Camera

I still haven't found my camera but I haven't really looked for it either. And my room is still awfully messy. And I haven't started with my Art History yet - I know I'm lazy but I think in some point it has nothing to do with my laziness. Like during the week I have no extra time - I'm a senior! What do you want from me XDD Like for tomorrow - social study test, word test in English and I have to make a song for music class. YAY!

So, last week was actually the first week back to school so mu first thought - OH MY GOD!
And the first day was so-so. Okay, I didn't get any bad grades and had to suffer in only one Estonian lesson but I was tired as hell. Like the night before I only slept for 3 hours but to my own surprise I got up at 6AM with no problem, even had time to spare and ever since that day I have woke up a little too late XDD But around the second social studies and the first English I started to feel sleepy and to be honest I have had sleep problems ever since then. On Monday I finally got on the ice, with ice skates XDD I didn't fall, thank god, but my feet did hurt. What do you want from me? XD It was the first time since last year.

Usually, Tuesdays are Estonian free days but no during last week. My sneaky Estonian teacher went to class teacher, crying that she will lost 2 Estonian lessons  and got three -.- nice huh? The class teacher herself says that we need them and of course they aren't bad but still, 3 lessons + 5 that is according to the timetable = insane Natsu. Estonian is just too much pressure. But I had kind of a nice talk with my Estonian teacher. I think that she so to say sinked to my level really helped. She sat on the table XD like me, so it was somehow easier to talk to her. So, I did tell her more freely about my worries and such. She was quite helpful too and now I'm not as afraid as I was before going to her lessons but I'm still terrified about that essay though. Don't want to get another bad grade :/

I really like social studies, I have to say. It's rather interesting lesson and although it talks about everyday life, I still get to know a lot and learn to understand things better. And since I dream of starting my own company one day, this lesson makes me understand thing better (AGAIN XD) Although, I descirbe it as an awesome lesson, I almost fell asleep during last week's (& also today XD) lessons XD It's just that when you haven't slept much and she turns off the light's to see better the screen, It's hard to keep the eyes open XDD Now, I'm contemplating whether I should take the social studies exam or not. I already have 5 exams, so it would be an extra one (In Estonain school pupils have to do Estonian exam + 4 other and 2 of those other have to be national exams other 2 can be school exams or you can make all of them national and the student has to choose on his/her own). So, I could cope with them all since one of them is my research. I think I would discuss this with my class teacher. She will help me to decide.

Hahaha, on Tuesday, I was only the last 5 minutes in the music class. Why? Because before that I had Estonian lesson, after that I had a that little talk with her and after that the class teacher slash math teacher asked me to see her after I was finished. I didn't heard the bell so I did went to see her and talked minutes about Teaduskool (the last task was a real b*tch, like seriously, hated it! who comes up with these things!) and after that I simply waltzed into the music class and everyone was staring of course and sat down, I literally got to be there for several minutes before the teacher said that we can go home.

FAIL!

 The best day that I remember is definitely Friday. Why? Because Yuki came to visit. I was so happy to see her ^.^

And what did we do? Nothing much XD But I got to see her, talk to her and then we went for a nap XD Oh, we TRIED to watch a movie but we chatted most of the tim. Like -press paus- and then she... -press play- few seconds pass -press paus- and then he.... -press play- and so on and so forth XD and then we desided to just go to bed because I saw how Yuki's eyes kept closing and I was also tired from lack of sleep. After pushing the wake-up time forward and forward, we took a little walk and send her off to the bus.

Saturday=lazy day. I just laid around and watched Grey, played Sims and just chilled.

But on Sunday I went to Yuki's place. You can't imagine the joy when I saw Yuki's talk jumping around and bringing me the ball. I felt like crying for happiness ^.^ Anyways, Yuki had an eventful Saturday, unlike me, so she had a lot to talk and we were terrorized by a little black dog an evil one to. We were just discussing our things when a barking dog ran to us. Thank god, I didn't wear skin-tight jeans that day, the little home protector grabbed my leg with his sharp teeth. So we stood there a little terrified and waited until the doggy lost interest and disappeared from the sight and then? WE BOLTED. We ran until we couldn't see the house or the dog and then walked and kept talking. And guess he followed up and came again. We still stood there, ignored the barker and when he left we just kept going. And we never saw him again XDD. After our walk, we watched "Spirited Away"

And what do I think of the movie? It was definitely something. Surely, not boring. I think I can't say it was terrific because the love line was...well let me explain. There was a little girl, right and a little boy okay? Well, not really a little boy but a spirit really and there was a big love between them. The girl was too young for that. She looked like 10 or 12 years old, so she can't know about love. So, that was a little drawback for me but Yuki saw a tragedy in it. So, maybe I'm just too idiot to realize it XDD

In the evening I made pizza:
Mom: Great!
Dad: -two thumbs up-
Yuki: Edible
And Natsu, well she can't criticize, she made it but I think it's tasty ^.^ I could eat it more if I could. I'm having problems eating again, I have to confess. It's like, I know I have to eat - my common sense knows it, my tummy knows it and everybody else except my mind. It's like it thinks that if you can't sleep you can't eat. Confusing I know but I am trying my best to get everything back into shape, I promise ^.^

And on Monday...almost fell asleep during social studies, worked hard in English, payed attention in Estonian and finally understood Math (twisted part we are learning now) but the best lesson had to be PE. We skated again. We had a kind of a figure skater there and she showed more challenging exercises which some I totally rocked and others were so-so but the best thing she did was that she finally taught me how to rise my left leg XD Sounds so awkward but let me explain: We all have a foot that a foot that we lean on, mine is my left one, so when we do this cross step (not sure about the right name, though) I tent to put my leg back down really fast because I'm afraid to fall and unfortunately that leads me to almost trip myself. So, what she did was that she guided me step by step how to trust my right one more and it indeed worked. I'm so proud of myself and thankful to the figure skater ^.^

I think it's a very nice way to finish this post. Boring one right XD? But I have couple of test for tomorrow, so wish me luck and sweet dreams to me ^.^

XOXO Natsumiiiii ^^
PS. The figure skater totally reminded me of Erica Hahn from Grey's Anatomy and she totally held my hand XDD

Shorty

So, starting off a brand new week, a school week with 8 Estonian lessons. Yay me! But about that later.

