I wish there was this machine that writes one's thoughts to a computer screen. I have wished for that little thingy for a really long time now. Why?
1. There would be more posts on this blog.
2. My n+1 novels would be finished by now.
3. I would have done more with my life by now. Because I sometimes have really good thoughts going through my mind. And my thoughts really jump from one place to another, so that little (perhaps brilliant) idea I had two seconds ago will be forgotten.
So yeah, and another thing.
Have you ever felt that 24 hours a day is clearly not enough?
I have had that feeling for over a week now.
I spend ~6 hours a day in school + I have to study for tests + read books for Literature class + do everyday homework + be involved in Oriflame (which recently have been a real confident boost) + write my blog and to top all of that I have to sleep 8 hours of day (& eat and do other human stuff)
AND I have friends to write to or see + mangas to read + animes to watch + Korean language + penpals + projects
And how on earth I have time to do all this? The answer is simple - I don't.
I love writing this blog. I get to express myself, share what I have discovered and after years I can read where I have been and what has happened. I have a terrible memory and sometimes Yuki tells me stuff that I don't even remember doing...
So yeah, I'm home sick today (AGAIN) and I have to get things in order. And I promise that blog is in my priority list and I will continue with my weekdays.
As for now, I have clean, then do homework and read Literature book.
XOXO Natsumiiiii ^^
PS. Did you know that I dyed my hair black and people have dived into two - those who love the change and those who hate it - there is no in between XDD
So, I were in the library with MP and we were working on our computers. Different things though. I was helping her to write her self-introduction for Estonian class, so while she was typing stuff about herself, I thought I would write about my life which turned out to be not so boring as I thought XD So, I haven't blogged in a while. OMG, I'M TURNING INTO T!? Who, BTW, just relised that he doesn't blog a lot. T (on Twitter): "ahh i'm sucha lazy blogger, sorry everyone!"
My reaction: NO WAY!?!
So, what has Natsumi been up to these, hmm..., two weeks now? ^^
Well, I'll open my hundred sticky notes, (arrange them a little) and tell you all about my exciting life ^^
Well, firstly, I did met up with MS and Yuki but day before that, Saturday, I cleaned my entire room and I'm still so proud of myself when I was finally able to see the floor XD Okay, but with those two. With Yuki we had a rather quiet afternoon together. We just chilled out on the computer because she was in a lot of pain. She just got out of a boot camp or something like that.
But with MS there was a rather difficult story. Firstly, we settled that when I drove off from Yuki's, I'll give her a call, which I did and SHE DIDN'T PICK UP! And then again and finally I went off to the town myself - I had stuff to do - and gave up on her and yeah, I was pissed to but once I got to home again and saw her on MSN. Basically, she was having a tough time and, even though I was mad, we met up anyways and had a really nice talk. The best news is that I could make her feel better ^^.
September 12th
Everyone got sick during the weekend. We had another couple of people to do the overviews and one of them, LT, sniffed after every single sentence and of course Natsumi herself battles with a running nose every day.
Oh, after the Estonian lesson, I sent TT home. She was sick AGAIN. She has missed so many school days that I'm starting to worry but she is a very smart girl and I'm sure that she will catch up. I mean, we often fight about it. She is sure that she isn't that smart (& I'm sure that she will disagree with me by reading this too) but to me she is one of the smartest peoples I know.
September 13th
I didn't see TT at all :/ but I'm glad that she stayed home to rest but I did miss her. Especially in History class. I had to sit with AL and I'm really not a fan of him. Before we were forced to sit together, I thought of him as a fun guy but rather lonely but now I understand why. After sitting one class together, he announced me that I was a mean girl. AFTER ONE FREAKING LESSON which only lasted for 45 minutes. And why he thought that way? We had to pair up and check someone's essay. When the owner of the essay found out that we were grading it, he started to butter us up -.- and even tried to bribe us. I hate flatterers...well people who does everything (EXCEPT STUDY) to get good grades. So, yeah, I graded fairly and he got a four. CRY ME A RIVER! So yeah, AL decided that I was a meanie for putting a 4 on an essay which deserved only a four, even the writer himself admitted that he didn't make much of an effort.
During Physics (which I have 3 on that day) and in the brakes HR was nervous about the coming English test. Me and him go to a different English groups, I didn't have that dreadful test, so I tried to help him. I asked the words in Estonian and he was suppose to tell me them in English. Let's just say he didn't ace them, so after 3 or 4 words he yanked the papers. And guess what!? The test didn't happen XD
That night I started thinking about Yuki's birthday present. Yes, she had a birthday on Friday, party on Saturday, and I need to make her something. I bought her a sweater form China but it just arrived yesterday so yeah, I needed to make something special for her. I have a hard competition in there. She has always got beautiful handmade things from her friends when I barely made her a card (which sucked BTW). So yeah, I thought about origami. I found a site where they taught origami daisies but it was too hard to learn from the pictures, so I found a video.
So this is the first flower I made. Pretty horrible, isn't it?
Anyways, I practiced making them until I went to my stepsister's daughter's birthday party. She turned 1 and, Yuki said, it felt like she was born just yesterday. She was so cute and I was the only one to whom she said thanks to ^^ Let's just say, I'm good with kids. I used to babysit one regulary too but lately my help isn't needed. It's kind of sad, I kind of miss that little ball of sunshine :)
Oh, I have to say. When the sister put the little one to bed, she told me that she really loved my outfit and I have turned into a fashionista. At first it sounded rather ridiculous but when I got to think about it, maybe I am. But I would say that my fashion isn't something that you see on everyone on the streets. So yeah, I put together different outfits but not according to latest trends,
So, I think that's it for the day. I have to go to bed rather early. Tomorrow I will have another Oriflame gig and I have to be well-rested for it.
Have a good night/day everyone and I will continue (& maybe someday reach to the present). But for now...
XOXO Natsumiiiii ^^
PS. Dreadful is my favorite word - not because of the meaning but the spelling is great.
