rid of the annoying guest, she creped out from the corner and I jumped. Nut with Yuki it was more hilarious XD Yuki went to the bathroom after the movie (AGAIN XD) and I also needed to go, so I hung out in my room but soon quietly walked out and when I reached to the door Yuki opened and shrieked out loud XD Man, it was hilarious (sorry Yuki XD).

So, I had a fun day ^.^ But now, homework for me!

Oh but my morning? Spend hours getting myself ready XD Usually I don't take long to get ready but let's just say I took my time. After shower I tended my face, took my time to do my make-up but the most time took my hair. I don't have a lot of hair but today I took a really good care of it. I added conditioner - I have two different: one for my roots and one to another hair - and also added heat protection+straightening spray, which is actually 2in1, but I didn't add hairspray which I kind of regret because now I'm wavy :/  but it could have gone worse but the straightening spray helped  ^.^ Natsu recommends XD

So, it's Schwarzkopf's Got2b Straight On, which is protecting straightening spray. It's suppose to straighten, smooth and hold and protect up to 200 degrees. And I can honestly say that it does all those things because I'm not payed to day nice things XD I have used half of it and I don't regret although if you put too much on the same place hair gets tacky but other than that - 2 THUMBS UP!





Some time in the morning, I was thinking what to do with my bangs. I have grown them out and I'm not planning to cut again, so they are abnormally long but not long enough to push behind the ears. I would say, thank you Youtube! I found this Gyaru girl who shows how to do curl side bangs.

And no, I'm not planning on becoming a Gyaru girl myself. Although Yuki told me today that I'm turning into them just because I bought a BB Cream. Really, I'm not planning on follow Gyaru style and I have couple of reason:

1. I'm not cute enough - and that's one of the biggest reasons because when I see those girls they are like overly kawaii and stuff and I'm not one of those kinds (at least I think I'm not ^.^).

2. I don't have Gyaru style clothes - maybe I can find some in my wardrobe but most of the clothes that those girls wear are soft pink and overly girly and I have closet full of pants and sweatshirts XD

3. It's expensive - they wear fake eyelashes, animal lenses + if I want to follow that style I have to change my entire wardrobe. Get the picture!? XD And there is also hair extensions - to be totally honest I have though of hair extensions XD All my life I have wanted really long hair but my hair always get to a point where they don't go on, so I have though about those clip on extensions which I can take off whenever I want + I don't have to wash them + I don't have to pay to the hairdresser to get them tended or placed on ^.^ But I'm not so sure if I buy them.

So, I'll add a song here which has been stuck in my head all day. CURSE YOU, YUKI! Haha, I'm kidding. I love the song. It's ćalm, smoothing and beautiful. So, arigatou Yuki! ^.^
But, I can't add it because it has already been in my blog couple of posts back, so a much more different song.

I think there was a day where I listened to this song over and over again XD

XOXO Natsumiiiii ^^

PS. I'm a really bad student XD

Dreams

I so wanna be more active blogger but I just spend too much time on Twitter XD I know most people have moved on to Tumblr (don't really know the right spelling XD) but I'm staying on Twitter.
Yeah, maybe I'm not the most modern person here but I don't see the point in it & besides Yuki is an active memeber and tells me a lot about it and also I can check hers every time I want  ^.^

So, a little something that was before Korean and Japanese music XD

The lead guy Alex has beautiful eyes ^.^ Natsu is falling in love ^.^ But seriously it's a really good band. I listened to "Lost In Stereo" so many times and also I loved "Damned if I do ya, Damned if I don't" and "Dear Maria!"