How did I spend my last days of freedom? So, as I told you before I was in Tallinn. Here some pictures, for you guys from the same day I went to see Sherlock Holmes.

Something for the fair ^.^

A view of Tallinn's Old Town + the greatest picture ever made XD

I told you there was a blizzard XD suppose to be me and the model of a cousin. Fortunately there is a much better picture of us ^.^

 And then our sanctuary during the storm - McDonalds's!!!

And the best latte ever, especially on a cold day ^.^

 And they made it look so good that I kind of felt bad about ruining the artwork and putting on the lid but it had to be done :/

At the movies ^.^

Looking at these pictures, we don't looks like we are related XD

So the next day we started out day a little later (almost 5 hours later XD) because the model needed her beauty sleep. We got on the bus where is saw the weirdest boys ever. They sat at the back of the bus and made sex noises until they got off of it. And one of those "hilarious" boys kept saying "I'm not the queer, they are." I was having a laugh -.- We went to the bookstore, where we spent an hour there (sorry cousin ^.^) and then off to Hesburger. Yeah, I was really on junk food diet in Tallinn but surprisingly didn't gain weight XDD Lucky me! ^.^

<- Mine delicious milkshake and chickenburger which I took for the first time. Usually I'm all about double cheeseburger XDD

And cousin's double cheesburger meal with fries and a Sprite ^.^ ->

Yeah, I'm not so photogenic as she is but I didn't tell you the biggest news - I lot my camera :'( I mean, it has to be somewhere around the house but where? I have no idea. I swear there is a black whole in my room somewhere, sucking my stuff in. Well, anyways, later we goofed at the bus stop and took a long bus drive back to do some cooking ^. ^ We made creamy pasta dish. Tasted pretty good ^.^

Thursday had another bus drive back home but before I got to see the needy boyfriend of the model. Yeah, had to woke up at 6AM, yay, and went by bus about an half an hour and there was a wonderful surprise waiting for us, at least for the model. And the bus was late and I got sick on the bus and some guy sat next to me who just couldn't stop coughing. Yeah, the bus ride was a joy. But my dad picked me up and walked me home. I was pretty exhausted, so I thought I should lay down for few minutes but I fell asleep XD Slept two hours before the doctor and somewhere around five went to LO's place, well actually, we met in Selver to get the ingredients for a pie and then headed off to her place. It was nice just to sit and talk and bake a cake which was delicious and I found out that LO tends to be very impatient XD And same goes to my Sunday night. On that day I was with MP. There we made soup but still sat and talked, I braided her hair and went shopping. Seems like nothing much but I think that days like this you can relax. Don't have to think about too much. And somewhere around that day I made an alien head XD

Aww, she is so cute, NOOT XD Anyways, on Saturday I was at MV's place with Yuki. Played Need For Speed with both of them and sucked at it XD Okay, I'm might be overreacting but I am better at the computer, used to it. And I pleyed with the cutest boy in a PS2, Dante.

 

And also got to play a new Monopoly Deal card game. The first 2 tries, I had to admit defeat but on the h´third try, I totally destroyed them XD And also the next day I played couple of board games - Alias Junior and Estonia Junior. Those games were too easy. On the first game Akria won and the next Yuki did, so yeah not my day ^.^

So yeah, that's how I ended up spending my vacation. Do I regret it? Hell no! Although my dad says that I should have actually rested at home, since I took long bus rides, I think that my winter break was well spent because I got to see all my friends, go to do what I want and didn't spend all the time in the computer (actually hardly any). I do think that I should have gone to the library at least one time but sadly I was too occupied. 

The outfit of the week ^.^

XOXO Natsumiiiii ^^

PS. I'm thinking about changing something after the 100th post ^.^

CNY

CNY stands for Christmas and New Year's greeting video. It's the same video I promised to post last time. I really hope it will upload this time.

So, I'm spending my first days of 2012 in Tallinn but the New Year's Eve I was with Yuki, like I told you before and it was nice. I got some good food, watched couple of funny and some weird TV shows and saw the fire works. I really love those beautiful things in the sky but I would never spend money on them. It's literally blowing up your money and I would rather donate it to the needy if I happen to have too much money which I really don't. (that reminds me, I have an Oriflame bill to take care of XD) Anyways, the next afternoon I went back home to pack my things AGAIN and then head off to Tallinn. My aunt had an idea that I should go to Tallinn with her to see her daughter and my model of a cousin (who happens to have a REALLY needy boyfriend) and my dear aunt didn't take no for an answer - she offered that she would pay for the ride but eventually my mom said that she could pay for the return because she didn't want to let her sister pay for it all and she got her pay two days before I'll go back home. So, on Sunday night I drove to Tallinn and for my surprise I didn't listen to music all the time. I actually had a really nice talk with my aunt - we talked about school, technology and family. We are not really close, so that's because I was a bit surprised. To be honest, when it comes to my relatives, I don't know most of them. I know my mom's sister's and brother's family and 2 or 3 other faces which my mom has introduced to me. When my grandpa died and there was a small funeral and I didn't know half of the faces there. There was also a talk about family reunion but yeah, I think that no one didn't actually start with that project but I really would like to see my relatives before I'm going to Finland...