Well, I haven't written for a really long time, haven't I?
And today I won't be writing much either XD I have been busy and perhaps a bit lazy too. So, I thought about putting up a picture for you guys - a little teaser ^^
Let's just say I have taken a few notes, so I wouldn't forget what I have been up to for these two weeks and there has been a lot ^^
So, Oyasumi for tonight (I have been watching a Japanese anime all day XD) and a little song for you guys. It has been haunting me all day long ^^
XOXO Natsumiiiii ^^
PS. I hate goosebumps + I have an English test tomorrow and I haven't studied for it. Good luck to me XD
And he still doesn't get it!?!? It's soooooo frustrating but this time I won't tell HIM anything and just gossip about him here...
How can one be so..so..OBVIOUSLY I'm out of words but how someone with a BMI under the normal, can think that he is fat or needs to loose weight. It makes me wonder am I a size of a pumpkin? (No answers necessary! XD) That's why that bothers me so much. I just couldn't wrap my head around it...
Okay, I might have an idea why is he like that...If you happen to be a fan of Asia and Asians then yeah you might feel bad about yourself. The ones being exposed are extremely skinny, so a normal person with an healthy weight might feel bad about themselves. BUT WITH A HEALTHY WEIGHT!! which he doesn't have...
So yeah, I had to get it out of my chest because otherwise I would get into an argument with him and I really like my life XD
Anyways, when I read that thing I roared in my frustration and my mom told me not to scream XD So, I thought about rather venting online ^^
I'll write more in the weekends. Right now I have to deal with school a little and then its off to bed for me ^^
Some music before I go. I really love the song and the band itself isn't that bad :)
Firstly the video I promised...videos, to be more accurate because it seems that the original one was too long, so I cut it in half.
And the second part
Yeah, I talk to much but I was there for the entire day, so bare with me XD.
Today I cleaned my whole room. I CAN SEE THE FLOOR!! XD (The little joys in life ^^) And this time I really worked hard. I cleaned out everything - from the floor, changed the bedsheets, cleaned out draws, washed the carpet, washed the floor (and fell on it XD) and later I have to vacuum too(just in case).
About my draws...I found out that I have a lot of pills in the first draw. Like there is really so much of them and I also found a present that I got from my aunt who lives in Sweden now. It was a...I think it's a notebook. It has totally white pages and all around it gives it a...kind of a royal feeling to it. When I got it my mom said that I should write something special in it...but it has reminded empty...
And I have a well working envelope system working XD I have put pictures and art history cards and bank card etc into envelopes and I have like 7 of those and one envelope contains more envelopes XDD
And I haven't told you this before but I collect shopping bags and as for today 10.09.2011 I have 56 different shopping bags ^^
What else? I have ordered all of my clothes and I was thinking about giving one of my cardigans to Yuki because I don't wear it at all and I thought that she could wear it at home at least but since she made such a huge fuss about me giving her a foundation tester then I'm thinking about turning my cardigan into a pillow. I have a lot of clothes but still I feel like I have nothing to wear XD I think it's every girl's problem.
In the night, I dealt with some feedback to Oriflame about yesterday and now I'm just skype'ing with Yuki, watching T a little and just staying online but to be honest I feel like curling up to a ball at the moment. Why? It feels like I was absent for one day and my school life came grumbling down (& and my confidence got a little hit too). It seems like next week will be hell:
1. I already have to finish a book.
2. I have history test on Wendsday
3. I have physics test on Tuesday
4. I have monologue on Monday and I can't prepare for it because I left my notebook to school, so I have no subjects.
5. There is a possibility that I have to submit a discussion for a book I read in the summer.
& I'm sure that I have more n+1 things to do...
But right now, I'll go to sleep and tomorrow I'll see Yuki and then MS ^^
Did you miss me? Did you miss me? Of course you did! XD
Anyways, heya, It's Natsumi and now she is an official 12th grader aka SENIOR!
I would say that this was my first WEEK at school but unfortunately it wasn't like that.
September 5th
Week begun with Natsumi making a public performance thanks to somebody. Sometimes I really hate KR, like on Monday, but sometimes she is pretty useful too (I'll tell you about that later). On Monday, I hated her.
When I woke up, I didn't remember anything on that little performance but LUCKILY I looked at my diary, and there stood that I had to do a report on foreign news. Yeah, in my history class there is a custom that according to the list two people do a little overview on news outside and inside Estonia. Since KR made a "friendly" suggestion that we should start this year in the bottom, then I had to a report.
I'm not exactly the last on the list but yeah...
I made a choice on changing my last name. When my mom married with dad, I got to made a choice - whether I wanted to stick with my name or change it. I voted for a change because I think it would be a little awkward when all of my family is V and I'm the only R. My grandpa (from my mother's side) still doesn't know that I changed my name. He wasn't really totally on board with my mom marrying in the first place, so we didn't want to add oil to the fire. But I like my new name (well not that new, I have been wearing for the past 8 years) and it has this German feeling to it ^^
I think there wasn't anything else remarkable on my Monday.
Well, if I would say according to my timetable
History - performance
Math - some theory + exercises
Math - more exercises
Estonian - I think it was the best Estonian lesson ever. We didn't have to do anything XD and teacher just talked for a change which is great in her lessons. The more she talks the less we have to make anything ^^
English - That's a lesson I want to do something because that lady can talk and talk and talk and talk and you get the picture. Don't get me wrong! She is a great teacher but her talk seems to wonder and she moves form one topic to another and we sometimes quite can't catch up. And in her lessons. 5 comes easily...at least for me. In that lesson, I might be teacher's pet.
There was this one time, when I was answering for home reading, when I didn't know anything. I talked a little about the contents but she cut me off because she knew the book ("Pride and Prejudiced") and then she asked for the words, which I didn't know exactly and I got a 5+ XD You know what she said:
"You just need to digest the words and I'm sure you would know them but you have just learned them, so, It's okay."