At the moment, I'm listening to music, looking for a tinted moisturizer and speaking to Akira & Yuki. It's a quiet night ^.^ but I'm kind of liking it. Except for the fact that I'm not made to sit behind a computer for so long - my achy breaky left shoulder :( But it's okay, at least I'm having fun XD

I wanted to talk about something and then I forgot XD It always happens to me but it seems to be a Pisces syndrome since Akira does it sometimes too XD But really, I can be so forgetful sometimes. And clumsy. And just plain silly. But that's just me XD

Now, I'm trying to figure out which one is 19th March girl in After School. I mean it's rare to find a person who has her/his birthday on the same day as me. My ex-classmate had also his birthday on the 19th and he was offended because I was 10 minutes older than he was XD

Unfortunately, nothing like me :( I wish I could be as cute as she i T.T

Well, her name is Jooyeon and she was born in March 19th (OBVIOUSLY) 1987 and her blood type is AB ^-^.

So, I did a little more research on her and she is a real prankster and good at giving orders XD like me, at least the last part ^.^ 

I finally found and bought a BB Cream for myself. I have heard so many wonderful things about it, so I thought I would try it out. I like that it has a whitening ability ^.^

Oh, I had had a really great day with Yuki today. The brightest moment was when we sat in the library and played Junior Alias. We practiced English and explained in English but with the some words is like I don't know the word so how can I explain. Yuki won the game though -She was a really good guesser or I'm a good explainer - either way we both one in a way. We got to practice our English and had a good laugh XD

Yuki send me this one. The song is great and the girl is really beautiful. Kind of envy her ^.^

XOXO Natsumiiiii ^^

PS. Just made the biggest order in Oriflame + the BB Cream = soon broke Natsu XD

Competiton

I have had trouble with the word competition all day long and now I finally learned how to write it, so why not use it as a title.

So, the first things first (weird expression XD), I thought about why I started to write in English, not in my native language, which you all know is Estonian. Well, I came up with couple of reasons

1. I'm not great in my native tone - yeah, I can speak it QUITE good but I'm bad at spelling.

2. It's a good opportunity to practice my English - I also write a lot to my e-mail penpals and also some other foreigners.

3. Which brings me to the last reason I came up with, also my foreign friends can read it ^.^ and, oh come on, how many of people can understand Estonian? Not many. I think it might be even more productive to write in Finnish, which I'm clearly unable to do XD

Talking about Finnish, I got some CD's from my beautiful cousin and on those CD there are Finnish lessons for novices, which I clearly am. Not all are brilliant in languages like Yuki is. I mean she knows more Korean than I do, although I'm the one who is officially studying it. I kind of envy her ability to pick up languages. Okay, I know English and in school MAYBE someone envies my English abilities (probably not) but it's like the only foreign language I admit to know. I always say that I have leaned German but never I can speak German because I know I can't XD

And, now for some pictures!

So, two of outfits for the fall. Okay, I prefer autumn more  ^-^

Yeah, mainly leather jacket and, oh, I love those boots - they look great, are super comfortable and I can walk in a puddle and my feet will be try XD Not that I walk from puddle to puddle, haha, but you get the picture. But when the winter comes I can't wear them that open and I have to get myself wool socks ^-^

  And speaking of fashion, I have a mutli-tasking scarf ^.^

(one of the few good pictures of me XD)

 Okay, so yeah, the competition part. I took part in a math competition and you know what's the bad about is that I did great & no, I didn't do any mistakes in that last sentence because if I win, which probably happens, then I would be sent to another competition then another, then another and then comes the physics competitions. I have to attend there too, the teacher already warned me. I have him a deadly stare - she said in front of the class "don't glare at me. It could kill me!" XD

Now, some make-up and no, I'm not adding some tutorials but I will add a picture ^.^

Comments on the picture, so no extra needed. Moving forward!

 

 And something more extreme XD Yeah, I look like a clown but I really like the skin though. It's clear and white. And the lips look nice too but, yeah, the eyes XD Let's just say when I'm bored I try on make-up and sometimes it's not really..something that I can go out with XD

 And something more presentable. There is a pinkish makeup here. The make-up is probably something similar to the green make-up. 