Anyways, back to Tallinn. When we finally got to my aunt's place, we found my model of a cousin lying in bed almost dying. Okay, I'm exaggerating, but still. She has a allergy against dogs, cats and other animals with fur and her pappy dear took her in a place where there was a cute kitten and how could she resist -.- BAKA! Anyways, her airways were almost closed, eyes puffy and stuff like that but as for now she is better, THANK GOD!

On Monday, the first place we visited was the hospital. My model of a cousin had a doctors appointment, short to say we all have our demons to fight. When she got long lectures about her condition I called my mom. I asked her to send me some money + I finished my second of Blood Ties already, so I needed the third one but unfortunately on the January 1st the library wasn't opened and I really didn't want to miss it ^.^ So, thank you mommy -angel face-

I think the chick on the cover is suppose to be Carrie, the stupid bitch. But I still want to know what happens to Nathan because the Soul Eater is loose and wants him...I want to know if he'll make it. Nathan is a very tortured soul I must say.

ANYWAYS, after the hospital we went to see the Christmas Fair and I have seen the famous tree which fell once and then the top fell off XDD It was really windy and drizzling so we didn't go on the walk which we planned, so we just ended up going to McDonald's to eat lunch. The food was great, well almost, the fries were too salty, and the latte was delicious and, oh, so warm XDD I was bloody freezing when I got to McDonlad's. I have couple of pictures too but guess what I left the little cord between iPod and computer at home ^.^

Then we went to the movies. Although, because of the drizzle and the wind we got there about two hours early. So, we just put away our clothes and bought the tickets

Then, just wondered around the apartment store. One of those little boutiques was so cool. There were like these home decorating stuff and it was so beautiful. After a while we were just so tired of walking that we patiently sat and wait. Oh, I got the good news. My pacage, which I ordered last November arrived today and now I have to wait to get it because I'm not in Viljandi :'(

Oh but the movie itself,  I loved it ^.^ We went to see Sherlock Holmes: A Game of Shadows. It wasn't a typical Sherlock I have to say. At first it deeply disturbed me but later on I just went with it and, I just have to say, I really really like Robert Downey Jr eye's. They are so cute ^.^The movie itself was cool and but the ending was a little expected - short to say, the main character can't really die XD but the rest of it wasn't really that predictable.

 After that home and now writing this blog. Well, tomorrow (Tuesday) we will visit the book store -happy dance- and cook a little. But for now...

XOXO Natsumiiiii ^^

PS. The bed at my aunts is super soft, like sleeping on a cloud :)

Christmas

Hey guys! I have been meaning to write for week now but yeah the time flies in it's own accord and there is nothing I can do about it.

So, short to say, I and Yuki made a Christmas greeting for you guys. The video itself was actually longer but I had to reduce it :) I only left the most related parts of it. I have to say, it isn't my best work XDD

Yeah, Blogger or Blogspot or what ever doesn't work with me at the moment, so those little movies I made have to wait.

The New Year's Eve I'll be spending with Yuki. Although my aunt came to visit us but I still want to go. I think this is the first New Year's eve I won't be spend it.

Usually when the year ends, people make  New Year's resolutions. So, I'll make a one right here. I don't have a certain day when I make these things, so I thought about choosing a certain day to post my little things but since I have two projects then...two different days. I usually bookmark all these songs or just leave out tags, so I would talk about them later but that later newer comes. I still haven't talked about Troublemaker or IU's "You and I" or other great songs but I'll promise that I won't do that anymore. At the moment I can't say these certain days because I need to combine them with my timetable. Since the half of the school year is over, now I need to focus on the subject in which I make the exam - that means English, Art History, Math and Estonian. The last one needs most of the attention. So, good luck to me.

For now, I'm going to the church and then to Yuki's.

HAPPY NEW YEAR EVERYONE!!!

Snow

ONFRIDAY IT WAS SNOWING!! ^.^

And except for the wind and the freezing hands hands, It was so awesome and beautiful. There were like really big snowflakes and I love that crunching sound when you step on the snow. It kind of felt like a fairy-tale ^.^  And somewhere around Saturday afternoon, it was drizzling. It looked awesome o.O But the bad news is that the snow melts like really fast ://

So, what have I been up to? The days go by so quickly. I'm always doing something and lately come home around 6 or 7PM. Have LOADS of things to do and sometimes just playing computer games just to relieve some tension to study again. Yes, school :/ It takes all the time. Like RP said:

School: All Day

Homework: All Night

Exams: WTF!?

I would say, well said, RP. Maybe I'm not the most diligent student because of the computer games but then again if I don't play them I will lose my mind.

That reminds me, I had a test in Estonian on friday. At first I felt like it went great. Then I talked to KT about it and I got a shaky ground because our answers were totally different. When I talked to LO about it, I started to feel desperate. She had COMPLETELY different answers. And, oh, the teacher said before I left that there are no right answers. Hahahaha -sarcastic laugh- Yeah right, my dear teacher! XD

So, my mom decided to get her hair done on friday. Basically she cut it pretty short. When I first saw, mom happened to be in the store, I was like: "What the hell did you do?" And the cashier answered to my question immediately:"But it looks nice!" XDD Yeah, didn't see that one coming XDD But she was right - it does look good - but it's just that I have always liked the long hair and so I prefer them too :) 

I had a nice time in the afternoon with Yuki that day too. We just chatted and drank coffee. Later we sat in my room where I gave her a more detailed review of my now favourite book "Blood ties". I'm still in love with Nathan or Nolan or what ever his name is ^.^ And I have almost finished reading it (just few chapters for toninght). I have reached to both of the sex scenes by now XD And by both I mean with Nathan and Cyrus. One was dirtier than the other and there was nothing sweet about it. To be completely honest, with Cyrus I was kind of expecting something like that  just because he was kind of a dirty man but with Nathan...at least 3 times I thought: „Too much information!“ It turns out that Nathan had a really dark past. He basically killed his own wife. I think that it might have been because of the blood ties. Did I mention what was so special about it? Basically master and his/her slave share thoughts and feelings and flashes from the past. So, it’s a really exciting book and if you aren’t against vampires, I recommend to read it ^.^ Tomorrow I get the second book

And, I have mastered three origami flowers. Hell yeah! I love live love folding. 