And I only got 5 lessons that day but I had to hang out in the school's library to wait for my mom, so I did the homework and a little required reading.
After that shopping. I got a new bad which I already love...simply adore XD
Do you like? ^^
And I got some other nesserary stuff for school and I can cross out some items from my huge list too in "Neverland".
Since I got off so early, I went to the library and did a little more research for my research XD (Weird sentence XD). ANYWAYS, a small picture of my workplace. A little messy but...yeah XD
I stayed there for 3 hours when my brain totally shut down. I clearly overdid it but okay, I got a little addition to my research.
September 6th
Another day at the big school house ^^
The best thing about it? IT'S ESTONIAN TEACHER FREEEEEE!!!
And I don't remember what else happened XD
The timetable:
Math - I think some more exercises XD
Physics practice (basically a lesson where we only do excercises but the class is split into half) - of course some excercises.
I forgot to tell you. In the first Physics lessons (which was in Friday) the teacher said something to the boys in my class: "You are grown men (obviously to the BOYS)." Can I laugh?! XD Okay maybe some of them can measure up but most of them....I mean please...
The good news is, or maybe bad for me, HR booked me for the entire yeas AGAIN. I have to sit beside him in Physics class. Last time, last year, he was really angry at me when I sat next to TT in one lesson XD. Anyways, moving on.
Physics practice - some more exercises
Physics - for the whole class. We couldn't get enough for two lessons XD
English - teacher talked to us again
History - wasn't my fave that day. Our team got beat by KR team and that wasn't sweet. She beat us by 4 points, by freaking 4 points. But what you can expect. We have been working together for two and now we work agaist, so yeah, the competition is tougher but we survive.
(That reminds me that, at the moment, Yuki is in military camp. I wounder how she is doing in there. I hope she is having the time of her life ^^)
Class teacher's lesson - basically it's not really a lesson but a meeting. We talk about class stuff there (coming events, decisions we have to make etc) and that lessons usually doesn't happen either.
At home I made a poster for that Geisha book I read during the summer. It was a home assignment in Literature class. It looked like this.
Well, I'm proud of it and Yuki seemed impresses when I showed it to her through webcam. But I have to add, the night I drew it, I was drinking with my mom XD.
Oh, and that night I wanted to find a great background for my iPOd and I found a really GREAT ONE!
HE IS SO HOT! So be jealous because he's mine XD
Oh, and that night I was reading mangas...all night I was reading mangas XD and the most memorable quote was:
A: Are you gay?
B: If necessary!
Classic!
September 7th
That mornig started the hard way - I just couldn't open my eyes. Oh, and that wasn't the worst part of it, TT got sick and I was without a deskmate.
When I got to school, I noticed that TT was missing because usually she is there before me, so I got worried and sent her a text message. She said that wasn't feeling well and stayed home - no wonder, she was kind of sick on Tuesday too but it got worse.
Timetable:
Physics - studied a little something new and then exercises of course but the teacher talked about one for 20 minutes (that half of the lesson in Estonia) XD so we didn't get much done
Before English, I read a little required reading and just chilled.
English - we talked about reported speech and a little something I noticed in the last lesson
English -
I have to excuse my horrible outlook, I look somehow scary too XD
Literature - Luckily I didn't have to present my poster but we talked about KR's all lesson. She choose a Jeremy Clarkson's "For Crying Out Loud!" but still we got a homework about our posters. Had to write a little story on the back.
Somewhere between the English classes, I started to write a letter to the Japanes guy and after each lessons, I tried to continue and wrote a little in the math class to
Math - Japanese letter + exercises
After that lesson, MP asked me to accompany her to the little buffet in our school. When I was standing in the line, something weird happen. Like totally weird.
MP was standing in the line while I was standing few inches away to not be on the others way (I didn't want to buy anything) when I felt that my butt got slapped. In school. By a 2nd grader. THERE ARE A LITTLE HENTAIS IN MY SCHOOL. When I looked back, one of them was pointing at the other, kind of like "he did it!". They could hardly reach for my butt so why they slapped it. I have no words to that incident XD
Well, MP bought lunch and I felt like an anorexic next to her. There she was a full plate in front of her and I had nothing. My side was empty - well there was an iPod but nothing edible wasn't around.
I usually don't eat lunch at school. I just bring along an apple or a sandwich form home and nothing more. My mom gives me lunch money but I just don't want to eat at school.
History - the worst lesson of the day and it was made hell by my "mature" classmate. Everybody got quiet and worked on a paper that history teacher gave us. It was rather difficult to and guess what JJ did.
1. He copied off the girl in front
2. He sprayed some weird aerosole.
3. AND THE WORST PART, he giggled like a little school girl ALL THE TIME
Yeah, the boys in my class are really grown man! Oh, how I tried to ignore it but when he is basically right next to me, how could I. I really felt like punching him, so he would get rid of that freaking grin. And he was like that THE WHOLE LESSON.
And now comes the part where I like KR. She saw that JJ was writing off of him and purposely wrote the wrong answers and then the teacher asked him. OH I GOT TO LAUGH!!!
His answers were so random that teacher frowned and asked somebody else. She is one of those teachers who would never undermine a student.
JJ was like: "Why did you write the wrong answers?"
KR: "To teach you a lesson! So next time, you would do your own work."
That's one of the things that really bothers me about JJ. He hasn't done anything (during those 3 years I have been in the same class as him) and copies of others job. He never studies for anything and cheats and does the minimum.
Actually his deskmate was giggling too but he didn't bother me that much because I know that RP pulls himself together when it's nessesary and I have seen him working hard and trying to study. He has asked for my help many times and I see he tries.
And that was it for that day. After I waited like a loner for my mom again - listening to the music with a blank stare.
That night I read a manga, talked to Yuki and had a walk with my mom. The last one is taking an interest in the yaoi world that's great. She wants to continue with that anime, I showed her in Aegviidu. But there is a catch - I have to write Estonian subtitles or translate everything while watching. And she really wanted to know what that manga was all about which I'm reading at the moment.