Oh, I haven't told you the biggest news - my biology teacher is a homophobic. Yay! It came up in a lesson when she didn't get over the fact that a gay couple wanted a child and there was a woman kind enough to give a birth to one. It was totally clinical and stuff. And I don't know how the conversation continued but the juicier parts were that being gay is a curable disease and they want the right to marry in order to show themselves. Yeah, I'm not going to comment on that but let's just say I was totally "agreeing" with her. Especially I "love" that disease part.

 Meet my current phone! & I love it! When I got as an exchange phone because my regular phone went to repair, I felt like I didn't want my old phone back. But when I go to think of it, I can't really do that. I have too many personal stuff in there - especially notes. Oh, BTW, my real phone is Nokia 5530 Xpress music.

Well, that's it for tonight. So, lastly a picture made by Yuki or my finger. This ring is on the middle finger. I think it's a great picture. Good job, Yuki! ^-^

XOXO Natsumiiiii ^^

PS. I have never posted so many pictures.

Blog

I really wanted to blog today but I got caught up in those make-up tutorials and stuff, so yeah XD.
I have so much to say here, so I think I would definitely write something tomorrow because at 8AM I will be attending a math competition, so, after the 4 mantatory hours I get to come home, so I have plenty of time ^.^

XOXO Natsumiiiii ^.^

PS. I don't wanna go to that thing tomorrow T.T but I really have a urge to do a vlog...

Long awaited guests should be arriving soon but frankly I'm too tired to care. I just want to hide myself under a blanket because I have so many thought going through my mind, so I'm not looking forward to being social at the moment. But enough about those depressing thoughts.

Anyways we did the last shopping this afternoon and might I say we have food for like 50 and there will be coming only about 4 guests. Not good!? Then who eats all of that food?!
Today at the store dad bought so many things and I kept complaining that "Who will eat that?" "Is this really nessasary?" ETC and all that mom said was that dad has a vision

O.o

SEROUSLY!?

Well I have a vision of not blowing up XD Although I wouldn't mind that cake and the ice cream ^.^

Anyways, since my dad isn't fond of b-day parties (or parties what so ever) then today's guest will be another family with 2 children (12 and 4 years old) so in a way I'm also a babysitter. So, I really need to perk up before they arrive.

And I have to say that there is a delicious smell coming out of the kitchen ^.^

XOXO Natsumi ^^

PS. I'm starving already XD

Sims

I want to slap and at the same time kiss the guy or gal who invented Sims (& especially The Sims 3)

I have spent like...over 7 hours playing Sims 3 on my laptop and might I say that my sims has become an elder and is going to die soon XD So, that's the slapping part of Sims but I LOVE LOVE LOVE this game and I have ever since...~2000 when this game actually came out and my friend and I spent again hours playing that game but comparing to The Sims 3, which I'm playing now, I can't really understand why we saw in the first one XD
I could spend some time gushing about it but not at the moment.

Right now I wanted to write (the first sentence&) that I decided that I would seperate (from now on) my personal life and the K-Pop stuff because some of my known readers are not very into that stuff, although I adore it ^.^ So if there is a "REVIEW" in the end of a title then I will discuss another Korean band or anime or something else similar.

But for now I have to go to bed because tomorrow we will celebrate my dad's b-day which according to the birth certificate is on October 31st but since it is Monday we decided to celebrate it tomorrow. And since there will be guest coming tomorrow so I have to start my day early (to clean and do little home-reading) and I have to stay up late, then it's wise to get as much sleep as possible.

XOXO Natsumiiiii ^^

 PS. Tomorrow Natsu will be drinkinig so hopefully there will be a post on Sunday XD

Back!

Yeah, so I'm ignoring doctors orders (& my own promises) and I'm writing a post. SUE ME!

So, firstly I STRONGLY recommend you guys to be careful with your eyes. Don't stay too much online! Don't watch computer/TV screens in the dark! And eat lots of carrots! XD

And since I have a lot to talk about, screw the dates ^^

So school...