I wanted to add pictures but too tired to find some but I can do a lily (simpler one) and a dasy and an easier lotus. When it comes to origami, I’m rahther a fast learner and it is really calming (even if I don’t get it right the first time XD)

I have warmed up some old acquaintances. They are both really great girls but just the distance does it’s job. One of them I met in a camp couple of years ago. I got along with her really well and she is a real sweetheart but she lives like 30 km away from Viljandi. Looks like her life has changed a lot and I have kind of missed her. She has been the one person with who I started crying when I had to left. I’m going to call ger TT 2.0 XD The other one used to be my deskmate in English class but she lef the school. That was pretty sad but she wanted to change schools. To be honest, I think that her doing was a bit reckless – she left before the final year. Then again who am I to judge. I was happy to hear that female HR is doing good in the new school.

So, tomorrow a new week will start – OH DEAR – but just 11 days until Christmas break. I can make it!! Hopefully XD 

XOXO Natsumiiiii ^^

PS.  Wish me luck! I'm going to need it XD

TOP - half REVIEW half something else

As you could read in that confusing title I have no idea where to categorize what I'm about to say.

Anyways, I was watching "Oh Yeah"'s lives (GD&TOP ones) and I stumbled on to that one:

And discovered several things like A, TOP looks like exactly like my cousins boyfriend! And that brings me to point B - I know why I was so uncomfortable when cousin's bf was around because he and TOP both are so..stiff. Like it's impossible for them to relax - let their shoulder's down, slouch and stuff like that.
-Natsu trying to push TOP's shoulders down but the man doesn't budge-

XOXO Natsumiiiii ^^

PS. Stay tuned ;)

Teeviit

So, I went there and got more confused and then got everything cleared out. One of the foreign universities I watched was Birmingham but I'm not sure if I'm going to go there. I'll probably stick with the original plan, Finland and then Tartu. Although, I didn't make any life-changing decisions I had fun on my trip.

So, I went by bus to Tallinn alone on Thursday. I was suppose to go with MAÜ but she went on an earlier train. I actually joined the alone trip, one of the reasons I pushed her to go with the train. I listened to the music in peace and I started with a new book. I'll tell you about it later. Anyways, my little cousin picked me up and we went to Hesburger to eat a little. I bought a vanilla milkshake and a cheeseburger. I love milkshake! (how many times I have told that XDD) And we  went to a bookstore because I wanted. Oh, I like bookstores and that one in Tallinn...It was heaven. If I could I would move there. And I also like libraries but I just don't have time to go there. But my cousin isn't that into libraries, so after a little trip to a jewelry store and then back to her place. There I read a Justin Bieber's book. Forgive me father I made a sin! I could only read the into but it was torture itself. He is so..so..yeah, I'm just going to leave it at that + there was a lot of pictures of him. And the whole room was a hell whole - BIEBER everywhere and I'm SERIOUSLY glad she didn't find a CD to play. As you can tell Bieber isn't my favorite. But we did compose a little story for her English class. It was something like this:

There was a man in the jungle who got hungry and took out a sandwich. He took the first bite when a monkey grab it. The man run away near the water. Tipped his toes into in and took out another sandwich. Then came an elephant who startled at first and then snatched away the mans sandwich. His stomach was grumbling and he ran away. He sat under a tree. He look to the left and right to make sure that he was alone. He carefully took out the sandwich but then a lion came and ate him. THE END!

Okay, it was a lot funnier that night but when you have a good time everything seems fun XDD That night I had a good night's sleep and they were so thoughtful that they let me sleep as long as I wanted. What I was a little terrified about was that I was left alone in the apartment. Well, I could steal since they know where I live but that wasn't the point. I was afraid that I'll leave some light on or appliances. But luckily I didn't, YAY! I took two buses to get to Teeviit that day. I hate the traffic in Tallinn. It's clearly a madness. In Viljandi, I take one from A to B but in there it's like A to C to D to B if you are lucky. But I got there safe, so I survived. On Teeviit the first thing they talked to me about was pension. YAY! I must have looked really old. So, I told the man that I was too young. Then me and LO went to tents forward when a man from driver's ed came to us and asked if we have our driving license. This time LO said that we are too young XD LO is great asking questions me on the other hand need time but I connected really well with the University of Tartu's chick. And the guy for Pärnu was REALLY tall. I literally leaned back to not strain my neck. I bet that he was definitely over 190 XDD MP is like 183 but with her it's not so hard to look at. And, oh, he was a cook XD It seemed. . . strange. And yeah, the highlights ^.^
After I, MAÜ and LO went to a pizza&pasta place to eat and it was DELICIOUS. I shared the pizza with LO - it was a little to big for me alone. Then we went to McDonald's because I had to have a McFlurry XD And it was überdelicious - with Daim of course - and we just discussed our futures and gossiped a little. Three girls so what do you want from us XDD But later I met up with cousin and we went to a 5D movie. Yeah, a little shock for me because I haven't even seen the 3D XD but it was still awesome. Although towards the end I started to wish that it was over. I hated that the characters were all up in my face, like no personal space + when the rats came I could feel then touching my legs which was grouse and the best part had to be when the dog drooled and it was all in my face. But yeah, actually it was just a cartoon but my heart probably stopped couple of times when there was an arrow heading towards me XD