September 8th
Sick day.
When I woke up, I had a massive migraine. It was so terrible that I couldn't even open my eyes and I felt so terrible that I could puked. It was simply awful. Somehow, I got to my parents bedroom and told them that I got a huge migraine.
I ended up sleeping there and when I woke up (for the second time that day) I found a wet cloth on my forehead. The feeling was a lot better then but still mom decided to torture me. She wanted to take my temperature. I have hated it ever since I was a kid. I hated siting in a one place and holding a sick under my armpit. I could take in any drug just that I could be stuck with a thermometer. And guess what?! I didn't have temperature. Take that mom! I told you so!
Since mom told me not to use the computer that day, I read mangas for my iPod XD and watched TV.
At 6PM, I drove to my sponsor though. I know it's bad that I didn't go to school but still went there but I made a promise.
Well, there were couple of my classmates, total babes, like seriously.
A: "Oh my god, he looks so hot."
B: "He is even better. A total eye candy."
A: "He is more of your type. I would gladly take him."
B: "Oh my god I would totally go to a ball with him."
A: "Yeah, totally. And I would be like this and he would be like that."
AND SO ON! And what they were watching at?
September 9th
One of the scariest days of my life.
So, a small recap of my day and my legs are REALLY tired.
But unfortunately, the blog don't want to upload that video, so I'll try to put it on toworrow.
When I finally got home, I ate a little and finally answered my Interpal letters. I have waited too long with this. And I was on Twitter and I found a Super Junior live. As you know (or found out just now) Heechul went to the army and let's just say - Super Junior with out Heechul isn't the same. And guess who was the one who took over Heechul's act? See for youself!
I have noticed that Super Junior dances aren't that complicated but the fact that there is about 10 people dancing at the same time, gives it that power. I'm not saying that the dances are lame or anything but they aren't just...well like Shinee "Lucifer" ^^
And that reminds me that I found a super cute picture about Kyuhyun.
Simply adorable. I can't even see Ryeowook next to him ^^
I found another Super Junior video and when I watch it, I can't really help myself for smiling. It's just so silly...next to Mr. Simple of course. And I just have to mention this - while Kyuhyun is dancing there comes a cap in his bangs and that really bothers me XD
And now it's U-Kiss time. They have made their comeback and that's really great but I just can't help myself from criticizing.
1. They all are way to oily.
2. Kiseop has too much bangs and he still reminds me of Edward. Maybe because I kind if miss him...anyways.
3. Why do I feel like a traitor, when I think that AJ looks hot in this video?
But other that those 2.5 bad things, they're comeback is really awesome and I am proud of them. And did I forget to mention I really like "Neverland"? XD
And I really like watching "I Don't Know" lives? They are also so silly and those lives make me feel better, more cheerful ^^
Since, I go to school now and since I have so much to do, I won't wear something exciting every day, so I will choose an outfit of the week.
So, what do you think? I really liked it because it was ÜBER comfortable and that beige this I'm wearing is really soft ^^ I think I wore it on Tuesday.
So yeah, I'm really going to bed now...it's not very late but I'm tired from all that standing around.
...this I have different thought and I wanted to share ^^
1. Thunder looks cute in this video ^^
2. Why are there so many back up dancers? Usually there is just MBLAQ but now there are like MBLAQ plus 4 backup dancers. Kind of like second MBLAQ but they don't sing.
3. Then what's with those screams before Joon starts singing XDD Like they are losing their minds XDD
4. Seungo looks very juvenile and he is like a better version of Yoseob (Beast/B2st)
5. Joon looks very cute when he smiles.
6. Mir is very jumpy and changed a lot. I think he wants to get rid of that "you look like Lee Hongki"-image. But I still love his rapping.
7. Then there's G.O with grandpa glasses and a really high voice but I think it's suits good in this video.
8. One of the backup dancers have cute pigtails XD
9. Mir is ÜBERCUTE in this video ^^
10. The ending is funny XD
So, small recap of my thoughts about "Mona Lisa" 's follow up single. What do you think?
Oh, and I have watched every newcomer or just performances that come up in allkpop and I give them all 1 minute chance. & If they don't impress me I move on. There is only one song which I don't like much but I wait until 1.50 or such. Why? Because Mir has a rap part there and it usually ends around that time. The song itself is here.
So, the big news (that I was suppose to tell you about yesterday) was that my sponsor called me and said that she will pay for everything and I just have to go with her to an Oriflame gathering in Tallinn. Anyone would say "Hell yeah!" but Natsumi is rather "I don't know". Why? Because I don't like when people treat me something. Maybe because I'm too independent to let anyone do anything for me..but this time I said yes and I don't regret it one bit.
Although, I would have liked to sleep longer. My morning today started at 5AM. And to be honest (& that might sound weird) it's easier to wake up at 5AM than it is on 6AM. Don't ask why! XD I just have that feeling.
When I was waiting in the bus station, a relative walked by or rode by and I just couldn't recognize him XD He war riding his BMX and was like "Hay!" and I waved and when he passed me I was like. "Oh EO!" XD and I found an artist tonight and he looked just like that relative but he's at least 10 years older.
I don't know how but EO looks just like Korean. He is my stepsister's son basically and she isn't Korean and neither is her ex-husband (I think XD). I haven't really met the guy but it's Estonia, so it's very unlikely that Korean actually lives here.
Anyways, moving on. I think I have a bit of motion sickness. When we went to Tallinn by bus, I almost threw up. I had that feeling but I kept drinking water in small sips and it passed. THANK GOD! I haven't thrown up for year, so I'm a bit afraid of it.
When we finally arrived in the capital of Estonia, we took a cab and drove off to a training where we learned how to get more consultants and how we should talk to people and then we have to, on September 9, we have to go on the streets. We all must have matching uniforms, Oriflame t-shirts and white pants/skirts. I'll be wearing ripped jeans XD I have another pair of white pants too but if they get wet, they will be see through. So, no thank you.