English teacher likes monologes recently and not that she is monologuing but she is asking us to to that. Not my favourites! And one of those times I was like my classbrother's personal dictionary and sometimes I didn't quite say words that was acceptable to him XD

SG: How do you say in one word, a girlfriend and a boyfriend smashed together
KT: I'm not sure
Natsumi: Lovers
SG - Insta blush  XDD that was so funny but eventually he used the word anyway with his tomato red face XDD

English tests are too easy. I mean I can get fives without studying for the test and I'm not saying that I'm a brainiac or something. But the teacher just don't challenge us.

In history class everybody is afraid to write anything on their own in the notebooks. Teacher gives us some excercises of finding something in the textbook or just make summaries and most of the students doesn't write anything in the notebooks until the teacher starts talking and the others just write in pencil so the can erase later.

Then September 16 was YUKI'S BIRTDAY and there was a party on the next day and then again 5 days later.

Firstly, I was super nervous about her birthday present. Usually SK and KJ give her the cutest and best gifts and let's just say the competition is rough.

So finally I made her this

Awful picture - I know - but just bare with it, since the real present has been taken apart and eaten.

So all of the things are made by me - the flowers, the cupcakes and the card (the last one was the biggest fail since I practiced and spend too much time on the flowers. Yuki didn't say anything bad, so I'm good ^.^

The party...

Firstly I was a bit afraid of it. There were 4 girls - HT & AÕ were good friends and came together and the same thing went for KJ ja SK - and me. I was kind of sure I was loner at this thing because I didn't quite communicate with those girls every day - I have seen them and aybe said hi and stuff but not really pals. Out of all 4 girl I have talked to KJ the most but still not BFFs.
It turned out that I was worried about nothing - I had a great time and SK said that I was not that scary as she originally thought. YAY!

(I would add the picture of the outfit buuuuuut the picture itself or the girl on it looks bad)

The second party...

Since Akira (before referred as LS) didn't make it on the first day then me, Yuki and her went to eat pizza and the local pizza joint.The food was great, the company was even better ^.^

And now there is 25 "wonderful" facts about me that I happened to write down ^.^
1.I usually don't drink coffee but I love those little packs which you pour to a mug and add water and you have a steaming cup of coffee.
2. I'm perfectionist, especially when it comes to school, I won't settle for less, so 4 to me is a punishment.
3. My only weakness is keeping my room clean.
4. Folding relaxes me.
5. I'm a light sleeper but it's hard to get me out of bed.
6. I like to plan.
7. I tend to get everything what I want but I don't hurt people,
8. I think too much but only afterward, usually I'm hasty and blur things out whitout thinking.
9. I'm afraid to throw up, I haven't puked for years so it has become scary.
10. I hate peas.
11.I love vanilla chocolate chipped ice-cream.
12.I love how "dreadful" sounds.
13. I'm usually haunted by songs, It's really rare when there isn't anything.
14. I hate when my English teacher doesn't correct all the pronunciation mistakes.
15. I got a scar under my chin and I got it on my 7th birthday. "Happy Birthday Natsu. Here is a scar for you XD"
16. Before K-Pop I hardly watched music videos.
17. I can't sleep with socks on.
18. I find shota disgusting.
19. I'm no fond of times when guys who suppose to be my friends hit on me.
20. I bite my lover lip when I'm thinking.
21. Since I'm left-handed, I don't write from left to right but I turn the paper etc to the right side and write from up to down.
22. I get goosebumps when I yawn/sneeze and I might also tear up.
23. Hate phrases like "make that girl mine" and "sugar" (when it's like a pet name to someone)
24. I sometimes laugh like an anime character (with shoulders shaking)
25. I don't get when people say: "My condolences." In Estonia it's "Tunnen kaasa!" aka "I feel sorry for you!" And why do you feel sorry for me? I'm alive. And another thing. Do you really feel sorry or you are just saying that because you have nothing else to say? I find it meaningless. Like someone once said - you don't HAVE TO say anything. Surely it's sad when someone dies and yes I cried when my grandpa died and I am going to miss him. I don't want to stop to this subject for long but I find that "My condolences!" is a pointless sentence.
26. I hate volleyball - I always injure myself if I play it.