Oh, before the movie and after it I was forced to be in the same room with my cousin's BF. Yeah, not really I wanted but it seemed the boy was more uncomfortable than me. And he was like really tanned, had really dark eyes, then he stood up all the time, heard him talk only 3 times and in hushed tones and he like constantly stared with blank face. Towards the end he smiled, HALLELUJAH, when I and my cousin were fooling around. Oh, and the most disgusting thin he "said" (said by using my cousin as a mouth piece) that he would break up with her when she would cheat her with another girl (I think he thought about me!) IUUUUU, I mean come on, she is my cousin!!! And my cousin wasn't much better. He kept sliding his hand on her knee and pressed his fingers together. And what did my cousin said: "Stop doing that! Do it to Natsu!" We were both like WHAT THE F*CK! XDD Yeah, some people just doesn't get it.
Later I met up with LO at the bus station and we drove back to Viljandi - chatting all the time. It's so easy to talk to her. I feel like I can trust her fully and we found some similarities in our lives.
When I got home the house was empty. Not that I mind being home alone but usually during 9PM everybody is at home. It turned out that my overprotective dad had gone to Aegviidu. Overprotecting because he asked me about 10 times if I had took along my pepper spray. He hates Tallinn and I think big cities in general. He also asked me to put the money in 7 different places which caused a little hick-up later but everything was settled. My mom was still at work at that time and arrived home a little after 10PM. Oh, on Tuesday he arrived home exactly on 4PM when her work suppose to finish. I and my dad were both like: "Why are you home so early?" and she wondered why we were so surprised. I mean come on, it has NEVER happened when she comes home early or on time. She is a workaholic. We all know it except her ^.^

On Saturday, I talked to KL that morning. Since I have been so busy with school I have waited really long to write him, I answered to his question and it came out as at least 4 hour talk. Short to say, he is as sleepless and busy as me. We discussed the future plans. I like talking to him ^.^ He gets me ^.^ And I think I'm sending him and Eddy a Christmas package. Actually, I have a list of people I want to make a Christmas surprise ^.^ Except that little plan, it doesn't feel like Christmas is coming. You can even see it in my house which isn't decorated at all. To be honest I'm not really in the mood and I don't have the time either. Today, I can breathe a little, that's why I'm writing  ^.^

Plus, I wanted to share with you a song. Probably to Yuki this song isn't her fave becuse there are only three people singing it and two of them she dislikes ^.^

And there is also another song I get high on: Trou a a a ble! Trouble! Trou! Trouble Maker! But I'll probably add this to another post because usually add only one song (except for reviews) but I have to say that even my mom digs the Troublemaker XDD I had it on repeat when I was playing Need For Speed in the living room and she said that the song was pretty good. And it is very addictive XDD


I have to say - today was the first lesson of Estonian where I didn't feel bad about myself. To be honest, Estonian lessons depress me but today I understood everything, talked to her about the homework and generally understood what the hell they were talking about XD and it felt great! During the time I was constantly sick I developed a gap in that subject so yeah, I felt kind of like a loser in that class XDD
And that reminds me that I have to do some soul searching. I need to know who Natsumi is? To decide what Natsumi wants because she gets confused and why am I talking about myself in a third person again? XD I really have to work on that. In real life I don't do that so much but in here is kind of tend to XD

Oh, I almost forgot. I wanted to tell you about the book I'm reading these past few weeks now. It is called "Blood ties book one: The Turning" by Jennifer Armintrout.

And yes it's another vampire book but nothing like Twilight series. This one is more exciting and a little more pervy. Not much but a little XDD Basically the main character is Carrie who got turned into a vampire and then there is Nathan, or Nolen or what ever his name is, who is also a vampire slash vampire hunter. The chick is rather horny - I just had to say that XD I mean, there was this place where a kid got hurt, basically he had a hole in his head or something, and Carrie only could think about the fact that Nathan was only wearing a towel. Yeah, from the description he seems incredibly sexy, I get that, but OH COME ON! Basically every ten minutes there is a face palm XD Oh, and who could forget Cyrus, the pervyest one of them all. He literally  got an erection after seeing, and smelling, Carrie the second time (the first was when he turned her). You probably now think I'm reading some pervy sex novel - NOT AT ALL but after Korea I have started noticing these things XD There is a lot more action going on there but I am quite in the beginning so no big fights YET! Basically Carries had two weeks to decide whether she wants to join the movement that Nathan is in, which kills vampires, or goes with Cyrus, who she has blood ties with and get killed by Nathan. But all that was messed up by Dahlia,witch, who did something to Nathan, THAT BITCH!, and now Carrie basically got an antidote and in exchange she has to stay with Cyrus the rest of her life, which is long when Nathan doesn't kill her. And I haven't got farther than that. So, I don't know if Nathan is going to live, which I think he is, and then what happens next. I am really curious about Nathan's past and I told that girls that there is a really hot guy in that book and they started to look for a picture and I had to say that it's only written in the text but TT was interested in the book when I showed the first description of him - she wrote the title in her phone XDD
Oh, and the best sentence that my hot Nathan has said:

"I have skillful hands!"

Hahaha, really trying to think straight XDD But he has a really complexed personality I have to say and I really want to know more about him. He's has black hair, board shoulders and a flat muscular tummy as the chick said. And he is tall ^.^

So, yeah, I have to go to bed now. Tomorrow is still a school day :)

XOXO Natsumiiiii ^^

PS. Mom is so sweet. When her daughter doesn't get something she cuts out a cube to  show me ^.^

Week

Tomorrow English exam, the day after that Art History test + book report, the day after that History test + ride to Tallinn, the day after that "Teeviit" and the next day? Not so sure yet but there will be something :D And who said that I lead a boring life? Just kidding, it's seems like school, school and school. And officially I'm on sedatives. YAY! Something to add to my pills list XD Okay-okay, I'm officially off the neuritis pills because I'm cured. HALLELUJAH!
Yeah, I'm dripping with sarcasm here but not because I'm nad or something but lately I have been rather down. :/