What I really like was that all the woman there were so positive and open in it. They spoke out loud, commented, tried to crack jokes and such. But when I entered the room there was like perfume cloud. Okay, I get it, they all work in a cosmetics company. And they all were quite (very) tanned. I'm sure that I was the few who were whiter.
After that we got a small lunch. I got a bag in the entrance way. There was a bottle of spring water, a sandwich that was cut into a triangle, a muffin and a moisten tissue. Yuki would have loved the last one, it was with lemon smell. And she "loves" lemons XD I didn't eat any of it, just stuffed it into my bag. I wasn't really hungry. I had a pack of instant noodles at 6AM and after the motion sickness, I didn't really want to eat lunch at 12.
The event itself was...eventful XD It was nice and the crowd was loving it. A lot of flowers were given out and I learned that Oriflame was born on the same year as my mom and now there is a orchid named Oriflame or something similar - basically Oriflame's own orchid. And it was beautiful too.
I got to see Marko Reikop live (he's a famous host in Estonia and also a somebody in journalism) and there was a men's choir and folk dancers. Oh, and also little kids singing ^^ Kioptaaa!!
After that I ate something (it ended after 4PM).
I know it's not much but that was all I could bare. After that we just stood in front of the house and my sponsor chatted with her grandchild.
Oh, I forgot to talk about the house we were in. It was magnificent. It was so beautiful. I didn't have much time to photograph it but in the next post I'll post pictures from the Oriflame day.
The ride back I learned more about my sponsor and we discussed schools and exams etc - I had a really nice talk with her. She is nice and smart and we get each other. Oh, and I ate the muffin and the sandwich in the bus and fortunately I didn't get motion sickness again. Closer to Viljandi, I listened to the music and stared at the clouds and listened to Helios. It felt really peaceful and like I wasn't driving anywhere. Like time had just stopped and I was lying on a green field under a tree.
I wish that time just stopped for a while. Everything has moved so fast and it seems to me that I can't even catch my breath. (I'm getting more poetic in every line I write - clearly I have to go to bed)
When I got home, I had dinner with my parents, chatted with Yuki a little, exercised and stayed on Twitter. I found a post where there was Music Banks performances and chicks clearly dominated. AWFUL! Okay, I'll admit there were some good ones too.
Like this one. I think the song is really catchy and something I could listen to.
One of the few boy bands there. I think it has some kind of...I wanted to say GD&TOP's feeling to it but I think it really doesn't. I don'r know what does it reminds me of. I think it has that American feeling to it. The video is weird though but the song itself isn't that bad ^^
I like this one too. It's a sweet song with out that über cute feeling to it. Something calmer after X-Cross. This was the first time I heard of her, although she was debuted in 2009.
This one reminds me of 4Minute but it pretty good too. Something to keep an eye on.
And this here will be a shocker. I have never been in love with them. I would categorize them with Teen Top because I think they debuted on the same time too (I'm just guessing) but in my eyes, after Teen Top's "Don't Spray Perfume (something like that)", this band is better. And this song is really catchy (maybe because of that remix). I think you all have heard of them (unless you are a novice among Korean pop), this is INFINITE!
I think that was all I wanted to say today but I might be forgetting something. Just excuse me this time. I'm really tired and my bed is waiting for me.
XOXO Natsumiiiii ^^
PS. TT, you were right - Kimet Marianne tastes great :)
Okay, that stung a little. Okay, I'm lying a lot. It's just...I know that she is better than me and I know that she can make friends better than me but It doesn't mean that I'm made of stone. I know neither of them did that intentionally but the feeling is same.
Now that I got that out of my chest I can write to you about my two first days of school. i know it sounds awkward but September 1 was officially th first school day but September 2 is the day when the lessons start.
So, yeah I survived the first day of school. Yay!
All morning I was worried whether Yuki would get into the house or not. I live in an apartment building where the front door is always locked and in the back door only during the night. And since Yuki doesn't have any talk time, so I was worrying whether she will get in or not (& it was heavenly raining too). And when she FINALLY came, I borrowed her my dress from "Spaghetti" and I wore an update of my Monday's outfit.
My face looks terrible in it but you can see the outfit ^^
So, a small recap of my day.
It was raining and my straight hair survived only with an umbrella & I was wearing heels. I think it was my fifth time in my life (& yes I'm counting XD) Well, I got to see TT again and my other wonderful classmates. The most awkward moment of the day was when I had to choose a kid to guide to the first day of school. I got a small boy with beautiful blue eyes and REALLY cold hands. He didn't say anything, I think he was a little shy, but when MP pointed that out he gave an angry look to her XD So, I got a little boy with attitude. The funny thing was that as we were walking he always watched when I stepped & then he stepped XD We had to hand those first graders there first textbook, aabits (ABC in English, or primer)
Oh, that reminds me. I have some wonderful boys in my class. One of them, I don't remember who yelled to HP: "You can't take her home" (note: He was holding a little girls hand). The pedobears XD.
The ceremony itself was beautiful and when the first graders had to read out the primer's oath, I almost teared up XD It was so nice and it would be the last time I hear it :( And you know what's the most sad thing about this ceremony, I will be in the last class that finishes my high school :(
Today...the first lesson was history. There we didn't do much. The teacher just asked us about dates/persons we remebered and then a label for the summer and later we just looked at the pictures from the textbook that we are not going to use. Layed back right? But that's not something I can say about physics. There teacher LT just talked about the exam we can choose as a final and then we started with the physics. Surprisingly I remembered some things from the years before and...I thought about taking a physics exam after all. I'm nuts, aren't I? XD
But I think it will stay as a thought after all ^^
In math I got to shine A LITTLE. Especially the time I said in a loud voice what a babo I am XD
As always - if I say something smart usually very quietly and nobody hears it but If I say something like this EVERBODY can hear it.