Now K-Pop...
Recently I haven't watched lives much but I have some notes about old ones ^.^

Oh, before I go to actual bands I have to say that Music Core performances make me rather dizzy.
The dancers move + the camera moves at his own accord = DIZZY NATSU!


Like Yuki said couple of posts back, I have a lot to say about Beast ^.^
So yeah, few weeks ago now, I watched some Beast lives  and only some weeks ago I saw the first live of "Shock" or I saw for the first time a "Shock" live XD Don't get me wrong. I have seen the music video before and have listened to the song to. ANYWAYS the live

 There is still something charming about Junhyung, Yuki's man Dongwoon has an attitude when he's dancing/singing and I didn't recognize Hyunseung. Speaking of Hyunseung, I found him a look-a-like and it's a girl XDD

 














 

 They look similar right right RIGHT!?!?

ANYWAYS in this live and another live that they did on the same day, Dongwoon really stands out a lot. Maybe because it's he's wearing a light long shirt (NOT THAT I'M IN LOVE OR ANYTHING). 
And you all know that Beast song "Beautiful" No? Then there is a live for you with very, very sweaty Beast members XDD

The reason, why I started to talk about "Beautiful", is that the beginning is very....well let me explain. 
You heard the beginning right, before Doojoon starts singing (if you happen not to know who that is than he's the guy who actually starts singing after the rapper).
The last sentence before the singing starts, Junhyung
says "Drop depth!"
the lyrics below the screen says "Drop beat!"
and the misheard is "Drop dead!"
NICE, HUH? Very confusing I might say.

And then there is B1A4 or like Simon&Martina says BILASA. Anyways, they had their first comeback recently and the main song was "Beautiful Target". Now, when I would have talked about it when it actually came out I would have said something like "Not much of a song, too colorful outfits and what's with the movement" but now it has grown on me ^.^ I still don't watch the live much but it's fun and the song is fun and it brings me a good mood. With B1A4 I realized that I have some thing about rappers. Like in one of the "Beautiful Target"s live like this one

I thought that the guy with the glasses is kind of cute and then he started rapping ...and yeah, I have notice that some other bands my fave just happens to be a rapper. The first and the most brilliant example is Minho (Shinee) and then there is G-Dragon (Big Bang) and Jungshin (CN Blue) happens to be a rapper and then there is the charming Junhyung (who isn't officially my fave) and to top all of that I always gush that I love Mir's rapping...


And you all the know the screaming part which bands and awesome singers tend to do, if not, then I mean the part which starts at 2:56 and ends around 3:01 and starts again in that last video I added. Yeah, yeah, that part XD ANYWAYS I have noticed that when Shinee's Jonghyun does that it gives me the shakes but when U-Kiss' Soohyun does that it seems totally fake (sorry for all the Soohyun fans). It seems like that guy is counting the seconds when to start.
Like "3;2;1 GO - AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA!"
Actually, all around I admire Shinee's Jonghyun's vocal skills. I think they are amazing ^.^

And now it's Super Junior time. Did you know that those hot guys came out with another hot song where they look extremely hot and the video was so hot that Yesung's hand busted into flames in the MV? And yes I said hot like 4 times. 
To be honest I was a little surprised when I saw Heechul there but it was good to see him. 