So, I wrote a little something long time ago, so I thought I would post it already XD

Last Friday:
-Today, I’m totally ignoring Estonian class. But in the name of the school, I’m not just ditching the class. I’m just visiting the school’s psychiatrist. No, I’m not emotionally unstable (not yet anyways XD) but just in my school the senior year and the 9th grade takes a personality test + a career test. I’m really looking forward to the answers. For one, I would like to know what’s suits me the best and also I want to know if I have changes over the 3 years.
When I was writing this, I was waiting in the floor where are the some of the first grades, like the first and the second and MAN they are so energetic XD Comparing to the upper classes they look veruy dull although there might be laughter. Oh, I miss the days when recess was a time for just playing and not for finish homework and revising for a test that might change your totally outcome.
But I can see that not all the games have changed. Couple of girls are playing a game where you suppose to jump on the others toe and the other one can only jump away in the right time. And might I add, one of them is checking out what am I writing XDD Good luck to her ^.^-





So, I went to the psychiatrist and got a lot of things about me. Some where totally wrong. For example: the test said that there is no stubborness in me WHAT SO EVER. Like seriously? My mom said: "What kind of test is that? That's totally wrong. I'll correct it right away." XDD and the other thing was inner tension, which was also very low. -.- At the moment it's higher than the Empire State Building but maybe at the time of the test (September 30) I was rather calmer. 
The nice lady also made me doubt in my future plans. Not that she destroyed them or anything but just made me realize that I have more options. Like foreign universities. I have never thought that I could apply in one of those. I have heard that some of my classmates are and I have supported them all the way but not really thought that I could do the same. So, me and the psychiatrist made a plan to watch some of the universities published in "Teeviit"

And that brings me to that event. For all those non-Estonians:
"Teeviit" is an event where there are bunch of schools who advertise themselves and attract new students. You can ask questions about that school or about one major. So yeah, there are a lot of young people who can look around for options ^.^


But the day before I'll go to stay at my cousins house, my little sis. She has begging to see me and I also really want to see her too. So, I thought that would be a really good opportunity and it's all thanks to MAÜ. THANK YOU! ^.^


I think it's a good way to finish this post ^.^

XOXO Natsumiiiii ^^

PS. Übertired, had an emotional day :)

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Bitching

Okay, I have to bitch a little but only two things:
1. At the moment in Estonia - it's so ridiculous. I go to school when it's dark and also go home in the dark. Like, what the hell!? Yeah, I know more to December 25th the darker it gets and after it's get lighter each day. Not that I'm against darkness or something but during school days it is annoying. It makes me feel so much more tired when I go home in the dark and also it feels like school day is forever. Well, it kind of is. I have around 8 lessons every day, so I get home at 4PM or such. But still!

2. Like last week I my toes were icy all the time WHEN I WAS INSIDE THE HOUSE. Like when I have home sick, I wore like a T-shirt, PJ-pants, a night gown and a really big blouse on top of it all and I was still freezing - had to grab a blanket. And you know what they did yesterday?!? They turned up the heat to the bottom. Last night there was like 30 degrees inside. ARE YOU FREAKING KIDDING ME!?!  There is seriously lack of air and we cannot really open the windows much because as you know I'm sick and my dad has a fever too, so basically 2/3 of my family is sick or something. And this morning when I was outside and came in for a bit. When, I opened the door it felt like sauna. There was like puff or heat or something. The landlord is obviously and idiot. I mean, who does that?!?! His or her little stunts costs up + the heating bills aren't very smally (DAMN YOU CENTRAL HEATING!)

Good to get those things out of my chest. Sorry for the bad words ^.^

XOXO Natsumiiiii ^^

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Teachers

November just isn't my month. Like seriously! But today I'm not about to whine (not yet anyway XDD)

Anways, teacher. Yeah, I want to tell the world that not all my teachers are bad (like Estonian one). For example:
History teacher - she is the most concerned teacher ever. Tomorrow there is a history test and today she came up to me and asked: "Natsumi, are you sure you can take the test tomorrow? I saw that you have been absent a lot and maybe you don't have all the material. So, how about December 1." At first I was blown away and really didn't say anything. But I decided that I'll take the test the day she offered and in the mean time arrange some of the other things that I have to do. But still, It was so sweet of her. She is my absolute fave ^.^

An other teacher who just don't treat my like an annoying student is my Art History teacher. As you all know, I'm doing an Art History research (well suppose to do but there is so much to do, so yeah, fallen a little behind with it but anyways, today when I went to take the oral test for those 134 pictures, got a 5 BTW, she handed me a bunch of papers, actually 4 XD, and they were all written and she told me that they are full of painting that she could think of for my research and I was like woah (that was the longest sentance ever XDD) At first I couldn't say a thing and she explained a little more and I was like:

o.O "Thank you!"

And she, humble as ever, no problem. I mean like woah! In my research there are like 12 gods and for all of them there were like 10 painting AT LEAST. She is so helpful and every time we meet I book to help me or new list that could help me, like woah. I feel so special ^.^

Of course there is also my class teacher who really is like a second mom to me. She always helps me with Teaduskool. She solves all the problems, then I solve them , then we compare them. After I rewrite them and even on the day she gets award for being the favorite teacher in high school she still asks me if we solved all the problems in my test for Teaduskool. It's really like woah. And it's like 3 years straight and it's not even something that she has to worry about. It's kind of like extra job for her (BTW I'm about to cry at the moment XD)

I was planned to talk about the bad teachers too but I think I'll keep it that way.

So, what I have been up to? Playing computer games -blushes-. Yeah, I know, bad-bad girl.

I have been playing this:

Do you guys remember this game. Oh, I used to play it for hours when I was smaller. Like I seriously loved it and it's a part of my childhood ^.^ And, as the matter of a fact, this game was developed the year I was born (1993) XD Recently I'm pretty bad about it and I have forgot the basic places where you get goods but it has been a while. I remember that I used to call it Tarzan but it's actually Prehistorik 2.