PE was totally pointless. We had to change clothes just we could sit down in the gym and talk. Totally waste of time - the changing not the talk itself. It got me thinking that although I don't like some of the things we do in PE, at least i get to "taste" every aspect of sports. Sure volleyball isn't my fave (because one time I had suffusions on my arms XD) but at least I know how the change on the court and the basic movements.
At on Friday the best is for the last - Estonian class (or it suppose to be Literature for now). Today we didn't do anything much (THANK GOD!) but then again we got some homework for later. In this class the time always wear on an it's pure torture (like TT) would say.
TT is my deskmate and guess what?! She is leaving me in the middle of September. Nooooo! The good news is that she will be back. She gets to go to Italy France - she already have been to Italy (jealous!)
At the moment Yuki is here. We are just doing our separate things (I think she is reading her old blog) bit we are enjoying each other company ^^ I read couple of mangas today. One of them was really sad but I'll tell you about it later because now Yuki is anxious to go out.
I'm pissed! I'm trying to be a good human being and quess what nobody is working together with me. Basically, I found a bank card and a driver's licence, like I told you yesterday, so today I went to the bank and tried to give both of them and announced the owner that I will take them there and guess what?! Swedbank only took the bank card and told me that the driver's license must be take to the police station and I have to file a report to found a lost document. My thought: Screw this! Police station is in way across town, in another borough, and I'm not looking forward to going there. So, I contacted the owner again and told him that he should call me when he is around my house.
When people make it so hard to be a good citizen then no wonder when nobody does it.
So, a little less angering subjects. I went to Yuki's place. Got to listen to the rewrite of her story and after that the depression hit. To be honest, I felt a little insecure before it but when Yuki went online and wrote her blog, I was kind of left alone with my thoughts and yeah, I moped and hid myself under a blanket.
Kind of like this ^^
But we went for a walk and sat in a BEAUTIFUL scenery, my mood started to get better. I really love sitting there and just talk, although I could do better without those ANNOYING bugs.
Yes, I'm naming my entry by U-Kiss' new music video.
Wanna see?
I have to say Kiseop looks smoking. That was the first thing I noticed, sorry XD And also, he reminds me of Edward here...and I'm very happy he gets to sing here more. I think something was good about changing the line up, although I wasn't very thrilled about it. Why? Firstly they kicked out of the band my favorite one (Kibum) and then the least favorite one (Alexander) and secondly, you can't even imagine how angry I was when I saw "Man Man Ha Ni" live with the two new members.
Since that was the kpop dance I learned I knew EXACTLY where their part was I watched closely (& Yuki said angrily at it). I probably looked like this...
Anyways, Hoon (I'm not so sure about that, I haven't given the new members a chance) took over Kibum's first part and probably AJ took over Alexander's part. And I was really watching that if he would do that fox sing then I really would kill him in his sleep. And he didn't, so, you will survive AJ.
A stunt like that, at least to me, shows that every past that they had with Alexander&Kibum is erased.
But I'm still a U-Kiss fan and I wish them all the best. & I really like "Neverland" it sounds great. Two thumbs up!
Oh, I remembered something. Today I also found a new kpop song (sounds like more hiphop) that was titled "Thumbs up!" XD
The first time I heard it I thought that it sounded like a mash-up from GD&TOP's "High High" and 2PM's "Hands up!" but I really love it now ^^ & it would definitely end up on my iPod XD
But what has Natsumi been up to? XD
Nothing much really, just hung out and such ^^ On Monday, Yuki was here and we made another video (so, I have a lot of editing looking forward to me), Tuesday we went to the library and I got to do my research. And I only did a little because I just couldn't focus. I just ended up reading the myths too much and places which I really didn't need and today Yuki came by again and we went to her school. She had a class meeting their and they were discussing tomorrow while I was writing to a Japanese guy (I don't know his name yet, so, I can't make him a nickname). After that we just went for a walk and I got to give that guy his driver's license back & he paid me. That was a surprise XD I didn't see that coming & he was generous too, I got 10€ XD But I'm thinking about saving it for headphones or some other thing from that list.
I made a mistake in my video XD Sorry about that. "What was so funny about my list ?"
& I have to say, I love my outfit in that video XD
Is it just me or I look really sleepy or weird on that picture? XD But it was the only one that my har looked nice and everything else, except the face ^^
Well, I hope that most of the stuff, which were on list, my mom buys for me but that just means that I have to wait for it and I hate waiting...anyways, what is going to happen tomorrow?
Well, on the formal part of the first school day and the day after that actual school day. NOOOOOOOOOOOOO!
I really would like to continue with my summer vacation...
Oh, BTW, I got two more letters from my penpals. One of them really didn't expect my letter so soon, Although I was more worried about sending it too late XD Funny world isn't it XD
So, I would have two more letter to write back to but I'm concerned about when I have the time.
I have to:
1. Focus on school, I still is my senior year
2. Start with "Teaduskool" again, I don't exactly have to but I want it for university if I go there after Finnish school, It's still a question.
3. Read books for Literature class.
4. Study more Estonia or I will fail the exam & basically there is a new book every week (another reason to hate my Estonian teacher)
5. Clean up my room, it looks like a dump.
6. Start to think about my future, Finnish school is plan A but I also need a plan B and ""...And if that fails a plan C and a plan D. You know how the alphabet works, don`t you."
7. (that's not really a must) See all of those shows in my list
8. Study a little Finnish now and then, so it would be easier for me in Finland.
9. Get myself into shape. I don't look that bad but I still could look better.
10. Get in bed at a reasonable time.
So, 10 things I have to do. The last on makes the rest of them whole lot of harder because the less time I'm up, the less time I have time to do all of that. But wish me luck and I hope that I will make it XD
But about tomorrow, September 1st, I have to be formally dressed and there 30 minutes before the actual ceremony & yesterday I saw a nightmare of it XD
I just went to school with Yuki (don't know why she was in there, she goes to another school) and we were on the 4th floor just standing, when I remembered I had to get lollipops to the first grader(s) whose hands I'm holding on their first school day (It's a tradition) & I totally forgot that so I was already in the panic mode. Then I saw my class teacher who handed me a speech which I had to represent and half of it was written in a very bad Korean, I just couldn't read it, it was basically microscopic. So, as I walked down the stairs I kept trying to figure them out. When we finally got to the front door, I saw one of my classmates with a punch of children and they were trying out their walk to the benches and then I woke up. I'm really glad I didn't had to see myself representing that speech that I could hardly read.