Oh and talking about surprises (this doesn't really categorize in K-Pop) Eddy surprised me and I thought I saw hallucinations XD In the morning I grabbed my iPod (like I always do) and I saw a note that say that Eddy had written something on my Facebook wall but when I slided to unlock the note disappeared and I was sure that it was only in my head but when I finally got to Facebook there was a message (Thank god I don't have to visit a shrink XD) But it was really good to hear from him again ^.^


As a huge K-Pop fan, I'll grab on to everyone who shows an interest to it and a week ago or so MAÜ asked for some of the songs and what Natsu did?

Yeah, some songs XD To be more accurate 85 from different artists. Later she asked me to write which ones are my fave but I found that it would be more easier to write those that I don't, so note to everyone, I don't listen to most of the girl bands but out of this list top 3 most listen to girl bands are:

1. 2NE1

2. Hyuna (4minute)

3. (It was a hard one but ATM I listen to Shy Boy the most) Secret

And since we are on top playlists I would add my iTunes(& iPod I think) 

Top 25 Most Played

And I have to say "PONPONPON" is climbing because it's on repeat ATM ^.^


So, talking about that paper I wrote (where you can see my horrible handwriting). Making that I got some bands that I really haven't listened to that much but I added them to MAÜ's list because they are quite famous (like most of the girl groups XD). So, some of the bands I started listening to after I wrote that are:

1. Block B - I think I have heard them before but I wasn't really impressed so, now when I heard them again after a long while, they were really great. I love "Wanna B" and "Freeze!" is really great too.

2. Secret - Yuki have mentioned/sung "Shy Boy" before but when I listened to it then it sounded really cheerful and great.

3. Miss A - I listened to them before ("Breathe") but now additional "Bad Girl Good Girl"

4. After School -  "BANG!" & as now I watched the video again I really want to learn the dance too...we'll see about that. I won't make any promises.

But now I have a loads of time because, starting this Monday, I'll have autumn break  ^.^ DREAM COME TRUE. I'm already sick and tired of Estonian class...

Yesterday I had....a crappy morning which turned into very fun evening and übertired Natsu at 9PM.
To start off, it promised to be a very boring school day.
*Math
*A movie
*PE
AND THAT WAS IT! In reality, not so much.
Math was okay - we did some exercises, no biggy - and we did went for a movie. The movie was called "Idioot" (Idiot in English XD) and it was a rather confusing movie  but I really liked it. It was different and not so cheesy ^.^
But after that, drama. KR said "Oh, since we got off sooner then let's start with PE earlier." and went to talk to the teacher. But guess what KR, some of us have English too, like I did (the teacher saw us wondering in school, so decided to have a lesson) and because of KR brilliancy I was late for PE because I showed up for a lesson and didn't asked to be excused and I HATE BEING LATE. So, I got even with her on the volleyball court were we played at first some volleyball similar game were we just threw the ball around but all the other rules still applied. AND I DESTROYED HER TEAM. After couple of throws KR relized my dangerousy and everytime I had to serve or was in the front she asked everyone to be extremely careful. That felt good! XD And of course my team won >.< And then was the real volleyball. To be honest I'm not a fan of volleyball but I'm good at serving the ball ^.^ AND MY TEAM WON AGAIN!



After all that I went to Yuki's school to wait for her and we had to go to Akira's to dye her hair. And let's just say during these couple of hours we talked and fooled around so much that I was in tears when we waited in front of Akira's house XDD
My biggest fail that day:

Yuki: Hey that (a stain on Akira's house) looks like a turtle. Here it has..
Natsu: No, it's like a swimming dino.
Yuki: Do you mean Loch Ness Monster?


Dying Akiras hair was fun, at least when we all three are together. I tried out different hairstyles, Yuki took some pictures and we all laughed about it XD And I have to say Akira's room is so awesome and she is so talented artist. We got to see some Japanese magazines too when she got ready. 
It's so fun to hang out with those two ^.^

I can't believe I have wrote this blog all day long XD But I did read manga some of the time and then made an apple pie again ^.^

XOXO Natsumiiiii ^^

PS. "PONPONPON" is now 15. on the list XD