+ I recently downloaded Need For Speed Carbon.

MAN, I'm a dork!!! XD Plus I have GTA in my computer, Sims 3 of course and If I had a table computer I would download Counter Strike + that was game me and BZ used to play and maybe something more XD I love computer games and I'm too stubborn to erase them just because I fail. My ultimate faves are racing games, I have to say XD

Oh, what else? At the moment I'm not going to complain what's wrong with my life. Like the first sentence says there is a lot, so I won't trash my blog with all of that.

But now, I'll add those pictures I promised last time ^.^

My "painting"! XD Well, that's just one part of it. Kind of left upper corner. It's like the best part of that whole thing XD

 

 I really-really like this one :) I look kind of cute in it ^.^ Maybe because it doesn't show my huge family nose XD

And on this one I look even better. The make-up looks great, my skin looks perfect and that hair...I like it but It's like one in  a million chance that I can get my hair like that ^.^ That is considered a good hair day. The more I look at this picture, I'm bothered by that blue bottle under the desk. It totally stands out on that brownish carpet...Oh, and near my head, you can see a tiger, right? That was actually made by Yuki. I think it was for my birthday this year. Actually, I have a lot of her work on my wall but they are blocked by my big head XD

Okay, for tonight, that's it. Oh, before I finish this post....

Shout out for MAÜ who said today "OH MY GOD! I READ YOUR BLOG!" LOL XD and she added that my English is good, so thank you, dear ^.^

XOXO Natsumiiiii ^^

PS. I also want to say THANK YOU, LO! for remembering my fave candy ^.^

First - REVIEW

HAHAHAH! Watch 0:36 XD "OH MY GOD, BIG SCARY BUBBLES ARE COMING!!! I'LL PROTECT YOU!" said the pink jacket girl to the blue one and covered her. LOL XD
Anyways, as for the song...nothing much. Just trying to act cute and not even memorable. Yeah, I might be mean but still the video was awkward so yeah, had to share XD

Including my "oh so funny" joke before, Natsu strikes again. There was a new CF including Big Bang (YAY! Big Bang!)

Natsu's comment after: "TOP, you look good in blond." Like, WHAT THE HELL?! XDD but fore I was wondering why Daesung wasn't there. Still because of that car accident or for something else now??

And now for the main event XD. A new girl group emerged to the Kpop world and they are so cool ^.^
The group's name is New.F.O and the debut single is Bounce and it's totally catchy (not like that first song I mentioned)!

I sincerely hope that they stick with that image and don't go all girly girls on me. One of the things that allures me is that edginess they have. They are like energizer 2NE1. Two girls totally pop for me (I'm not announcing my fave...yet) - the girl with the bangs and the yellow doted dress and the long haired girl who wears sparkling blue shirt and pink pants. But I think I like the bangs girl a little more, she has more of that...WOW-factor XDD
I'm really looking forward to their live performance too. I might have already missed it though XDD

The last, and certanly not least, song is the new U-Kiss' single Tick Tack

The beginning reminds me the Madonna song 4 Minutes or something like that but all around the song is great and I'm happy that U-Kiss have came up with something new ^.^  But out of the two last songs I like Bounce a little more. Sorry, U-Kiss :(

But that's it for now ^.^

XOXO Natsumiiiii ^^

PS. It's hard to find a mp3 version of Bounce

Pills

So yeah, I got some tablets added to my list. Now there are vitamins, a medicine for that neuritis and now for sore throat. 


-dad just got me some Coca-Cola, he's so sweet ^.^-


And a fever struck this morning but after some sleep it got down a little. So, I think I would be fully back in school soon. But tomorrow I have to go to school for two hours because I have to do a Physics test and I don't want to miss that. It's too trouble some to make it up later, so I'll drag myself to school but I should wear a scarf in front of my face not to infect anyone :)


So, what I have been up to? Nothing much. Just studied, watched TV and today I started listen to old English songs. I like singing to them and perhaps remember the time when everything was easier. Now, too much is going on - hard decisions, difficult relationships and constant self doubt. Recently, my life is a bitch and I might be overreacting too and maybe some people might be offended since they are a part of my life but it's me who sucks right now. I'm just too insecure at times, so I have start to overthink again.


Oh, I got my wiped out phone back. Wiped out because there are no SMS, no application, no phone numbers - absolutely nothing. And I didn't get to buy the other one -cries into a pillow-


I don't know If I have mentioned it before but I follow on Twitter user PiscesAreUs and today they tweeted something that really relates to me.


Some #Pisces are hardheaded, they never learn.


When I was a lot smaller, like when I still slept in a crib, I kept climbing over the edge, fell over it, got hurt and next time wasn't any smarter. My mom said I fell over at least three times and then learned that you get hurt when you try to climb over the edge XDD Seems like I wasn't the brightest child at that time but my mom did say that I was pretty fearless and hardly cried when I was hurt. Like I fell into that canal (those wholes in the ground where you drive over, then go to there to fix up the bottom of your car) and then I climbed out of there, all bloody and didn't cry a tear and just went on playing. Okay, I sound like a psycho child XDDD and maybe I still am one. Like in school, in elementary school most students get really good grades because everything is still generally easy but I got bad ones. Then we entered the 10th grade and the teacher warned that it's the most difficult out of the three years and the last one is for closures and the time to focus on the up and coming exams. And my 10th year was my star year, I started with straight A's (like they say) and I was an honor student for 2 years straight but now...yeah, let's just leave it to that. Everything for me is vice versa XD


Recently, I have blogged a lot, haven't I? But I haven't added very much pictures of me because my sickness+warmth outfits aren't so much to look at. I usually just wear my favourite hoodie and something long under it, so my upper body stays warm. 