But now, I have to get to bed and see another dream. I really hope this one is much sweeter and I would get into another panic mode before the actual ceremony.
XOXO Natsumiiiii ^^
PS. In real life, I have never gotten a panic attack (& hopely I never have to). I have only helped Yuki out of a several.
Last night, I and my blog had a fight. Maybe some of you saw that I had ten different outlooks yesterday. I just couldn't get it right and then the blog did something that totally pissed me off. When you clicked on my posts there will be the same one twice! I hated it and I made some magic and now it back to normal (I hope!).
Anyway, I messed around with blog ALL DAY but still made time to bake a cake ^^ (or a pie, I obviously don't know the difference between a pie and a cake XD) Mine looked like this...
And in the night I played The Sims 2 (until 4.30 AM XD). Oh, and I went out for a walk with my mom too or a sitting with my mom or something like that. She is getting very lazy! But we discussed my Finland plans again and seems like I can't say anything to her. Let me elaborate! Basically, the night before yesterday I told my mom that I have always wanted to be an actress. And she took it literally. And when we talked about the Finland plans, her first sentence was "But you changed your mind now and wanted to be an actress." The things she remembers! But when her good daughter recommends her to move more (she leads rather a couch potato lifestyle) she doesn't even listen to me!
Parents...
Today, I woke up with a heart attack. Thank you, Yuki! I think my heart literally skipped a beat. SERIOUSLY!
And my phone didn't ring. I set an alarm clock (or I thought I did it) at 8AM and Yuki called me a little after 9.30AM. And then did my skin care routine. I'm getting very lazy with this and my skin is showing it - I'm getting that thing on my forehead. Usually my face skin is pretty good - I hardly have any scars on my face (except this one on my forehead, from a boomerang XD) and rarely I have pimples and such. Wanna see what I put on my face? That's the routine I do twice a week, I don't want to exhaust my skin and I'm lazy too XD
Seems like a lot of stuff, right? XD
Firstly I splash some water onto my face and use the face wash (1.). After I rinse off and try, since my face scrub (2.) takes the best affect on dry but washed skin. After I get that off my face, the sand effect wears off, I choose one of those face masks (3.). I like the middle one the best because I makes my face very smooth, it hydrates and after that my skin looks whiter. The first one I recently bought (I don't know whether I have used it) but it has a tropical smell to it and it is suppose to supply your face with vitamins and the last one is a peel-off mask which suppose to deeply cleanse my skin and it suppose to be grape but I think it has some other unique smell to it and it's the oldest mask I got ^^ So, after 10 minutes (peel-off mask 15 minutes), I rinse or peel the stuff off and dry by slightly tabbing. After that comes the toner (4.) and lastly the creams. The first one (with the same label as 1. and 4.) is a face cream and the smaller one is an eye cream. And that's it!
Other 5 days of the week, I use this. This one combines 1. and 4. together and it smells like tea tree and rosemary.
I all of the products (except 2.) is from Oriflame. I think I have never mentioned this but I kind of work there or something XD (I don't know if it's actual work because I'm cosultant there but I don't have work hours ^^)
Oh, I forgot something else. Yesterday when we were walking with mom, I found someone's driver's licence and bank card. It's like the second time I find something like this. Last time it was a phone and I returned it (and as a reward I got a huge box of chocolates XD). So, I really deserve a good citizenship award ^^.
Well, my darlings, I'm starving and it's Sunday, so I'll go to Yuki's place today! And today will be the last Sunday before school. OH MY GOD!
Natsumiiiii ^^
PS. Every month will be in different font and today I thought about editing another video :)
So, as you can see my writing is as it comes and usually when Yuki is here, I never blog. 죄송합니다!
Anyways, what I have been up to? Hm, well, Yuki was here (obviously XD) and we just had a little one-on-one time ^^ We just hang out and this time didn't include anyone else. We have met up so much over these three months, so I don't know what's going to happen when school starts. We have talked to each other EVERY SINGLE DAY and I have had SOOO much fun too. And I get to meet other people and I think I have changed over this summer. I have more attitude now and I don't mind so much being noticed ^^ I haven't always been that kind of person who dress-ups differently and I would never thought that I would share my life online XD I have always been so-to-say different and usually people don't welcome different. I think, here in Estonia (and maybe somewhere else), people who drink and go to parties and listen to Guetta are considered to be cool and everyone else is...a loser maybe and usually those kind of people don't take the time to get to know those "losers" and they start to label and I hate labeling! In real life I'm the mystery girl (and someone called me actually a vampire XD) and so a lot of people don't know who Natusmi actually is. Well, people in my class know I'm incredibly smart (one of them called me kind-of-genius) and they know that I listen to those rice eaters (I think most of them don't make a diffrence between Korean, Japanese, Chinese etc). They know the last part because I made a recearch about the possibilities of Estonian to learn Korean and I had to defend it in front of the class. And that's it! Is it really what's Natsumi all about?! Well of course there are some wonderful people who I talk more than "What was the homework in math today?" and they know more about me but I'm talking about majority :).
So, what did we do in those three days together when Yuki was here? Well, the first night it was all about Mary Stayed Out all night and shopping. We bought some stuff for Yuki but we started with a breakfast for me and lunch for Yuki. We had two roll and juice and for dessert ICE CREAM!! XD And after that at least 3 hours of shopping. I had fun shopping with Yuki and I enjoy it more than with mom. The last one is SO hung up on money that the first thing that she sees is the price tag and not the product itself. And I hate it. I know that money is important but why do we have to stress about it constantly, like buying clothes. I know that I could get to plain T-shirts for one beautiful one but I like that beautiful one and when I and mom are shopping then our usual conversation is like this.
Me: Oh, this looks great!
Mom: How much does it cost?
Oh, come on! Not everything is about money although it is a necessity. But we got Yuki an amazing pair of converse and a beautiful T-shirt (with butterflies, Soubi's butterflies ^^). Oh, and before that we dyed my hair XD How could I forget about it? XD My hair now is kind of black but since I had highlights before it's little blue and purple too XD. And my outfit of the day. Although It was sunny on that day but my hands are so tanned that I wore a sweater to prevent them turning darker.
After the long time walking for store to store we sat on a park with the statue of the flute player and made couple of pictures. And after that "Mary Stayed Out All Night" until we went to sleep. Oh, wait we did watch "Mary" but before that we went to the beach of Viljandi's lake and just sat there for a while. It was nice! We got to talk about the stuff we have been thinking but really didn't spoke out loud. We could have stayed there longer but it was getting REALLY cold, well the summer is almost over so, NO KIDDING!? XD
The next morning there was some manga reading and a film and we just hanged out but in the evening we made a video which Natsumi wanted to put on her blog BUT we talked so much, over two hours, so that I won't be posting all of it. So there is some editing for me and I promise it will be up somewhere in the future. There is also some elaboration about stuff I have mentioned here and for the first part I think I will post the part where I talked about my penpals ^^
PS. My hair looks awful and the more awful it gets in minutes XD And also this is an example of my terrible English. Enjoy!! XD
Yeah, there is obviously more but I'll save them for other entryies ^^ There was a into in the beginning to (which we did like 3 or 5 times) but I forgot to add it, so for the next time then :).
Today, we didn't do much either. Just went to the city for a while and I send Yuki off around 2PM XD And now I have just hang out on Twitter, waiting for a letter, listened to the music and edited that video. ^^
And, right now, I found an amazing pianist. He calls himself as the Asianpianist and this one right here blew my mind (like in the actual song, "Blow your mind" XD)
Amazing right!?! So, defenitely give him thumbs up! ^^
That "Natsumi's penpals" video is taking forever to upload and that makes YouTube really slow too. And I'm basically just sitting and watching what I have written XD And that letter, I have been
waiting for 2 hours now, still hasn't come. It's the internet. Things should come in the lightning speed.
Anyway, I thought I would add a little playlist here with the songs I'm listening nowadays:
*CN Blue - Arigatou
*Alice Nine - Blue Flame
*Rin & Len - Butterfly On The Right Shoulder
*Beast/B2st - Fiction
*2NE1 - Follow Me
*2NE1 - I Don't Care
*Miyavi - Jibun Kakumei
*MBLAQ - Mona Lisa
*Super Junior - Mr. Simple
*CN Blue - Now or Never
*Super Junior - Superman
*2PM - 10 Out Of 10
*Ayabie - Toys Factory
So, these are my 13 most listened to songs on my iPod now ^^ And that reminds me that I should delete some songs form it - I have like 168 songs in it XD
Okay, I'm off now. Enjoy the playlist I put on and maybe I will write again soon and maybe not. Anyways...
So, the day was good! I got most of the thing in my list than but more to the end I was sucked into the manga world. But I got some summer reading done, I wrote in the blog, I started watching Bokura Ga Ita, I wrote a letter to AK and did a little cleaning too ^^ There was also Korean language in the list and writing my story to the computer but they can wait.
As I mentioned, I read couple of mangas, also stumbled on some that I have already read but I found a good one which I can call as my favourite ^^ So, my two favourites are "Non Tea Room" and now "Name of Love".
Today, my mom accidentally pumped into my old draftings teacher and that man obviously doesn't like me.
Him: Did Natsumi changed schools?
Mom: Almost.
Him: When she does, she shouldn't be involved in real subjects (Math, Physics)
Mom: Why?
Him: Because she hasn't have a good sense of space.
And then he doubted at my Math and Physics grades and they are perfect! Man, that pissed me off. He doesn't know nothing about me! Yeah, I went to his class but in there I was more worried about my grade that I wasn't even trying, to be honest, and that time, I was more focused on getting my German grade up.
Today I laughed laughed so hard that I was tearing up XD I would tell you the joke but you probably wouldn't understand it. It's an inside joke, so to say XD Still want to hear? Well, long story short. My mom is a workaholic and she came to me so I would read out her handwriting. And then she made a remark that she comes home early and that cracked me up XD (Although there isn't a joke XDD)
Anyways, I have once cracked up like that before too. It was in the middle of the night and Yuki was staying over. Yuki told me about a dream she had and she said something wrong and basically I started laughing and I was laughing that hard that Yuki started laughing and we laughed like that for at least 10 minutes (I used "laugh" a lot, I should update my vocabulary ^^)
I should add something colorful too. So, I wanted to but up a 2NE1 song. My first though was Fire because the first few lyrics haunt me:
I go by the name of CL 2NE1.
It has been a long time coming but we are here now.
And we are about to set the roof on fire.
You better get yours because I'm getting mine.
Yeah, the question is "get what?" but the lyrics don't give me a straight answer either.
But I wanted to put "Clap Your Hands" up. I totally love that song and I like Park Bom's wine red hair in this video. Amazing? Would I look good in this color? XD
I don't get people. I'm watching "Ghost Whisperer" and they keep secrets for years, 20 years. And for what? So, that it would come out in the worst situation ever? It seems so pointless. When you are with someone then you should tell him/her about everything. And especially when you have children from another relationships. If the truth doesn't come out soon, your children might have babies of their own.
And why is it ALWAYS like that - when I want to go to bed or at least off the computer, everybody wants to talk to me. And when I sit online and WANT to talk to somebody...then nothing. Frustrating! But I can go now ^^
XOXO Natsumiiiii ^^
PS. Daddy is acting silly - every time he passes my room, he waves at me XD