So, today I'll share with you some pics. Firstly, I would share with you a little piece of my "masterpiece".


Well, I want to share but blogger just won't work with me, so it and some other pictures I wanted to add will be seen in the next posts or so.


But as for now, I'll say TTYL XD

XOXO Natsumiiiii ^^

PS. I wanted to make my official fist review today but oh well :)

Thinking

Heya!
I'm having a record week, as you can see ;)

So, I was just reading Yuki's (the Estonian one she writes) and I just got thinking and I thought I share with you some on my random thoughts.

Recently, I have stopped thinking completely when it comes to myself. Like, I don't think about the future so much and I keep myself busy. It used to be another way around - I thought to much and got nothing done. I just don't feel like thinking who am I, that am I going to do next, what happened in the past (I mostly don't remember XD). Just like do something but I guess I have routed my thoughts to my paintings lately, directed my emotions there. Like, when I got my a bad grade in Estonian class, I painted a picture where there are like an explosion. To me, it was an explosion but to others they saw something else, and another one I did that day, I called it "Bursting with rage" and what my mom saw in it? "Oh, what a pretty flowers." -.- It's not normal XD But the art is in the eye of the beholder.

Maybe it's a good thing that I don't think. Then I can't get depressed by doubting myself that I can't make it in the world  but then again if I don't think and just do, I don't realize what kind of effect it might bring to my future. Man, it's a difficult world here. It's like everything I do or don't do effect me in one point or another. The best example is my mom on deciding to go work for a school in Viljandi. If she had chose the other place, she wouldn't have me, she would have that great husband she has now and maybe she would never have never become a religious person. OH DEAR!

That reminds me - Yuki dragged me to a dance house on Friday. It was kind of a homework assignment for her but she brought me along as well. And I'm glad that she did. It was one of the most fun I had lately.

On Satruday I met up with MS. She fell asleep on me + I got my phone back and it was emptied out. Nice huh? But that's okay, that just gives me a chance to load it up with more shit XD I also went to LO place and we "studied" Physics. I remember laughing most of the time XD

And now I'm continuing my Art History studies. I have to learn 134 pictures for the next test. Easy A, don't you think? XD Today it's form Baroque to Classicism. Good luck to me! ^.^


Oh, I was home alone most of the weekend but hardly got to enjoy it, though. Today I left the house somewhere after 11AM and arrived home 8.30PM XD And I have to say, except for the fear of losing my keys, I like being home alone. It's much calmer here but then again it sometimes feels it's like too quiet. When mom is home I can hear Spanish in the living room or just TV in general and when dads home the ventilation is on because he smokes, A LOT! Like two pack A DAY!


Okay, so back to business!

XOXO Natsumi ^^

PS. Me and LO  developed a special feeling towards raintrops XD

Organized

I wanted to share my small happiness with you.

Last night I decided to start acting more decent and organized (and I don't include my room into that promise XD) Anyways, last night I took all my make-up off, which I hardly do. That is a very bad habit :/ I usually just go to sleep and in the morning before I put on make-up I just "erase" the imperfections. But last night I used my make-up remover I just bought and also used a little toner then a little moisturizer and my skin felt amazing. And today I washed my face and moisturized again and my skin looks great and it's super soft. I have been really lazy with taking care of my face and I go sick and tired of those little spots on my forehead, which "nobody sees". So yeah, I started to care again and just not conceal them ^.^

Another thing what has changed is organizing my day. Usually after school I would just lay or sit on my bed, waste time in internet or just read some mangas. So, I didn't do any of my homework, studied for tests in school and did my homework during lessons. Like in biology I solved math problems (bad student award). I think that's one of the reasons of my academic fall but then again it doesn't matter how prepared you are, in Estonian class the teacher always can surprise you ^.^

And how was my first day back to school? Exhausting XD Okay, I might be overreacting. In English class I did my wordtest, got a 5-. I math we studied cone again but in Biology I was the bad student but just because I had trouble with my Estonian because I didn't quite get what I was suppose to do (I still don't XD). In History we wrote a discussion. In Estonian I prayed that the teacher didn't ask me (& she didn't XD Thank god!) and in Art History I watched some really random pictures. Today we discussed surrealism and watched a really weird movie that was it :) But I didn't see TT today. I'm kind of sad :/ She also has some health problems but she promised she will be to school tomorrow. Oh, I forgot something. During when I was at home I wrote to couple of my teachers to ask about tests and other homework and only my math teacher replied to me. Why? Beacause the computers in school were busted and I got 3 apologizes today for not responding XD Oh, and my History teacher saw right through me. I don't know how but she knew that I'm an overachiever. So she asked me how did I get neuritis due to stress. The first answer she got from me is that I got a little cold but then she looked at me like she was waiting for something more. So, I eventually said that I'm under a lot of stress, so my health is weak. And she smiled and asked me to take it easy ^.^ Caring teacher, one of my favorites.

So, that's for now. I just wanted to share a litte and get off my busy schedule but for now I'll continue ^.^

-few hours late- 

You know what my problem is? I worry. I'm worried about Akira at the momement (LOL I can't even spell moment XD). I'm thinking how will TT manage then I'm thinking if Yuki is depressed again and if could help her in any way. Then I'm worried about my dad because he's health is bad. I'm worried about mom because she works too much. I'm worried about MS because I'm afraid that she might screw up and that might change her life completely. And you know what, I'm worried about this T person and I don't know him at all. And of course I'm worried about Eddy and if he can manage in the army. And how many times I said "worry"? 6 times and I'm afraid for/worrying about 8 different people and I'm the one stuck with an hurtful disease. Life is beautiful ^.^

XOXO Natsumiiiii ^^

PS. The meds I have to take make me sick XD I almost puked in Math XDD